2 July, 2012
(This article is from 'School Jornal June, 2009'.
We upload it again for you, when you meet an edge how to solve it.)
My biggest teaching / Asuka
When I faced my unknown edge, I faced a
deep pressure feeling in my chest:
pain, cannot breathe, cannot speak, need
to cry. It was going on for more than a week already.
I definitely didn't wan't to deal with
it.. I felt so annoyed when you proposed edge work exercises.
It was so bad, I couldn't figure out what
it was or why is this was happening to me.
I thought, if it's just anguish, it will
pass, then it's no use to do anything about it, otherwise I'll just feed it...
and I don't want to make things worse..
However, with all the aversion I had, I
slowly followed your propositions..
Suddently, I realised it was me pressing
me : My self was struggling and oppressing me.
I watched and asked silently: ¨ Why are
you doing this to me? Why do you want to kill me ? ¨
It answered that we were having a war,
and I was divided because of paradoxe.
I wanted one thing and its opposite, to
be one thing and the opposite,
so the other me was embodying my
Because I had been suppressing it, also
it was suppressing me.
But I realised..
we cannot live without each other.
Whatever happens, we must continue to live together
Me and my opposite,
We must take care of each other,
otherwise no one can live,
it is a matter of surviving.
Together, reunited, we can be All.
Everything that seems outside, isn't
We are One.
Everytime I deny something, hate, or
I am denying a part of the whole.
Each time I forgive and reconcile myself
with something that seems outside of me,
I forgive and reconcile myself with a
part of me..
and now, this is my work..
In order to survive..
To recognise everything as oneness..
Not to dissociate myself with what is
this is also how I am erased..
There is no such thing as individuation.
Most of all, to find Balance, because
Balance is a universal law..
And to be able to see with the eyes of
the opposite is
the key to finding Balance.
This drawing emerged then.
The white human as myself as I
consciously know myself,
all that seems stable,material, that I
perceive as reality,
all that I accept as a world, self image, identity..
The dark human as my unconscious side,
all that is unstable, immaterial, unknown
all unaccepted aspects or repressed self,
Inspired by the ying and yang symbol of
I found out a way to move beyond the edge
of the moment,
I traded eyes with my opposite,
saw myself, erased my mind,
understood, and let go..
This was perhaps the biggest freeing
feeling of my life...
I wish to apply it all along.
Thank you Lee, for pushing us to face our
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