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| 31 December, 2007 The encounter between an unfold and an image |
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When I started this collumn on 15th September, I continue it everyday with pleasure. Every morning I sink into the darkness of body, with asking 'Don't you have some new intersting findings?' When I catch some unknown body feeling I follow and amplify it, then everyday an unfold appeared it's shape. I just wrote it. And after that I tryed to search a image which matchs today's key word on google iamge search. Im have met so many intersting images, about resonance, life, transparency and so on. The image which was found gave new stimulus to the unfold, then I could deepened it often. I enjoyed these encounters between key words and visual images a lot. Everything is resonating. Our life is playing beyond channels, though our consciousness doesn't notice it. |
| 30 December, 2007 Qualia and information |
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What are qualia? Qualia and information are similar, but there is a big difference between them. Qualia are only felt and resonated by life. Informations can be treated by machine like as computer. Machine cannot feel qualia. This is the point. But most of modern scientists don't understand about qualia which only life can feel and resonate. Because they don't know what is the life, what is the difference between life and machine. Then there are big confusion between qualia and informations. Most of sientists regard the qualia as the informations. For example, scientists use the concept of 'Information transmitter','Neurotransmitter'. It transmits specific qualia from a living cell to another cell, not information. But almost scientist misunderstand qualia as information. From a chip of computer to another chip, some information can be transmitted through electric signals, but not qualia. There are no machine which is excited by adorenline. This misunderstand between qualia and informations cover the secret of what is life. Most of scientist are reflected by this misunderstanding, then they become humanoid more or less. They regard themselves something like a machine which is moved by imput informations and output some works. Continue to listen to your life every morning. Try to feel the difference between qualia and information. The presure of humanoization is so strong. Try to escape from the influence of humanoization by washingbrain informations noise waves arround you. ****** Today's photo is slime. They have niether brain nor nerve, but they can catch the various kinds of qualia of gravity, light, temparature, moisture, gas, taste of matter and so on. Qualia are not only human's specialily. We need to become life to understand qualia. |
| 29 December, 2007 Calabi Yau resonance body |
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Download one of the most favourite calbi yau space image from google image seach. Show it on your computer. It is still, but move it in your imaginary world. The string is always shrink and spread into eleven dimensions with extremely high speed before the time dimansion generated. We can not imagine what speed in non-time dimension, but anyway somehow try it. Each part of your body are moved in different demension by another string's vibration. You can expect niether timing nor direction, your body is just to be moved by others. But also your movemnent effect to others. When we continue this sway for a hour, the body/mind become very good condition which is not bound by any binds. After this moment, extremly intersting will happen on your body spontaneously. The borders which bound us are going to melt down. Borders between mind/body, self/others, inside/outside, indivisual/goroup, and so on, are going to melt and fade. Let them go. This is the transformation to Calabi Yau resonance body. One of the most favourite transformation training for me. |
| 28 December, 2007 Deconstruct every fenomenon by resonance |
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| Crick here to view moving calabi yau strings I recommend to meditate about strings with watching the moving image of strings. Ｉｍａｇｉｎｅ ｔｈａｔ ａｌｌ ｐａｒｔ ｏｆ ｓｔｒｉｎｇ ｉｓ ｓｐｒｅａｄ ａｎｄ ｓｈｒｉｎｋｉｎｇ into eleven dimensions with extremely high speed, not only spinning like as the illustration shows. Become resonating string! It's amaizing.! |
Everything is reosonating. When we enter into the plank length which Strings are resonating in eleven dimansions according to String theory, everything is made of variations of resonance pattern of strings.( illustlation above) Every mass and energy is generated by them. Plank lenth which strings are vibrating is manaus 33 times of 1cm. It is 0.00000000000000000000000000000000001cm. Imagine a reonance field which is only resonance of strings exists. There is no mass, no energy, beause mass and enrgy are generated by the resonance patterns of strings. Every mass and energy is generated in this resonance field. This field is completely different from our welknown three dimansional space, there are no subject, no object, there is no difference between mass and energy. Also the life and qualia which life feels is generated in this resonance field. Life and qualia is nither mass nor energy. They are completely different being. But the mass, energy, life and qualia are generated by variation of resonance pattern of strings. Then if there were a principle which controll everything, it must be a resonance principle. We start from the resonance, from the simplest fact which everything is resonating When we level down our consciousness, we can catch the subtle fenomena of resonance. Traditonal meditaton also noticed about this fenoemna, they called it as subtle body or 'chi'. Contemporary philosopher and psychologist also aware of the resonance. Gendlin who originated forcusing technique named it 'felt sense' which catch a subtle fifference of conditions about the world by whole body. Mindell who originated process organized phychology called it 'sentient feeling'. Both of them concentrate to listen to the subtle qualia of mutual activities. The remain work which we have to do is to deconstruct these kowledge by resonance plinciple. It must be long process for thousands years before we human complete this work. But the process is going to starting now. |
| 27 Decmber, 2007 Imagination from Universe to String |
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Himalayan winter sky is so transparent. Now It's the time to enjoy Andromeda gallaxy on the top of Himalaya mountain. Under the Kasiopea, I can see the twilight of Andormeda by bare eyes. If I see by scope with eight times lenz, the long circle shape of gallxy becomes so clear. When I watch Andolomeda, Ｉ appriciate this contemporary world which we can envelove our imagination from the macro size of the Universe to micro size of Strings. Not only space, about time also we can spread our imagination from now to four billons years before when our life started living, and fifteen billions years befoe when the Universe started. Not onlｙ long time, according to the string theory there is no time dimension in the tiny seven dimansions. We can imagine now from the long time to no time. No time means infinity of time. The biggest gift from the science is this possibility of spreading our imagination. We need a hard training to spread our imagination until the limit. But it is worth to do it, it gives us so delcious freedom of imaginary world. When you want to spread your imagination, you need to stop liiving only in the daily world. You need to stop cotact with telvision, newspaper, and people who lives in the only daily world like a bisiness and family. Our gallaxy is going to merge with Andoromeda gallaxy after three billions years. The remained time is shorter than the four billions years history our life has spended. Let's ask to yor life; What do you want to do the most in this remained time? |
| 26 December, 2007 Counterattack by Libido |
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Last midnight, I woke up by dog's voices. And I noticed I was dreaming in sexual dream at that time for prety long time. It is not so good dream, my sexual desire collapse by itself, then the sexual relationship does not going successsfully. The real body feeling reamined so clearly. Ｉt is so different from the creative awareness that every morning I recieve from my subbody. Maybe in the mid night time my subbody is floating in these sexual dreamig. Suddenlly I noticed that last night I am thinking against the Libido method by Sigmund Freud. I thought that Freud mistook the role of sexual libido too big than it is. I want to release from the view of Freud. But my subbody told me that I am dreaming in sexual libido in the midnight. I have to reconfirm that my libido is still streaming strongly in my darkness of body. The darkness of sexaulity is so deep. I can not escape from the libido. Read yesterday's Unfold |
| 25 December, 2007 The main channel of the dream for life is body feeling. |
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We are too much have a bias to take dominant on visual channel in our modern culture. Then when we dream a visal dream, we forget a body feeling with the visual image. This is just bias for us which is imprinted from modern culture type. In real, we always dream in body feeling channel as a main channel, the visual images are associated by accident.But the body feeling is always real. The impression through visual channel is so strong that we have a tendency to recognize our dream through visual image. But the real main expieriences for life are in body feeling channel. When I want to remember a dream after waking up, I always try to remeber what feeling did I feel in the dream. Then if I remember the body feeling it is OK without accidental visual image. I just follow the body feeling qualia and I can get the message what the dream want to tell me. |
| 24 December, 2007 Deep imprinting of X'mas |
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Almost of you who are reader of this site, may be niether christian, nor capitalist. Why do you cerebrate X'mas? I used to be wondering about it in my younghood. But I noticed that our life follows the habit of X'mas naturally. Why? Because it has deep origin for human. It started in our ice age as a festival to cerebrating the winter solstise. When we lived in iced age, the winter solstise was the biggest hopeful day because the day started increasing daytime and warmer day by day. Maybe our genom are imprinted from the memory, then whole humans are infected by X'mas. *********** Whole day of today, I spended time with my ten years old lover in Himalaya. We decorated X'mas tree together. I felt that finally I got a happiness in my life. |
| 23 December, 2007 Starting from to be living |
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We can start from to be living. At any time we can start from there with a living body. Listen to the life sway. We don't need any idea or thinking. Just listen to the life. What do you want to sway? Start from the weakeset sway. It is different a little bit in each day. The variations of the weakest sway. That's all what we have to do for creating weakened body butoh, just continue it everyday. After some years, you will meet your own weakened body. ＊＊＊＊ Photo: Tatsumi Hijikata 'Hosotan 1972', camera:Onoduka makoto |
| 22, December, 2007 Sway includes everything |
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When we listen to life, life is always swaying. Life does not stop, It's always swaying between vaital and tired, between active and passive. It is the first characteristic of life. This life sway has infinite possibility. Every kinds of bigginings of qualia are included in a sway. The beggest difference between traditional meditation and subbody method is on the basic atitude to the life sway. The traditional meditation judges some tendency is good and some one is bad. Subbody method doesn't judge at all. There are no good and no bad in the life sway. Every sway is equal. To recieve everything in our life sway is the most important thing. We can affirm every kind of qualia of life. Then we can open the whole possibility and veriety, creativity of life completely. When we follow a subtle sign of biggining and ride on it, amplify it, then various kinds of qualia are unfolded and developing. To catch the subtle sign of bigginings before separating to channles is important. At that time qualia keep the most primitive condition which are not differentiated into channels. The forcusing technique by Eugene Gendlin is to listen to this primitive life sway before differentiation to channels. This qualia are belong to the world image=self image channel. When a subtle gap happens between the world image and self image, we feel disconfotable feeling. Felt sense which the focusing technique focuses to listen to is this subtle disconfortable feeling. The process oriented psychology by Arnord Mindel is catch this process at the changing in the time dimension. It concentrate to the subtle gap between the first process which has a tendency to protect former condition of world image and self image, and the second process which is a new tendency to change the first process, and amplify the gap until the limit. Subbody method is to follow the subtle sway of second process through riding on by whole body/mind, and amplify it to create an unique subbody movement of life. The common charasteristic among these thechniques is to listen up to the subtle sway of life. Sway includes everything. |
| 21 December, 2007 Qualia and information |
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Qualia and information are similar but defferent at a point. The defference is the following; Informations are able to be treated by machine like a computer. Qualia are able to be uses by only life. Machine can not feel, treat, nor use qualia. This is the biggest defference. I definete qualia thus. This is the most clear definition of qualia. Amaba and plants can feel qualia, because they are members of life. Brain cell of multi-celled creature feel same qualia with them. Computers cannot feel qualia at all. They can use only information. We can treat information by tree logic of '1 or 0', but we need multi-dimansional transforming rhizome logic to treat qualia. If we try to cattch qualia by tree logic, we can chatch only a map which is projected into lower dimension from higher multi-dimansional world. Language is the lower dimensional mapping of higher multi-dimansional world. It is just simplized reality. What is called inteligence in modern age is made up of mistake the lower mapping for the reality. |
| 20 December, 2007 Reccomendation to take flight |
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My biggest speciality is to take flight. I continue to flight and flight, from babyhood, each time when I got hard expieriences, I trained to take flight immdiately from this world to another world where I am never hurt. It was to escape to imaginary world which is never exsist in this visible world. All of my subbody grew up there. In camblian age which was five thousands years before, so many kinds of hole creature appeared. They are the most fammiliar creatures for me. Maybe they should be my ancesters. I have become a hole creature as stone shape (below). This is the very subbody of subbody for me. I have danced in this stone shape so many times.  They escaped from big eaters creature, and the invented a completely new way to survive. The safe darkness of underground, the far Himalaya, My life is repetition of a flight and another flight. Now I noticed the worth of flight. Flight is a kind of creation for new way of living. This awareness guides me to another unfold. I noticed that I have a group of subbodies which don't prefer to come out on the stage of creation. They belong in the flight group, and they are doing another type of creation. When I was bound by the concept that creation is the most important thing for our life, I could not recognized the worth of flight. I need to be release from the bind of creation. Flight is also a kind of creation for life. |
| 19 Decmber, 2007 When we continue swaying, another dimension opens. |
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The biggest characteristic of subbody method is to continue swaying. With listening to the darkness of body, we follow a subtle sway and amplify it until limit, then at the edge another dimension opens. It is like as what we live in the multi-bublles-universe, and duirng unknown time we notice that we have entered into another dimension. A bublle connects to another bublle, then we travel from 'Now Here' world to 'Nowhere' dimension. Tatsumi Hijikata was a traveler in this nowhere dimension. He said, "I often feel that time is stopping somehow. Time has some nature to be still, comparing to space. Space is moving. My distraction is always increasing than the speed of space." So there is a non-time dimension in this universe. Our memories in five years old, darkenss of fetus world, life memory in another creature's age, are folded in the non-time dimension. Hjikata always travels in this non-time dimension. Accoding to the String theory, there is a non-time dimnsion except of welknown three space dimensions and one time dimnsion. The dimension is curled up in the tiny space of Prank length (=0.0000000000000000000000000000000001cm). Now we can imagine that our iner qualia which our life keeps are folded in the tiny nontime dimsnsion. Also the archtypes, proto life tendencies, are foled in this tiny dimension. Hidden bodies, sub-characters, shadows, not-mes, Traumas, inferiority complexes, proto dreams, deep memories, dissociated expieriences, are folded in this dimsension of our drakness of body, and they are connected in multiple-dimemsions. To enter subbody world means to be traveller in these multiple- transforming dimemsions. When you become a professional traveler, you can become travel guide of this attractive world. Read yesterday's Unfold |
| 18 December, 2007 Poor thinking is worse than stopping |
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There is a proverb about htinking in Japan, ' Poor thinking is similar with stopping.' But I feel that bad thinking is worse than stopping. Because our brains do big work duirng sleeping. To devide qualia which we got during daytime, between the worth to remain or to be thorown away. It is very important work for brain. But when we continue thinking, brain can not do this imporatnt work. The reason that I could not become someone until sixty years old, is that I could not get how to stop thinking before fifty years old. I was from phylosofy then the bad habit og thinking bound me so long time. Now I try to sway between asleep and awake as long time as possible everyday. |
| 17 Decmber, 2007 Becoming a fetus |
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Become a fetus who is listening to the darkness with opening non- separeted oneness channel. It is the best timing when you wake up and befere your consciousness raises up firmly. Keep the conditon swaying between subconsciousness and consciousness. You don't need effort so much at this timing. Listen to the dream asking for "What do you want to tell me?" Listen to your life, "What do you want to do the most?" It's the best timing to communicate with your life and subbody. Become a fetus at least once a day. |
| 16 December, 2007 Listen to the inner stone |
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These three days, I dreamed same strange dream. It is not visual dream, but only body feeling dream. A inner organ transform to solid and become stone. It seemed a symbol of dissociated character which cannot communicate with other characters. This morning I listened to the feeling for over one hour. Then so many awareness are unfolded one and another wiht associating. I wrote all of them in each page of a small notebook. I used so many pages. ・Why do you become stone? May be it recieved so many strong stimulus as stressess from outside. ・This stonized character may be a symbol of dissociated character in my whole self.It try to tell me that it is impossible niether fusion nor integration between dissociated characters. ・It seems inner organ transform to stone. It may mean life sways out to non-life world. ・I created so many stone pieces of my subbody dances. are they have some ocncern about this dream? ・I felt that some tendencies of my life, the subbody wanted to become a stone which need not to communicate with others. ・What is stone for me? ・People in animism often to worship stone, in Japan, in India they have completely the same habit. What is stone for life? ・The life and stone have completely opposite nature. Then proto life worshiped the stone to ask to the biggest secret what is life? or what is the universe? ・ This dream may tell me to listen to the stone. Recently I did niether dance stone nor listen to the stone. ・Stone may be something important for life. ----The associations continued one and another so many times like this. This expierience seems to include so rich awareness. It will be unfolded slowly slowly. |
| 15 December, 2007 The biggest flexibility |
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The get a flexiblity from to be the most simple life to to be the most complicated human being, this is the most important thing. It should be the next being style for us after taking off the limitation of modern human. Modern human being is too much bound by to be the human. Then we needed the strong ego persona. But the widest possibility is to get the flexibility from to be the weakest simple life to to be the human. To be lereased from the human at any time, and able to be the most simple proto life like as a single celled creature which is vibrating with the world. To be able to return the fetus mind which is listning to the darkness in the small space like as the womb. To be able to become the weakest life swaying between life and death. Not to push out strong self too much. To listen up to the resonace between life and the world. The weakened body which Tatsumi Hijikata invented guide us until this conditon for human. Here is the place which Michel Foucault predicted after dying of modern human. We can released from the both of ego and the nation-state. |
| 14 December, 2007 Listen to the morning chaos |
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The best timing to contact with subbody is the moment when we wake up. Everyday i listen to the darkness in the swaying between awake and asleep. At first I can see just darkness, and slowly a chaos with twilight form whch I cannot recongnize what it is comes out. When I watch it with patience then slowly I nocice something with a certain sense. The moment a clear shape coming out from the dark chaos moves our heart deeply like a crystalization. I will tell you the point to get the fruits of your subbody's creative work at night. * Become a fetus without border of channels Fetus don't have any channel. Every channel is melting in oneness in our fetus world. The life does not have channels. * The moment when a qualia of chaos get a channel, our consciousness can recongnize it. And it is developing with streaming and changing shape from a channel to another channel. * Train yorself how to transfer between a multi- dimensional rhizome world to a for dimansional tree world flexiblly, between fetus world without border and human worl with full of borders. * I recommend to keep a condition as far from the human as possible. Use word as less as possible during whole days. Never talk with people. Keep quiet solitude. Never watch television, newspaper, telephone, mobile, these mean the suiside of subbody life. |
| 13 December, 2007 Is your world image and self image are running? |
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Imagine that wolf and tiger's world image. They run for thousands km everyday in their teritory. Can you imagine the world image of fish who live in the stream? Become the birds who imigrate long distance, and imagine the conection between their world image and self image. The world iamge and self image for origine life was oneness and always flowing and changing. Can you remenber this feeling of fluidity of the world image and self image? If you forget it, please try to become the creature who was moving like above. You can contact the subtle vibration of origine life. The concept of 'instellation' by C.G.Jung atract me for these few days, I followed the tendency though I didn't know the reason. Today, I noticed the reason why it atracted me. I noticed several years before that the world image and self image are not separated in our subbody realm. And the concept of constellation by Jung was the same. Inner condition of life meets a specific outer world. The words were different then I could notice the similality. To find a deep connection between two things which were regarded as no connection at all. This is the "Unfold" or "Awareness". To let our life into the condition which happens the unfold easily is one of the most important technique of creative life. |
| 12 December, 2007 Quiet glia |
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Why I guess that the the long term memories are reserved in glia cell? Because there is no possibility in neuron to reserve memories. neuron use electlic signal for communication. When a signal of light enters our eyes, the qualia of light transrated to signal of electlicity. the qualia of light ride on the electlic wave as a specific resonance pattern in seven subtle dimensions. So neurons are just channels of flequant electlic wave to carry signal of each qualia. It is impossible that memories are reserved without changing at all on these busy channels. Then neurons are not the place to reserve long term memories. Where is it? For long time it was a deep secret. Now this deep secret is going to be solved. Brain sientists used to regard that glias are just supprter or breeder fro neurons, because glias don't use electlic signal at all. Gilas are so quiet cells defferent from neuorns. This quietness has the possibility to be the place to reserve long term memories for long time without changing. I listen to the quietness all the days in Himalaya. Then I can notice that the logn term memories like as mother's voice, face and so on, are continue to shine for long years without fading. I can guess these long term qualia are reserved as a vibrating strings in tiny seven dimensions in glia. Because according to string theory there is no time dimension in these tiny seven dimensions. I have never met the other theories to explain long term memories in our brain. If you know, tell me please. |
| 11 Decenber, 2007 Glia-Neuron Network |
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Brain sience changed in these ten years from reseaching neuron network to glia neuron network. It seems just begining. In few years the role of glia will be found as main role for memory and learning. Because if the memory will be reserved as a vibration of strings in subtle seven dimensions, it must not reserved in neurons which so many electlic impulses are passing through. Memories cannot be reserved without changing for many years in such a condition. The memories of my mother are reserved for sixty years in my brain without fading at all. Memories must be reserved in the calm condition of glia cells which don't use electlic signal. The role of neurons are recieve inner qualia from glia, and communicate with other neurons. We have 14 bilions neurons in our brain coltex, and 100 billions neurons in total of center neuro network. The numbers of glia cells are regarded arround ten times more than neurons, it will be regarded between 40 billons and 100 billions. Each neuron are connected with ten tousands other neurons, and hundreds of glias. Then so huge numbers of encounter between qualia and other qualia will be happened in our brain unconsciously in each moment. When some sensial encounter happens, a erea od glia neuron network and another one are excited together by the new connection. This must be an expierience of the awareness, the flash and the unfold. The constellation and the synchronicity which I wrote aboutyesterday are also phenomena of the same with this. |
| 10 December, 2007 What is the 'Constellation' ? |
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The concept of 'Constellation' by C.G.Jung guides us the resonance between inner qualia and outer qualia. Outer qualia are felt through interaction between life and physical thing or enrgy. Inner qualia are felt by life just as pure memories which are reserved in life. These inner qualia and outer qualia are resonating always. Life feels them as a oneness=double. Jung's 'constellation' means inner conditions of subconsciousness are connected with specific outer happenings. These phenomena are treated as the 'Synchronicity' with mysterious aspect by people. But from the view of resonance between inner qualia and outer qualia, they are just normal phenomina, ther are no mystery, no wonder. We often meet a scenary what seems to tell us something in a journey. Because when we want to meet something unnkown, we go on a journey. A student meet a proper teacher when student is ready to do so. Awareness occurs when we throw away self consciousness. When we become sensitive we can notice the resonance easily, but normal consciousness ignores them. Acctually, the resonance is always occured, just our ego and the consciousness as a subject disturb the awareness of resonace. C.G.Jung noticed about this resonance long time ahead. I respect him as a courageous pioneer of darkness of body and life. Jung's awareness is just a prelude for the discovery of resonance principle in the univierse. |
| 9 December, 2007 Floating into no where, no when world of qualia |
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The moment when subbody school 2007 finished, my subbody start floating to a huge ocean of qualia. I can enjoy strange travels into the darkness of body for these two days. It is so rich variety of multi- dimensional qualia. So many different ideas were coming up one and another. Strange dreams, many hiddden charactors, and so on are activated. I felt that I was doing what I wanted the most everyday in my school teaching. But in the darkness of body, so many unknown impulses are folded. Maybe my main character as teacher was too strong, then the other sub characters were oppressed in school days. I will let myself into these strange unknown travels for a while. From now here world to no where, no when dimensions. Maybe this site will be possessed by my sub-charactors, it may be almost lost order, nearly broken, but all of them are a members of my subbodies who live in my whole self. Allow the coming disorder until next March. ********************* Today's photo is the sunset shot from space. (by NASA) Clouds seem dancing on the ocean. |
| 8 December, 2007 Sending is recieving in resonance world |
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Imagine that everything in the universe is made of different resonance patterns of strings. Every string is resonating together in the huge rezsonance network. Then we notice that there are no sender and no reciever in this resonance network. Sending is recieving at the same time. If our consciouness understand that 'I send' or 'I recieve', it is just illusion of consciousness. The reality is sending is recieving, and recieving is sending, because every thing is resonating. It seems difficult to imagine it at first, but try to do it until you can feel the new sensation of resonance world. It is completely new world, because it has completely new resonance principle. It is real rhizome world. There are no subjuct, no object. There are no center, no edge. There are no leader, no follower. This is the resonance principle. When we want to change this world to resonance world. We can just ask to our life, what do you want to do the most? And we can just do it, at the best place, by the best way for us. A new way of existing which is not bound by ego and nation-state starts from there. |
| 7 December, 2007 A sleep Like a mild death |
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Subbody school 2007 has finished. I have fallen into deep sleep immediately. The confortable sleep after finishing a work is the most delicious gift for life. This timing is the best day for dying. Hope to die like this day. During sway between near death and rebirth, new awareness for next stage are coming up. I need now just a deep sleep like a mild death and travel another dimension. May dream of fobos tonight. |
| 6 December, 2007 How to return the consensus world |
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Kats mailed me, "I arrived at home town in U.S.A.. But I felt hardly to return the consensus reality of this world." I can guess how it is hard. I escaped from the consensus world to Himalaya without thinking about return at all. But students have to return the consensus world. I found that this is one of the biggest theme to solve it from now with students. |
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December, 2007 I’m here. You are there. |
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Today Anske gave her last teaching. She guided us to the past with opening
voice channel step by step. I had a CD of whales song. I tried to listen to it. It sounded like as
they are talking that I’m here. You are there surely.It was pure life resonance. Please
listen to it. |
| 4 December, 2007 Innocent subbody which is suggestible |
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Laura gave us her last teaching today. She let us open audio channel. We opened subbody vioce freely and made sounds with using music instrument like a child. Suddenly she said. "Stop it, listen to the inner silence of your life." I could follow this suggestion with pleasure. When we enter subbody mode, we became to be suggstible. And yesterday I fell into the worst condition which was possessed by strong dellusion, and my body changed into adrenaline mode same as the neurousis which I got three years before. Asif a blotting paper sucks up ink well, my body sucks up her suggestion, and find inner silence. It was so helpfull for me. Tatsiumi Hijkata said " Become easy to fool like a child." I remember that this silence body was the first one of my ten subbodies. This silence is the very entrance of subbody world. I could meet again the entrance of subbody today. |
| 3 Decenber, 2007 Become weak, weaker, weakest! |
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When I stoped my world tour of Butoh performance seven years before, I felt a very subtle voice from the life, but, it was so subtle that I could not understand what my life tryed to tell me until today. Today, I could hear what my life told me seven years before. My butoh performance was too agressive at that time, then my life tryed to tell me, "Stop it. Invent weaker butoh. Otherwise you can not resonate with weakest people. Suddenly I remeber that my butoh performance was too strong, I used to change quickly from a movement to another movement, jump, fall, and atack to audience. When I finshed a perfomance, I was always tired out completely, and my body have fallen into full of adorenaline mode. It was not good for my life, then my life suggest me to stop. Because at that time my dead friends in the anti-Vietnam war and revolutional movement against Japan nation-state possessed my body, and my twenty years old subbody resonated to dance with them. I needed to become weak, weaker, and weakest, for resonate with the weakest people who were oppressed in the world. I needed for seven years to understand the subtle voice from life. |
| 2 December, 2007 The key for living |
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I asked myself what is the key for living? I noticed a few answers, following; "Listen to body. Listen to life" -----I learned from Michizo Noguchi ( photo avove) who originated Noguti Exercise. I can say the man who I am could not exist without this key. "To solve any question which I felt through thinking by myself" -----I learned from Takaaki Yoshimoto who is the most original thinker in Japan. "Throw away EGO, and unify LIFE with your partner." -----I learned from Endo Ryokyu who was the master of Tao shiatsu. He taught me how to release from many kinds of ego trick. "Life is resonating" -----A kite who was sitting on the tree taught me in Himalaya. I asked him, 'What are you doing?' Kite answered, 'I am resonating with the world.' "The most important thing is to stop thinking." -----My son when he was twenty years old said to me after travelling arround islands of southern Japan. I did not know how much it is important to stop consciousness at that time. He suggested me the most important key to enter subconscious world. These five keys are all for me. What is it for you? |
| 1 Decenber, 2007 Sanzu river in the brain |
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Sanzu river is the imaginary river between living world and dead world in ancient buddism aspect. But, in our brain, there no Sanzu river. Because our life can transfer between this consensus realworld which has four dimension, and another multidimensional world flexibly. The qualia which our life feels are vibrating in subtle seven dimensions as a tiny string. There is no time dimension in this tiny dimensions according to string theory. Then the long term memories are reserved in our gilia cells as a tiny vibration of string. Our life can taste them at any time freely. That's the reason why we can taste dead mother's voice, face, at any time freely with deep reality. |
