Through life upstream meditation, we can feel the qualia of origin life.
The origin life which was born four billions years before was unable to move at all. It was just living with resonating with environment.
When we become the origin life, we ca ntaste the weakest qualia in the world.
They are moved by outside powers, wave, wind, gravity, thunder, and so on.
Why the qualia of unnable to move, and limited to move, being moved was so deep for us?
Because these weakest qualia are the most familiar for our life. Our life was only one celled creature the first three billions years in the history of life.
They could not move at all or could move but a little. Our life are mostly moved by environment for a long time.
When we become these weakest qualia, the most biggest miracle what we can resonate with everything happens. Strong qualia cannot resonate with weak qualia. Only weakest qualia can resonate with everything. The weakest qualia has the strongest ability of resonance.
To taste this paradox is hard, because our ego does not want to be weak.
This is one of the biggest edge.
Every students encounter this edge.
We have to train our resonativity day by day, slowly slowly.
We often go to forest near school.
It is a pine forest controlled by Indian goverment.
Today's teacher was pine seed.
They are carryed by wind, and fortunately some seeds which grounded at
the tiny gap of rock are able to survive.
But which shape could they ground is unkown, sometimes head is bottom,
sometimes another position they may ground by chance.
The first position will decide their first constelation in life at all.
The rocks are like the parents for us. we could not choose them, but the
first position between huge rocks decides our inner constelation deeply
during our whole lives.
It is so clear if it is possible, it's better to initialize the first accidental
condition at all. Then we can live new life freely without binds of accidental
conditions.
It is clear, but it is not so easy. We need to dance the first constelation
of life again and again untill we will feel that it is stupid to be bound
by the accidental condition. Then we can release from our own accidental
conditions of life.
The term of "Constelation" is by C.G.Jung.
It means a condition of inner qualia stream which resonates with outer
qualia stream. Always these two are resonating. Then it often appears as
synchronisity which two different things happen together at the same time
without real contact. Yes, there are no physical contact. But our life
is always resonating with everything, there are neither mystery nor supernatural
power like a telepathy, clairvoyance, prescience, extrasensory, and so
on. All of them come out from the life resonance.
When we did not notice of life resonance, these misterious archetypes bind
us.
We just need to die down thinking and listen in the subtle signal of life
sway.
Now most of students are able to listen in it, then so real movements come
out from their body spontaneously. There are a few fake movement which
are bound by some stereotypes of dance or butoh.
At the first period, we are bound by preconcieved idea of butoh or dance
strongly. Then at that period it does not work if I adviced so. But now
it seems that students are able to listen in the subtle difference between
a real movement from life, and fake movement by consciusness or from archtypes.
Because the real movement which connects to their own constelation are
felt so hard and with deep reality for ourselves.
Now the time has come to suggest students to taste the difference between
both of them. Students can resognize it.
Acctually when we face to the biggest problem which suffered us for a long
time, we have to dance on the edge of life. There are no space for conscious
judgement or thinking.
We need to continue only these necessary dance which comes out from the
constelation of the darkness of body to reach our life.
Only in these process the technique of weakend body will be needed.
Students drwaed their own subbody world.
We tryed to enter the other's subbody world which showed by drawings through
each channels.
When we enter the other's world we are released from ourselves and able
to become free. We could enjoy a lot with big laughing.
Students could recognized how much bound by fixed self images.
We can open flexibilities more in various ways..
When we walk in the darkness with blindfold, we meet subtle sign of 'someone'
often.
It usually appears as a sign sugestied of enemy, food, or sex partner,
in case of animals as instinct.
But for human, the signs are appeas with more complex and mixed with various
types of archetype.
At first it appears just simple sign of someone like a bogy without eyes,
mouth, or nose, and depend on the inner constelation the sign of someone
gets a specific face or expression. These two which are inner constelation
and archetype which we meet are resonating smiltaneously. Then the archetypes
will appear depending on our inner constelation. This is the scret of fenomena
of synchronisity.
The constelation is inner conposition among conscious process, subconscious
process, body condition, and life sway.
Today we tryed to walk with blindfold, and try to concentrate to listen
to the multi-dimensional resonance among constelation, body condition,
archetype, emotion, and so on.
Listen to the echos among them at the same time.
Then try to find the subtlest movement with resonating all of them.
We practice of the weakened three dimensional sway in the morning.
Then in the afternoon we tryed to become weakened body in the forest.
So subtle subbodies have come out. Some students break an emotional edge
at the first time. Slowly we separate from the subbody dance world, and
enter the subody butoh world.
What is different?
Subbody dance belong in human realm.
Subbody butoh belong in another being's dimension.
"Butoh is desperate standing dead body." Hijikata said so often,
We will try to become desperate standind dead body during these months
step by step.
19 April, 2008
So huge diversities among subbodies
At the Subbody cobody theater of the first week in April, 2008
so many superlative strange relationship has happened.
When we calm down conscious mind and enter the subbody world,
At first we have to surprised at the big gap between subconscious and
consciousness.
If we meet a small noise from outside in the subconscious mode, sometimes
it sounds as million times bigger noise against subconscious body.
This was a big question for me for a long time.
When I was enter the class with subbody mode after morning meditation,
I was hurt by a subtle noise of conscious mind or language so many times.
Also last years long term students has complained me the same fenomena.
Now I understand about the reason why these fenomena happen, it occurs
between different degrees of claming down process and it depends on the
difference of sensitiveites of subbodies.
Some subbodies come up through resonance with fetus qualia, other one resonates
with baby age, or hidden character.
There are so big difference of sensitivities, weakeness, among different
type of subbodies.
Subconscious is million times subtler than consciousness, I have bilieved
so.
But it it not true, it may be trillion times or more.
When a subbody in a subtler level receves only small noise, it sounds as
a million times bigger noise, then felt to be hurt.
I have experienced this fenomena so many times.
When I have not aware of this, my subbody was attcked by deep neurosis.
There are generated so many different process among students.
The subtler subody is millions times weaker and sinsitive.
Some students felt to be disturbed, other students might recieve another
feeling.
So everyhting happens at the subbody cobody theater through so diversitive
resonance.
We need to understand about this huge diversities.
The differnce is trillion times bigger than we have expected.
Last week we practiced to listen in the subtlest qualia.
But a first month student said that she could not understand what is
happening at all.
It is also natural process for biginners.
Through these gaps, we can learn much more variations of multiple processes.
It is so hard process for every body including me.
How is it possible to find the most rich things from this superlative chaos.
Yes, I will try it. I created this school for creating a real rhizome and
for solving it.
From these experiences, we will find a completely new way of resonance
among completely multi-dimensional diversities.
When we will success to find it, it should be called, "rhzocracy".
My subbody suggested me this new term in this morning dream.
It could be the next system for human being instead of fake political system
of "democracy".
How can we create a alternative new system of human being, without center,
wihtout meeting by words, without dicision by congress, without gaverment,
wihtout violence, without war, and without nation-state?
We will invent it only through these chotic diversitive experiences.
Subbody cobody hteater is a completely new experimental field for finding
a
way of co-creation of the world.
Next week is the timing to enter the weakened body world..
yesterday, i could feel that students are ready to listen to the subtle
qualia after five weeks trainig to calm down daily consciousness, then
today
we try to listen to the subtlest qualia.
Actually, qualia are so subtle. They are million times sutler than
consciousness.
Momentary feeling,
Someting which passing through us
Memory which swaying between being able to remember and unable to remember
Unnamed body feeling which appears and immidiately disappears
Our subconsciousness is always swaing with these qualia stream.
But our daily consciousness can not notice them and passes over with big
steps.
When we live in the city, there are so strong noises and informations,
qualia
are masked by them then we cannot notice them.
They are able to catch only after die down daily consciousness.
I call this sentient sense 'subtle sense'.
But, when we calm down consciousness, we notice taht there are sutler qualia.
There are three main way to catch them
1. Listen to the subtlest somatic qualia
Reseach the limit which you can listen to in body channel.
Subtle shrink at the figner tip
Shvering of back skin
Small change of pressure of blood
Unkown momentary cold feeling
Littel shouder releasing
cc
Our hidden skin is always resonating with subtle change of the world.
In this subtle level, the border between body channel and world=self channel
disappears, they become oneness.
Taste them carefully, follow, amplify, and become them.
2. Qualia of being moved
Listen to the smallest stimulus from outside.
A rain drop which falls on the skin
An aunt which crawl up your body
A dust which reachs on your eyelash
A goroup of bacteria growing up in the body
A particle which gives subtle stimulus in the air
Being moved by a weak wind
Listen to the subtle wave of werthquake from opposite side of the earth
3. Become subtle being
If the same rain drop, the stimulus is completely different depend on the
size between human and bacteria.
When we want to be the most sentient being which is able to listen to the
subtlest qualia, it is the best way to become subtle being by ourselves.
Become a dust
Become a water drop
Become a plancton
Become an ameba
Become the origine life
Become a molecule
Become a resonance of string
When we repeat these experiences of becoming tiny being, the real qualia
of
life sinks into our body slowly, slowly.
Today, students showed the most transparent movement in these five weeks.
After the practice, the faces of students were shining.
It is the shine when we meet a very novel awareness.
I have misunderstood about subbody until today.
I noticed it.
I tryed to proceed class very slowly in this month.
The first day, we try to listen to subtle change of body feeling between
lay down position and sitting position.
And try to seach the simplest biggining of subbody which resonates with
a kind of qualia at a small part of body.
The second day, we try to listen it between lay down position and standing
position.
And try to add one more qualia process to the first tiny process.
Today is the third day, we tryed to listen to the changing of body cavity,
and hidden joints.
Then added one more process to the first and second process of movement.
But, today I added another more thing. It was too much.
When we share each subbody movement at the subbody cobody theater of evening,
I said students to try to resonate with subbody movement with different
distance with adding number of cobodies.
Fisrt person danced as a solo, second person danced with one partner who
resonate with free distance, the third person danced with two cobodies,
the fourth danced with three cobodies..
Then with increasing the number of cobodies, finall subbody danced with
six cobodies.
Yes, it happened so intersting diversitive scenes for watching..
But, at the meeting after practice, many students comolained that today's
sub -cobody theater was too much busy.
They could niether concentrate to listen to the subtle signal of subbody
nor resonate with others.
Then I realized that students tryed to listen to the subtler signal than
I expected.
This kind of experience was the first time for me.
I have to change my understanding about subbody.
The subbody is so subtle life like as one celled creature's life.
Until now I think subbody is like a fetus, then I need to be midwife to
listen to the best timing of fetus which is going to be born carefully.
But it is not enough.
I need to listen to subtler life like as a life of a cell than a fetus.
If I did not notice it, the exreme fragile subbodies are ignored and must
die.
I have to change my mind, I have to become another worker who is able to
listen to a subtle life of like as a bacteria, and support for the birth
of them.
I need to be more sensitive being than midwife for subbodies.
Which kind of worker can do it?
I and person who want to become a teacher of subbodies may have to become
an unknown being who have never named yet.
No, it's my conceit.
The word, "Sentient" which Mindell enphasises these year means
this.
We just need to train our poor ears to be able to catch so sentient signal
than we expect.
Kats who have learned at subbody school last year, has finished performance
successfully in Minesota, US and two video clips are uploaded on YouTube.com.
One is titled "Kagome,kagome :shiro(=white part), Kats danced as a Female body which is one of ten-bodies of him with white costume.
Another one is "Kagome, kagome :kuro (=Black). He transformed various
subbodies--Proto-body, Hidden-body, and so on with black costume.
Audience must surprized at that his dymamic range of dance become so rich.
I can recognize that his own ten-bodies are strongly grown up, through
these experiences. I enjoyed a lot.
Ten-bodies become stronger through the experiences of performance.
I hope him to continue to train and grow up them until the subbodies become
real friends through whole life.
Subbodies are best guides for investigating in the secret of whole self
world.
Today we started April course with added two new students included one
year student.
We started March course sowly, and we did much more slowly today.
Today's morning we did only shifting body position from lay down position
to sitting position and opposite with listening subtle change of qualia
in body channel.
In the afternoon we did transformation at a small part of body--head, face,
mouse, nose, eyes, neck, chest, shoulder ,arm, hand, finger, stomuch, leg,
foot, and so on, with following only one kind of qualia, and amplify it
to the muxmum. That's all.
In the end of today's class as usual we did 'subbody cobody theater', which
we shared today's subbody movement each other.
Then we found so pure subbodies were appeared one after another.
Every student said to like them.
I found that it is possible to increase the number of dimensions from here
I surprised that finally I found the entrance of tunnel which is able to
realiaze the subbody butoh technique to increase the number of dimensions.
I search the entrance for a long time, but I could not find it, because
the contnts of class was too many materials in each day.
It was the reason why the entrance was not found.
When we start a simlest movement of body channel, we can experience the
process to increase the number of dimensions one by one in each day.
Today we opened only body channel and found the subtle biggining of subbody,
tommorow we will add one more channel to today's pure movement. When we
continue to add qualia in defferent channel one by one untill it will become
several dimensional choreograph.
Accturelly Hijikata's choreograph was so many dimensions included even
in a simple walk unbilievablly.
Through this month, we will able to increase them step by step until the
superlative subbody butoh dance will complete.
This is the second month process of subbody school 2008.
We did good start.
We went to Kangra fort which is the monument of middle age India.
Hindu temple, prizon, old stone which was madw by handy stone craftman,
and they are going to broken in the long history.
We ca nfeel so many diversitive qualia in these place.
Students found their favourite space, and create subbody dances during
the day.
How can we dance there transparently?
I adviced them as the following.
1. When you find a place where you recieve specific siganl, become a quiet
body as same as the stone or tree of the place.
2. Approach the place as slow as possible with ash walk speed.
According to the distace change, slowly your life will start resonance
under the hidden skin or bottom of body.
At the first appearance they seemsis only stone or tree, but according
to the approach the details will become fine and pricise, and your life
will start subtle vibration by resonance with them.
3. Taste the subtle resonance between the field and your life as delicate
as possible. Your inner qualia will be activated by the resonance with
their long history. Deep forgotten memories may come out. Subtle life tendencies
may be flowing out. You may feel some archetyoes between life and death.
Receive every qualia.
4. If you will remember your subbodies which you have found before, listen
up to them how, where, and what timing do they want to come out.
5. Find the best Jo-Ha-Kyu which all of your subbodies can comeout with
best timing with passing the field in various patterns.
6. Sway between light and shadow of the place. That place is the most rich
qualia are streaming and changing.
7. If passengers, birds, animals will enter your place, also inprovise
with them.
8. Listen to the subtle qualia of wind, cloud, smell, and resonate with
them.
9. Dance with all of these qualia, and find the most rich Jo-Ha-Kyu oftoday's
dance.
In the field, the border between choreograph and improvisation vanish and
they become oneness.
They become the real time theater of life resonance.
This essense is the same at the theater of inside hall. But in the field,
you can feel it more clearly at the field which is sarrounded by so many
unexpected happening and diversitive qualia.
The environment of Himalaya is so rich place for training our subbodies.
In our life world, there is no judge, nobody judge us by dualistic judgement--right/wrong,
beautiful/ugry, and so on.
I hope subbody cobody theater should be just as they were as life world.
Then we can see as transparent as possible what life is.
At the first moment I give subtle help to be born students subbodies, but
after for a while, students themselves become midwife for their own subbodies.
I never judge them by dualistic judgement, I just suggest to find the best
timing to come out. Subbodie themselves know well when is the best timing
to appear.
This week we did 'edge work', many different subbodies have come out and
encountered each other in strange ways.
It is slowly coming closer to be as they were.
The superlative theater will be realizing slowly slowly.
Our life is resonanting through various forms, various distance with all
kind of qualia in the Universe.
I will discrive about the variations of resonance of qualia.
Train oyur self to be familiar with all kinds of variations of resonance.
You can become superlative transofoming rhizome.
Normally we can start to feel a subtle sub-signal from our darknes of body.
1. Far-off passing
Through long distance, life can resonate with any qualia.
We can resonate with far past qualia which is like as life momery of origine
life or another stage of creature, and also qualia of fetus age, baby age,
and various age of our human life. Also our life can resonante with far-off
qualia of distat place. When a war happens at the oppsite side of the planet,
our life can not inhibit to resonante with them even by subtle vibrations.
It is so subtle and momentary signal.
But when we die down consciousness enough, we can catch it.
Soemtimes we can start our subbody dance from these far-off qualia.
Also we can start from hidden qualia of life memory which are folded in
our cells.
2. Subtle contact
Sometimes some qualia approach close to us, and pass through momentaryly.
We remember a familiar qualia a moment and foget it immediately.
Our consciousness does not care about this, but our life resonates with
them always through various distance and time.
Normally we start by catching these subtle siganal, because it happens
so often and easy to catch.
Sometimes they are felt very primitive tedencies, slow, lazy, stone, flow,
stilness, --they are felt except of human tendencies.
Then we can resonate and amplify them by changing our hidden skin, hidden
cavity, hidden joints and so on. Through this process we can find our proto-body.
3. Encounter
When a strange unknown qualia encounter us, it is felt as an edge.
Espacially, in case of the opposite tendency against familliar qualia,
it felt as an unpleasant qualia like as an enemy.
We felt as if we were attacked by stranger.
Sometimes it appears from our darkness of body where the hidden characters
are folded. They are called, 'shadow', 'inferior character', ' not-me',
' dissociated self', --they are named by negative words. When we could
recognize them as a friends of us, or a member of our whole self, they
become our hidden body. We can grow up them through subbody dance.
When you feel hard block against the edge, follow the each stage of 'Edge work'.
4. Entering
Sometimes a strange qualia are felt as if they enter into our body.
Through this qualia, we can create our own original creature. This is proto-body.
Sometimes another creature or other paerson's qualia are felt to enter
our body.
When we are open the life resonance, we can play with them, but if we are
blocked against unknown qualia, they are felt as if we were possessed by
others and controlled by them.
It depends on the degree of openness of resonativity.
When we could open the resonaativity enough, we can dance with possessed
body freely.
We can feel, 'Any qualia are welcome to enter my subbody. Please use it
freely.'
The sharman trainded about this fenomena a lot in animistic or sharmanistic
community.
My grand mother was a sharman in Japan. She could transform dead person
freely.
Now after fifity years investigaton I could solve the secret of possessed body.
It is just normal fenomena of life resonance.
When we enter subbody world and travel various states, we often encounter
edges which some blocks bind us with unplesant body feeling or strange
emotion.
We are confused and we feel that we cannot proceed anymore.
If we meet these edges or blocked feeling, we have several behaviours to
the edges.
With following the stage, we can proceed the behaviour to the edge step
by step.
In this week, some of students said she and he encountered the unpleasant
emotional blocks. Then today we tryed the 'Edge work', because I could feel the timing has come. Until today I said just recognize
it at the first week. next week I adviced to listen to it with respect.
Then today we could do the 'edge work' to become the edge from both side.
1. Recognizing
We can just recognize it and leave from there, we don't need to force ourselves
to overcome it. There are so many different subbodies in our darkness of
body, we can find another subbody and follow it. There is multi-dimensional
labyrinth in the darkness, then someday we meet again the edge behind you,
'Oh! you are here!'. Or at the far distance below you may find the edge.
2. Listening
Listen up to the unpleasnt feeling of edge with a respect.
Because the feeling from edge is always a deep message from our life. After
for a while, we must find a big awareness.
According to Arnord Mindell, when the first process which is one's daily
self identity and the second process which is not belong identity meet,
first process want to drive away the second process from his/her telitory,
because the second process seems to attack first process from outside of
it.
When we enter subbody world, the relationship between the first process
and second process is changed, and the first process feel big fllustration
against the second process. Because the second process seems to change
the first process as if a revolution.
But actually, both tendencies belong to our whole self, a tendency is to
keep familiar state, another tendency is to explore new world. Always these
two different tendencies are streaming in our whole self.
Our life always try to envent new possibility to live. Listen to the voice
of life. Ask to your life 'What do you want to do?'
Through the unpleasant feeling, someday we will find what the life try
to explore a new possibility.
3. Becoming
Try to become both side of edge.
Find a partner, and try to become one side tendency of edge.
Give the unplesant feeling to your partner. if you feel an unpleasant pressure
at your chest, try to press your partner's chest with giving the same feeling.
Next the partner gives the same pressure to you. Taste the blocked feeling
from both side of edge. You may notice what is happening slowly.
4. Dancing the edge
You need to wait the timing until you are ready to grasp what is the edge.
When you feel the timing has come, try to dance the edge.
One possibility is to dance it from your side, another possibility is to
dance edge's side. Or you can try to dance it from both side of edge.
Once you become your side and dance it, next try to dance from the opposite
side of edge. For example if you afraid the unpleasant feeling, try to
escape from it, and next, become the pursuer, try to run after you as the
pursuer. Through the experience from both side of edge, you can grasp the
whole. You may success to become a friend with both tendencies.
In my life history, I was tormented by a memory of my dead friends who
have died in the activities against the Vietnam war between USA and Vietnamese
people during 1960's to 1970's.
I was an organizer of the anti-war movement, I agitated people to fight
against the Japan gaverment which supported the US army, and many intimate
friends were killed in the movement.
'Why couldn't I die? Why did my friends have to die instead?'
I was worried by nightmare of them, many time my dead friends appeared
in my dreams .It was the biggest edge for me. I could not escape from the
nightmare for a long years. Then finally I started to dance them. I became
my dead friend and dance. No, it is not true. Exactly, I just gave my body
to my dead friends. My friends danced with using my body. We continued
the dance for many years at the various places on the planet. . Finally
I could release from the nightmare.
It was ten years before when I started to dance the edge unconsciously.
After several years, I learned the way of 'Edge work' from Aenord Mindell
who originated 'the process orientated psychology'. I found that it helps
us a lot to be released from our deep blocks. I could develope the edge
work in the subbody butoh method. I appriciate Arnord Mindell.
Today, we try to open 'Spuerlative' view point to understand multi-dimensional
self images.
We need to throw out the one fixed view ot self identity which is bound
by daily world.
'Superlative' means released from 'Relativity' which is bound by dualistic
thinking.
In our darkness of body, so many hidden characters and image of creatures,
life memories, inner qualia are streaming.
They have so rich diversity of way of living and time from the most primitive
one celled creature, like ameba, bacteria to fetus dream, not-me, shadow,
inferiore character, ego, persona, and so on.
All of them are prety ugry and seem not beatutiful from the view point
of daily judgement.
But, to affirm all of them is the most important.
And they are bound by illusion of dualistic relationship, like as mother/me,
father/me, society/membership, me/ others, and so on.
Our so called 'identities' are bound by them so strongly.
In three dimensional world, the concept of 'Relation between two things'
are work, but to understand multi-dimensional reality, it does not work.
We need to change it.
In the multi-dimensional world everything is connected each together with
so complex forms and changing always by multi-dimemsional resonance. They
are not 'relationship between two things' which we are familiar in daily
world. We need to receive them as they are transparently.
When we are bound by dualistic view point of 'relationship', we must misunderstand
deep reality of whole self.
This is the reason why we need the new concept of 'Superlative'.
Though this concept is too dificult to explain by word, because the word
is bound by dualism, but we need it.
It will release us from dualistic illusion and binds, and it will guide
us to understand how rich is the multi-dimensional whole self world.
The Zu-Ji-Cho method is also connected with the 'Suprlativity'.
We can catch the subtle signals from the multi-dimansional superlative
life world, and when we use them, we can open full creativity.
This week we try to open the world image=self image channel.
It is the biggest complex channel which all channels are mixed.
But at the other hand, it is simmilar with the body channel which is the
most
simple channel for life.
One celled creature has only body channel, they feel all kinds of qualia--
gravity, presure, warmth, bivration, wave, wind, taste of air, and so on.
Through body channel they resonate with the world.
Then there are two aproach to open world channel, one is to feel all kind
of
qualia through body channel as one celled creature, another way is to amplify
the reationship channel.
In the morning we try shiatsu practice, and to listen to qualia through
body
channel without movement.
When we amplify body feeling toward the movement, it will guide us to open
movement channel, but we inhibit movement and just feel the body feeling,
it guide us to open the world channel as the most ptoto channel.
Try to become one celled creature, and feel the world through somatic feeling.
We can catch various kind of qualia about the world.
In the afternoon, we try to the 'Blind guide'.
half paeson walk with blind fold with being guided by a partner arround
the
school in various feilds for thirty munites, and role change.
Through blind walk we can encounter so strange qualia, unknown feelings,
spontaneous visions, imaginations, archetypes, and so on, without visual
qualia.
Instead of eyes, the sensitivity of other channels are increased, and we
can
feel intersting world image flow.
After the practice, we tr yto find the most intersting place arround the
school, and create subbody movement with opening inner world images.
A subbody met new subbody to dig the feild, another one found their favorite
space on the stone, in the hole, by the tree, rolling the steps, and in
the
cloths.
Slowly we will open various world images and self images through these
practice, and unify all of subbdoies in all channels until the weekend.
We will meet so rich world of whole self in the darkness of body.
The third week of Subbody cobody theater has finished.
Each student has created ten munites to twenty munites subbody solo almost.
Then in this week we try to learn the resonance method.
Butoh is not self expression at all.
To dance with following the resonance of life, that all.
Today we talk to subbody that there is notthing to deny in our subbody
and life world.
Only daily ego deny our some elements of our whole self by daily judgment--wrong/right,
good/bad, ugly/beautiful, and so on.
Even the most ugly subbody can become beauty when it find the best timing
to appear.
We meditated and asked the life, to find the best timing for them.
Especially for duet, resonance is everything, if ego comes out, it break
everthing.
When we throw away our ego and self, a transparent resonance between life
and life comes out.
Butoh is not self expression, When we throw away our ego, a transparency
comes out.
It is the transparent duet.
We need only to follow the life resonance without ego.
Our subbody knows well when, where and how shoud we move the best.
it is the transparet mind and body. Our consciousness cannot plan and caliculate
them at all.
Students could enter this transparent world even at the entrance of the
tunnels, but they must find the entrance.
We have continued life meditation everyday for three weeks, it may change
student daily body and mind slowly.
On this Sunday, students are going to perform at the Tibetan evant in Dharamsala.
Subbody can rsonate with everything in the world.
I can imagine how much will Tibetan people surprise at the butoh performance
at the first time.
How much will Tibetan people be impressed by this strange theater.
Subbody is trained through the experience of performances stronger.
It is my biggest pleasure to see the progression of at subbodis of students.
Kats who learned subbody method for six month 2008 strats his performances
and workshops, in Minesota, USA.
People who live in USA get a chance to see and learn what is subbody.
Second week of March course has finished.
This week we try to open 'Hidden body cavity', 'Hidden
joint', 'Hidden skin', Visual channel, Audio channel, and
so on.
Also new rhizoming techniques were practiced.
I could teach 'Zu-Ji-Cho' method as a specific creation method, at the
first time. It was found several years ago, but only this year I could
find the chance to tell.
About these new methods, I will upload them on 'Practice
Guide' some time later.
With long term students, everything could go further and
deeper.
Students enjoyed to meet unknown hidden characters were unfolded with surprising.
Also most of students encountered some edges everyday.
Our conscious ego disturbs to receive unknown hidden elements within the
darkness of body.
By judgments of dualism which is good/bad, wrong/right, positive/negative,
like/dislike and so on.
When we encounter some edges, we don't need to force to overcome the edge
directly.
There are multi-dimensional labyrinth in our darkness of body, when we
will travel in another tunnels, suddenly we notice that there is the edge
behind us.
In the next week, we will try to open emotional channel,
human relational channel, and world channels.
Through these channels so many unknown hidden characters will be unfolded.
Every day and night, I try to enter student's new subbodies and listen
to subbodies what do they want to open next.
When students are ready to meet and receive more strange hidden elements,
I can guide them to deeper tunnels.
This is the biggest pleasure for midwife of subbody to encounter the moment
when new subbodies are born.
I tryed to proceed subbody process as slow as possible, in this Spring
term.
Time of subbody has paradox, the slower we proceed, the deeper we will
sink.
This week we tryed resonance touch practice in the every morning, then
students could enter the subbody mode easily, they could feel lazy, heavy,
slow subbody mode directly, and in the afternoon practice they could experience
deeper travel in subbody world.
Some of students entered so deep level of subbody which left from consciousness.
Some of students have met various type of subbody, sub-characters, and
some archtypes--old man, snake, monkey, father and so on.
Some of them traveled various age of one's individual life history.
Also we could start to practice rhizoming technique which is the main method
of subbody. It is not possible when we could calm down consciouness enough.
Maybe next week we will try to calm down consciousness into much more deep
level.
How is it possible to die down consciousness deeper?
I realized that resonance touch is so efective to enter subbody mode, than
I expected.
I will investigate in further level through shiatsu method.
The deep somatic feeling through shiatsu will guide us to the deeper body
qualia world.
This is a new chalenge for me.
*****
This week's subbodies have a tendency which every body closed eyes. It
is natural process, because this week we tryed to enter subconscious mode
of movement. They are concentrating on only body and movement channels.
You will find at next week how subbodies will be changed by opening visual
(=eye) channel and audio channel. Week by week we will try to open new
channels.
New course has started.
This year, we can began with slow and calm tempo, because paraticipants
are long term students only.
This morning, we began from swaying conditioning and resonance touch for
long time, afternoon, clock sway, life upstream meditaton, and ash walk.
Students try to search the most proto sub signal from life in the darkness
of body.
I felt ' Yes, this is proper tempo to enter the darkness'.
Finally I could find it.
I awared that the menu of last year was too much condensed to digest.
A student said 'I could relaxed so deep.'
Another student said 'It seemes miracle place!'
A student could find some connection with today's subbody to childhood
memories.
Anyway we will travel in our whole self world.
It's amazing.
Let's enjoy slowly.
How to get school from Dharamsala or Macleod Ganj
Take a taxi to go to Boonboon cafe in Jogibara village.
It takes for ten muntes, 100rupees by taxi.
In case of by walk, for 30 munites.
Now Spring has come in Himalaya.
It's warm, arround 22-24 degrees of temparature in sunny days, many kinds
of trees are full blossoming.
Subbody school will start on next Monday.
Untill then, please continue to calm down your daily mind and body.
Keep quiet as deep as possible.
Shift from daily thinking mode to listening mode to the darkness of body,
through swaying meditation and other conditioning methods of 'Practice Guide'.
Stop reading newspapers, magazines, books, separate from TV, radio, and
all kinds of infomational noises.
Calm down language brain and judgement.
Separate yourself from the human relationship which cause you the feeling
trouble, and emotional waves.
Just listen carefully to what is happening in the darkness of body.
Open subtle sense which is able to catch the sub-signal of your darkness
of body as faint as possible.
Try to catch subtle signal from your life and subbody.
The signal is so subtle and sentient. It is millions times
weaker than conscious signal in your brain and body.
Because when our language brain acts millions of neuron cells have to fire
together by synchronizes electlic excitement.
But the qualia are shifting condition by subtle chemical siganl in our
glia cells in brain. The energy level is millions times subtler then elctric
signals of neuron.
The condition of glia is changing in every nano second infinitly.
The moment which you can catch a signal is so short moment. You can feel
it only for several nano secconds then it disappears immidiately.
We need to become a ultra sentient hunter to catch it.
Moreover, they are streming beyond channels of consciousness.
They are shift from subtle body feeling to tiny spontaneous movement, a
short vision, delicate wispering from another dimension, very small changing
of emotions, human relationship feeling, a sign of shifting of world image,
self image stream and so on.
Anyway pleae try to catch it and recognize how subtle it is conparing the
dayly mind and body.
This is the reason why you need to stop consciousness and become the quiet
body.
It is the most important point of subbody process to be the most sentient
body which can catch the sub-signal in a most subtle unvisible sign, before
it will appear as a visible shape.
No need to hurry, take your time as slow as possible.
'Slowly, slowly', this is the subbody speed.
******
On Monday 17th March we will meet at school.
Please arrive at school before 10:00, arround 9:30, when you arrive at
school, make final registration with payment for school fee to school staff,
and order your lunch to
cocking staff.
After that keep silence strictly, and relax down your body and mind by
your favorite way.
School time is from 10:00 a.m. to 4:30 p.m.
Lunch time is 12:30-1:30 p.m.
Also keep silence during lunch time strictly. Just listen to life resonance
with all.
After class in the evening, we can exchange our innner process with short
words, at that moment also you can ask any question if you have.
But don't expect immidiate answer by words, you will recieve the answer
through the contents of teaching through the week.
See you soon.
Lee
P.S.
Please bring your swim wear
A hot spring and new swiming pool are waiting for you.
There will be some classes in the pool in May.
A good news for people who live in America continent.
Subbody school Himalaya is so far from you, but it is able to learn subbody
method at the close place to your home town.
Kats who have learned at Subbody school for half year 2008, starts various
activities, in Minnesota,USA.
He have already teaching expieriences at Subbody school last year.
I recommend you to get this chance strongly.
12 Weeks Beginning Subbody Butoh Workshops
When: 4/13- 6/29/2008, Every Sunday, 10:00am-1:00pm
Locations:
(F) Fallout Urban Art Center Studio, 2601 2nd Ave. S, Minneapolis, Minnesota,
USA
(P) Patrickfs Cabaret, 3010 Minnehaha Ave. S, Minneapolis
(Class locations are subject to change)
Tuition: $240 (pre-registration recommended)
This workshop is limited to 10 participants
(full payment required to register)
Subbody Butoh Workshop is a group process and this workshop requires no
previous dance experience. Anyone who would like to explore their hidden
creative potentials are welcome!
This workshop will focus on the essential aspects of Subbody Butoh:
EQuiet down the daily consciousness and listen to the subbody (sub-conscious
body) signal.
EGo beyond our physical, psychological and social bounds in order to create
movements that are novel and unique to the individual body.
EFind resonance within our bodies and with each other.
Performances
Kats will perform in March-April at various place in Minnesota, USA.
I uploaded a new article about 'Swaying meditation' at the top of 'Practice
Guide'.
You can find it bellow this article.
Please try to this meditation in the every morning and evenig as a preparation
to enter subbody school. It will help you to get the subbody method easier
in the class.
Now Spring has come in Himalaya India, the temparature is arround 20 degree
in fine day. But sometimes it will go back to Winter. Because here is at
the 1800 meters hight from sea level.
During you will travel to Himalaya India. your body must change to adorenalin
mode, it stops your immune system. Your body will become easier to catch
cold or some thing. This is natural response of our body against foregn
condition of land and culture.
India is so different from your country in every kinds of expierience..
Please try to keep calming down your condition by the swaying meditation
(below) as much as possible. It will guard your body against the nessesary
changing of your body.
Hope to have a good trip and keep your fine condition through the travel
in India.
See you soon!
Lee
P.S. Please bring a swim wear. A tiny swimmng pool is going to complete,
we will have a class in the water in April or May, and for enjoying outside
hot spring after class in weekend.
This letter is for students who are going to join the subbody school.
To learn subbody method means no to get some physical techniques, but to
change your way of living. It need so much time. That's the reason why
the minimum term has been changed from one month to three months.
In our advanced societies, we are forced to keep strong ego and language
consciousness. All of us are forced so, then nobody notice that we are
forced.
Why was the subbody school opened in Himalaya?
The reason is that we need to separate from the habit and bind of advanced
societies, and know that we can live in another way. We can stop our daily
ego and langage brain. We can transform from daily conscious thinking mode
to listening mode to subconscious process.
We can notice that our life is resonating with the world.
But the subconscious process is so subtle. It is billions times weaker
than consciouness. Then we need to separate from the pressure of infomations
of adovanced society. The thinking channel with using language is our main
channel in daily society. It takes so long time to calm down the thinking
habit. In the process to enter the subbody mode, if thinking channel comes
up, it stops subbody process at all. We can not listen to the life resonance,
because it was masked by strong energy of consciousness.
Then I want to ask all students to prepare before entering the school.
Please prepare by your self to calm down your ego and thinking brain through
swaying menditation in every morning and evening. I think the ego and thinking
is very important for you now, then it means to change yourself from the
bottom of being. It need so long time. You may need for many years.
And Dharamsala is touristic town, there are so many exciting exizotic method,
like yoga, reiki, body work, music, dance and so on. But if you try to
learn two different thing at the same time, you must lose both. I reccomend
all students to concentrate to only subbody method in a piriod if you want
to get it. You need at least for three months in case of you concentrate
on the subbody method, if you lose concetration you need for many years.
And disconcentration disturb not only you, but the other students. Because
the subbody process is also cobody process which is shared by all students.
Then please prepare by yourself in your home before the school, to get
habit of every days meditation with swaying, and listening to the darkness
of body.
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