| October 2007 |
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| On the surface of the Himalayan river, the water drops are danicng in the air. These cold drops are the perfect to wash our brains. |
| 31 October, 2007 Washing brain Today we spend whole day near the river of Himalaya. While students created thier own subbody movement, I watched the stream with aproaching my head as close as stream. I had long expieriences to watch rivers, but today I found that so many beautiful drops are flying on the stream. They seemed to dance. I aproach my head to them, and wash my brain be the flying drops. Himalayan water drops were so cold. I felt that my brain was washed by Himalayan water spirits. So, we need to wash our brain, because our brains are polluted by modern consciousness. When we stop consciousness and know the rich qualia stream of our subconsiousness, we can understandathat our brains are polluted by consiousness. This must be too difficult to communicate to you who live in modern society. |
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I tryed to seach handicapped people's pictures in the google image search and another internet search.. But I could not find. All of them have been cleared out! I felt tellible fear about this system of world ? Isn's it for you? |
| 30 october, 2007 Becoming shrink body Become small size body. Shrink just 1mm between your head and neck. The taste of world changes a little. Shrink 2mm. Hidden character comes out from the darkness of body. Shrink 3mm. You change to another weaker being. The size of world becomes two times bigger and heavyer than usual. What has happened?! You become migdet. You have transformed into migdet. The world atacks you with tellible violent face. We need brave to transform migdet. I needed for ten years. When you become migdet, you can understand the world for migdet. For the weakest people this world is so violent and disonance. Year by year the world of migdet is pressed and collapsed down. |
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| creatures in ordovic sea |
| 29 october, 2007 Becoming another being with ultra slow transformation It is ten meters in diameter of subbody hall. Students tryed ash walk as slow as possible with subtle transformation. By one step and next step, subtle transformation is growing up from minimum to maximam. Today sudents took time for over one hour to across the hall. When we entered into this ultra slow transformation world, our bodies change to different being from daily body. It transform to another creature which belong another dimension,like creatures in the ordovic sea. |
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| When even only a small part of you is missed , it changes to completely another thing. |
| 28 October, 2007 To become quiet, and become whole I sway at the first moment in the every morning. I search the most confortable sway, shake, stretch, shrink, twist, and so on. Eeryday I can find new way of swaying. Today was the opposite. I recieved a voice from my life, "I don't want to move more." I tryed to become quiet. Then today I found that I can become quiet much deeper than usual. Oh, I did not know that the stilness has no bottom! Normally I can be quiet until it is able to catch the subtle change of blood stream; blood pressure, pH, O2, H2O, amino acid, sexual hormone, and so on. I listen to the subtle change of blood. But today I become so quiet that it is able to listen to the subtle comminication between qualia stream which is flowing in the neuron network and inner qualia from glia. The qualia stream is always swaying with interaction with inner qualia, among another feeling, different channel, deep memory from long time past, relational emotion, dream, flash and so on. The sway was so unstable. I noticed suddenly that Arnord Mindel often uses the special word for "flirt". It means very unstable condition like fickle, inconstant, unfaithful. Indeed the sway of qualia stream is always sway from one side to another side and toward completely different dimensions. It is similar as smoke flow. I recognize Dr. Mindel knows well about this extremely unstable flirt. The traditional meditations deny this as worldly thoughts, and orientate to stable mind condition. This is the biggest mistake of the traditional meditation. The life does not like the despotism in all kinds. On the contrary, we can just recieve all kinds of sway in our whole self without any denial. The flirt is the biggest guide to our unkown whole self world. |
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Six layers of neurons and glia cells in the brain At the lower layers neurons meet inner qualia from glia cells. These encounters are the sourse of creativity of subconsciousness. |
| 27 October, 2007 What is the creativity of subcosciousness? When I lay down on the bed or hanmock and I could enter a proper subconscious mode, always a novel awareness visits me, I recieve it, and I can write this 'Unfold' everyday. I often lay down in a day time, and release my self from language thinking mode, and sway between awake and asleep mode. I try this several times in a day. Then I can continue to open the creativity of subconsciousness fully. Please see the illustration above. This illustration shows the six layers of neurons and glia in our brain. Upper second and third layers are used for communication between left hemi sphere which is the language brain and right hemi sphere as qualia brain. The lower fourth to sixth layers are used for sensory and moter. Watch carefully the illustration, you can find the purple glia cells in lower layers. Between neuron and glia, they communicate each other and exchange outer qualia and inner qualia which are reserved in glia cells. Neuron recieve inner qualia from glia cells and flesh encounters accur always. These flesh encounters of qualia are sources of the creativity of subconsciousness. When the language brain is active, millions of neuron have to fire together at the same time in upper layers, then the quiet comminications between glia and neuron are masked, because this communication between glia and neuron at the synaps is not electlic process, but between molecules comunication without using elictlicity. When you die down your language layers by meditation, you can recieve novel awareness in the lower layers between glias and neurons. When I notice that I have lost creativity, my language thinking mode is activated too much. Then I try to lay down, stop consciousness, then my creativity of subconsciousness raise up again in a while. When you notice that you've lost creativity, immidiately you should go to bed. Let's go to bed and die down consciousness, as often as possible everyday. |
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| 26 October, 2007 A feeling of awe My niebours are Tibetan, Indian, Nepari. They keep so many taboos. My young friends Rin and Tin come to play on Starday, then I asked them, 'Do you want to swim?' They said, 'We cannot swim on Tuesday and Satarday.' Also they are inhibited to ware new cloths which bought on Starday. When I was young I tought that these taboos should be vanished, because they bound our mind of freedom. Also still now I keep these thought that all common illusions including nation should be vanished someday, but now I know that when I was young I could not notice a inportant thing. I could not understand the impotance of 'feeling of awe'. People keep a foundamental behavior to avoid misfortune through the feeling of awe. This feeling connects to the feeling of huge stream of life which our modern daily mind has lost. |
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| 25 October, 2007 Beyond the healing This morning an accident gave my body a subtle stress. I felt that my body needed healing. What is healing? I amplifyed the body feeling, then I found that my body are bound by the preparation to social response, so that I lost connection with my life. For these conditin of body, healing means to recover connection with life. Healing is to become one with life. Life has proto-vitality which includes resonativity, creativity, and self cure ability. Healing means to get back the proto-vitality and open it fully. Healing means beyond the only healing. |
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| 24 October, 2007 Berry dance of jet stream After monsoon, it is fine every day here. In the sky we can enjoy the solo of jet stream dancing. Acoording to Wikipedia; 'The wind speeds vary according to the temperature gradient, averaging 30 knots (55 km/h / 35 mph) in summer and 65 knots (120 km/h / 75 mph) in winter, although speeds of over 215 knots (400 km/h / 250 mph) are known.' When the jet stream twists her west a little bit, the Himalaya mountains near here are covered by cold wind and snow. Everyday I enjoy the Jo-Ha-Kyu of her erotic berry dance in the sky from the hanmock. |
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| Neuron may recieve qualia of memories which are folded in activated glia cell |
| 23 October, 2007 The association of inner qualia In our darkness of body, an assosiation of qulaia are folded like a chain. Today I expierienced with recieving Anske's one day class for opening touch channel. (See School Journal of today) So many qualia about bath, hot spring, sea, fish, and so on are unfolded one and another. Sometimes it happens like this. What is happning in our darkness of body? I can guess that a group of resonance pattern of strings which are reserved in our glia cells of brain, are activated together and come up one each other. I surprised that the exact memories about specific degrees of each hot spring and seas are remind so clearly. I can guess maybe the calcium waves activates these associations of resonance pattern of strings which reserved specific qualia of hot springs and sea. Or another unkown one may activate these memories. When we will get them, we can access to the folded qualia freely. But we already can access these folded inner qualia by subbody method. Today Anske did it through opening touching channel. |
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| 22 October, 2007 Dried rice in India Now is the best season to enjoy hammock on the top roof after school. It is fine and dry everyday. Today, Ramesh made dried rice. I have read many ancient poem about dried rice, then I had a bias that dried rice is unique Japanese culture. But now I found it was introduced from ancient India. When I traveled in south India, I found so many things like this. We are bound by so many nationalistic bias. It is one of the most shamed thing. |
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| The origine life might be born at the bottom of the sea thermal deposit |
| 21 October, 2007 Life is nessesary to be inventer Imgene, that the origine life as a specific resonance pattern of strings. This resonance pattern had a tendency to keep the resonance pattern by itself, but with changing always. The charactoristic of resonance world is that every thing is resonating together. Resonance pattern of life have to meet another resonance patttern of dead thing from outside. It was a destiny to invent new resoance pattern with everything for life. Off course, it took time. The age when life was born, this planet did not have electlic barrie to stop proton and electron shower from the sun. Also the oxigen gas was so strong poizon for life, because oxigion has strong power to oxidize many thing. oxigen makes combination of a substance with oxigen. Then the origine life had to stay in the deep sea where was close to hot deposit from underground. And the origine life continue to eat SO2 or H2S and so on. Life had to wait to long time untill someone invent the new way to resonate with sunshine or oxigen gas. Then life know well the time to wait a new invention. You can escape and escape from hard world to live until the time has come. When the time will come, life will invent new way to live for you. Also I needed fourty five years to find the way to live as a butoh dancer, until then I was just lost way among every kind of ways to live. |
| ES cells have full of proto-vitality |
21 October, 2007 ES cells and origine life ES cells (Embryonic Stem Cells) are the most bigining cells after few days from fertilization. They can grow up to many types of cells in all parts of body. They have extreme flexibility. It seems similar with the origine life, because origine life could transform into all types of creatures on this planet for four billions years developement. Then when we watch ES cells we can feel something about origine life. When you watch this video, you must surprise at the extreme vitality. They seems so flexible that they can resonate with everything. Come on, everybody! I can resonate with every kind of thing! We can feel that this is the life! If oxigion comes or calcium comes, I can resonete with you! They seem full of vitality of resonance. So we can notice that the biggest difference between ES cell and origine life is the expieriences. ES cell have overcome all kind of hard conditions which our life has expierienced in four billons years history. ES cell has the strongest genome. Then they seem so vital. Comparing with this, origine life is like a virgin with most of outer material on this planet. When Oxigion proposed life to resonance, our life said, 'Wait I don't have prepared to reosnate with you.', then life let wait oxigion for four tousands million years until alfa proteo bacteria invented the breathing. Let's meditate about ES cell and origine life. Thoughr you were born with these strong proto-vitality, resonatibity, self cure ability,and creativity, when and where did you lost them at all? This meditation is the best school to learn what is life. |
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| Calcium Waves in Hippocampal Neurons (Brain Cells) |
20 October, 2007 Calcium wave Today I found a vido of Calcium Wave in our brain on the DNAtube.com site. Calcium waves may control our memories and lernings with effecting to Neuron-Glia Communication in our brain. We can imagine the resonance of strings behind of these calcium waves in our brain among the neuron and glia cells. View video of calcium wave |
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| Neuron（Green) and Glia (Red) |
19 October, 2007 Neuron-Glia Communication Now brain scientists are going to find new aspect about the role of neuron and glia in our brain. Please read following article. You can get guidance about recent development in brain science. NEUROSCIENCE: New Insights into Neuron-Glia Communication R. Douglas Fields,* Beth Stevens-Graham Two-way communication between neurons and nonneural cells called glia is essential for axonal conduction, synaptic transmission, and information processing and thus is required for normal functioning of the nervous system during development and throughout adult life. The signals between neurons and glia include ion fluxes, neurotransmitters, cell adhesion molecules, and specialized signaling molecules released from synaptic and nonsynaptic regions of the neuron. In contrast to the serial flow of information along chains of neurons, glia communicate with other glial cells through intracellular waves of calcium and via intercellular diffusion of chemical messengers. By releasing neurotransmitters and other extracellular signaling molecules, glia can affect neuronal excitability and synaptictransmission and perhaps coordinate activity across networks of neurons. Neurocytology and Physiology Section, National Institute of Child Health and Human Development, Bethesda, MD 20892, USA. We need sink into the one more deep level from here. Now we can imagine more pricise details about Neuron-Glia Communication with using string theory. I think our memories and learnings are folded in the glia cells as a inner qualia. Inner qualia are made of various kinds of resonance patterns of strings in the eleven dimensions. I could guess that our inner qualia are reserved in the glia cell as a specific resonance pattern of strings. We may need for five handreds years to find the proof of this. Because the strings are too small to catch them. But now we can just arrive at the place where we can imagine it. Read yesterday's Unfold |
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| 18 October, 2007 Life and three kind of proto-seas Life and sea are not able to devide. Life was born there four billions years before. Life floated in the sea almost of four billions years history. Then when we start as a indivisual life, we need to spend first piriod in the same condition as proto-sea. Our womb for mamal, egg for bird and reptile are the same condition as proto-sea. Also after birth, only our brain and spiral code need the same condition, then they are floating in the crainio-saicral riquid. Our life need proti-sea to resonate well with all kind of substance, Na, K, Ca, Mg, Cl, and so on. |
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| 17 October, 2007 Activation of tale nerve After human lost tale, five millions years have past. But five millions years is just a moment in four billions life history. When we continue to move with awaring of imaginary tale movement, the hidden tale nerves are activated again. It helps our movement a lot. I prefered swaying meditation with pelvis rotating, but recently I found imaginary tale swaying meditation, this is much more confortable than pelvis rotating meditation. Then I changed to tale sway meditation as usual meditation. When I continue to use imaginary tale, the hidden immidiate express gene which activate tale nerve may be expressed and tale nerve has become active. In subbody world so much unexpectied intersting thing happens. Then I can not stop investigating it. |
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| 16 October, 2007 Amplification of pleasure We can apply the technique of amplification of resonance between innner qualia and outer qualia in various way. I found a method of amplifcation of pleasure recently. Try to use this method when we have a happy expierience,for example you meet your favourite girl or boy. If I say by standard theory, at that time the plesure substances; dopamin or endolfine are increase in your body. If I say by string theory, all strings in your body are resonating together with sharing resonance patterns of pleasure. Also in your brain, neuron and glia are resonating with pleasure. Then just amplify this resonance pattern of pleasure, with using subtle breathing. When you breath in, you can find subtle difference at that time. So, a little bit you can feel subtle pleasure than usual when flesh air touch to your inner skin of nose. Amplify this subtle pleasure with continue subtle breathing. Slowly you can feel subtle pleasure at your chest, wrist, finger, and so on. Continue it, finally you can amplify until billion times stronger pleasure. It is so amaizing bliss. And think about the origine life, after the life was born on this planet, this amplification of pleasure must support the cintinuation of life. Maybe very subtle pleasure for origine cell, but it must be pleasure. Life continue to survive with amplifying this subtle pleasure. We share this method to amplify pleasure until now. Read yesterday's Unfold |
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15 October, 2007 Good intention is ego's everyday clothes. Ego has deep tendency that it wants to regard itself good. Ego appears often with waring kindness and right. That is turning point. In the last week, one day student's creation was not going well. I wonder why, then I noticed that my advices bind students. Imidiately I said that forget what I said to students, then students recovered thier creativity. Be carefull of right, kind, true, beautiful, they are ego's everyday clothes. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. I will keep this Dante's word deep in my body. My ego forgets this so often. |
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14 October,2007 Blind spot of contemporary culture We are controled not to notice that we are life. All of us were just a single cell at the bigining of individual life. See photo above, this is stem cells after five days from fertilization. When we think about that we were just a single celled life, we can notice that our life continued from our origine life which appeared at for billions years before on this planet. Ourlife is not only individual life, but also we are this big life at the same time. We just share the life for a while. View the video when we were just cells |
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13 October, 2007 The thickest wall for life to become multi-celled life for 30 billions years Our origine life have needed for three billions years to transform from one celled creature to malti celled creature. Our life trained as a group celled creature like as volvox ( photo above) how to resonate together for long long years. It was the biggest wall for life. After our life overcome this wall, life could invent so rich way of living as a variety of species. It was worth to overcome for life, even if it needed three fourth of whole history of life. I decided to become a butoh dancer at fourty five years old, now I am almost sixty years old. It took three fourth of whole my life to transform to butoh dancer. It was the biggest wall for me. What is the thickest wall for you? What is it even it might need so long years, it must be worth to overcome? |
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12 October, 2007 Live as a life Live not as an ego. Live not as a self. Live as a life. |
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11 October, 2007 Toward the direction to die out ego and nation There is only a hope in this direction. It's the same in thought, art, and politics. The biggest lack in our modern society is orientation of dying out ego and becoming life. Nobody have noticed about this. When we were young we believed that comminism is right. But ego got political power, it changed to hell. So we just did not know how ego worked. Lenin, starlin, and Trozky showed the miserable histry. We were too young to know that an amplification of resonance between to die out ego and to die out nation was needed. We (including of me) did not notice that there is a possibility that ego can die out. Ego is a historical product, it is possible to die out in the history. |
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| 10 October, 2007 To release from disgusting stomach feeling When we feel somehting wrong unconsciously, a strange disgusting feeling come up around chest or stomach. Yesterday I felt this, I concentrated to listen to it. Because it is the most important signal from life. It comes up like as following subtle feeling. --I cannot catch by word yet. --I don't know why but I feel something warong. --There may be a tiny gap between my world image and my self image. The signal from life is always sended with like this subtle feeling. I ask to life what is too much for you? The biggest pleblem is always occuered from an arangement by the ego. Then my life told me your arangement is too much for students. Even from kindness, it become too much restriction. Then today I told students, 'Please forget what I said yesterday, and create your subbody piece freely. Then the strage feeling desapear completely. Also students face turn to bright. And they created so rich pieces today. Always my ego pursues too much. I learned to stop it. It took for sixty years for me. |
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| october, 2007 Unfold as not unfolding I continue this collum everyday. But today I have so many other article to want to write, then today I stop to write this. Flexbility is the most important. This is today's Unfold. |
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8 Ocotober, 2007 Awareness on the foutyth 8 October annivesary Today is the fourtyth anniversary of my friend Yamazaki's death. He was a classmate in high school. He was killed in anti-Vietnam war movement 1967. I was one of leader of the student activities, but I could not die. I felt guilty for long time. Then when I started dance, at first my dead friend entered into my body, and dance instead of me. I did not know what was happening, I just wondered. This phenomenon was not so strange for me. Because my grand mother was a shaman in Japan. She was the biggest rival for me. I was grew up by her from three to seven years old. When some person died in my town, a member of the family come to my grandmather and ask her to let meet the dead person. My mother went to client's house, made fire in the house, and started chanting. After for a while suddenly her voice changed to the dead person's voice. She shouted something as a dead person. Then the client started crying, then trouble had ended. In Japan many persons were died through struggle in family afair, typically struggle between young wife and her law- in- mother. I was wondering by these strange phenomena, but I watched from bigining to end carefully. When I start butoh daning, this possessed body was the biggest mystery. How could my grandmother control these possessed process safely? I could not understand for long time. When I created the piece of 'Infectious fever', 'Dead fever', and so on, it was not me who created these dance, but my dead friends possessed my body, and created these peices, I just cleared out my body for them to use freely. But I could not understood what was happning at all. Just near the days i found that the principle of sharmanist's technique is the amprification of resonance among inner qualia and outer qualia. Sharman used all kinds of material for transforming, fire, chanting, voicing, dancing, smell, and so on. All of them are nesssesary for amplification of resonance. Then sharman can controll iner qualia without losing transparent mind/body. It is the same principle with subbody method. Of course I learned from sharmans. Now I can catch up my biggest rival, my grandmother after sixty years investigation. |
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7 October, 2007 Transparensy of resonance Our human is not able to understand resonance. Because resonanse happens so transparently. In resonanse world, there are no subject and no object. Both side is neither subject nor object. Resonance happens equally without subject. But our consciousness can not understand this. Our consciousness uses languege for thinking. But languege is possessed by S+V+O illusion. Then our consciousness is bound by SVO style bind immidiately, 'I feel something'. Resonance is not like this, it has completely another principle. It need to die down consciousness, if we want to understand resonance. But this is extremly nonsense for consciousness. Why have I to clear out of the status of subject? This must be long way from consciousness to transparent mind/body. It is a duty to find and guide easier way to transform into transparent mind/body for peasons to find the way ahead. Let's throw away ego, and know resonance without subject. It is only way to touch to life. |
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6 October, 2007 Resonative amprification When specific qualia are increasing strength, a resonative amprification is occuring in our life. Our life has both of outer qualia, and inner qualia. Outer qualia are occured by interaction with physical thing or energy. Inner qualia are like memory in life, life can feel them without interaction with physical things. When our life meet something, resonative amprification happens between outer qualia and inner qualia. They both amprify together and increase strength of qualia. This must be a basic method for life to survive and invent something new. Also for dance, when inner qualia and outer qualia become oneness through resonative amprification, movement becomes dance. Today a fundametal principle which goes through life and dance is found. It's extreme! |
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5 October, 2007 Strenth of adrenaline It is good thing to aware of what we can not overcome yet. Adrenaline is the biggest one for me. Today when I met a subtle egoic response of student, my ego was activated and I was under adrenaline mode for a day. I could not calm down at all. So this is the biggest problem for me. Five years ago also I was fallen into neurosis by the reason which I could not controll my adrenaline mode. Maybe adrenaline is one of the most basic and strongest response as a creature. Our consciousness can not controll this at all. In buddist teaching, to die down anger is one of the basic training. This is the depth of life. We have a lot of thing which is unable to controll by consciouseness in our darkness of body. |
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4 October, 2007 The strongest genom Today I found that our genom does not know death. They continue to live from the origin of life to present time without dying. When I think about this fact, I felt how it is so extreme! Our each cell has the strongest genom which survive four billions years. They know how to survive the ice ages, how to overcome hunger, how to let disasters go past. The genom which could not overcome a disaster or accident are vanished. We take over only the strongest genom. Today, whole day I was moved about this fact. |
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3 October, 2007 Something million times subtler Our life feels both of extrovert qualia, and introvert qualia. Extrovert qualia are occuered by interaction with physical thing and energy, and introvert qualia are felt without physical interaction. Introvert qualia are million times subtler than extrovert qualia. This is the reason why our daily life can not notice of introvert qualia, though our life is always using introvert qualia. I could not guide students well to catch introvert qualia clearly until I found the metaphor 'million times subtler. When I found this metaphor, it become able to feel introvert qualia concretely. Sometimes it happens like this case that a word which is found to explain something properly opens new dimension of expierience. ****** Gallaxy has million times sutler light. We need to stop sunshine light and amplify by telescope to see gallaxy. Inner qualia have like this so subtle brightness. |
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2 October, 2007 Live as a huge life When we continue to be a four billions life, Slowly we are released from the fear of death as a individual life. If we die as a individual, the huge life continue to live. WHen we become this huge life, we do not die. Slowly we turn to feel that it is stupid to be bound by ego. We just become the life, that's OK. It is worth to get this awareness that we pay every kinds of effort. When we are bound by ego or self, our status, money and knowledge can not release us from the fear of death. We can live with forgetting death. But to forget death means to forget life at the same time. Because death and life is one thing, it is a whole. |
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| 1 October, 2007 When calm down, everyhting is connected We are bound by various unknown life tendencies, desires, impuses, and so on. We don't know where are they from. But when we calm down them to the minimum level,we can find they connected each other. Our lives are always swaying, between a little bit fine, and not so much, between extrovert and introvert, between active mode and rest mode. Try to calm down a tendency into this level, you can find the origine of a tendency, You can understand a connection between a tendency and the origine. I could find the origines of almost of the strange tendencies, unique sexual desires, and many sub-characters. Almost of them are connected with specific expieriences at fetus age or infancy. Though it took for sixty years. |