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Sinking into darkness of the body
 
 Why do you need stop talking
 
 Medimotion
 
06 December, 2019

To stop thinking is the alpha and omega of the Subbody process

 

The first thing to do in the Himalayas is to have enough rest and relax completely. It is to rest the mind and body that was excited during the long journey. To solve the tension of mind and body, to stop thinking, and do nothing but sleep.

Gradually shift to the mode of listening to the darkness of the body from daily thinking mode. That's the most important thing to do from the beginning till the end.

Shift to the listening mode to the whole brain from thinking mode in a part of brain. During thinking by using language, the brain is excited by electrical signals which fire connections in the neuron cells at the surface layer in the cerebral cortex.

 Why do we need to stop thinking?

Please see the next figure. 

 

Thnking, Meditation and Medimotion

 

Thinking mode of brain

A recent discovery in brain science is “Default mode”. Brain scientist found when our consciousness has a rest, the brain activity doesn’t rest, on the contrary, the bloodstream in the brain is more than the thinking mode. The brain is active in “Mind Wandering”. They called this “Default mode”  as the following;

 

Default Mind Wandering mode (Meditation mode)

 Brain scientists found the “Default mode” above. Brain is not rest, on the contrary various parts of brain are activated and communicates.

They call it “Mind Wandering”.

The traditional meditation technique is sometimes to keep this “Mind Wandering” mode to be aware of various things. Because in this mode various parts of the brain become active and various Qualia can encounter each other and generate new Qualia automatically.  The “Enlightment” is the fruit of the “Resonant Emergence” of new Qualia that Qualia and Qualia encounter and new Qualia is born.

Recent “Mindfulness method” might be entering in this mode. In the traditional meditation technique, sometimes they focus on one image, for example, “Buddha”, “God”, “Gull” and so on. In this case, brain mode becomes closer to thinking mode (see the first figure).

Observe the above figure carefully, it is activated except for the movement field. In the movement field, there is no activity. Because traditional meditation blocks body movement at all. The Qualia stream can’t meet movement Qualia at all.

 

Medimotion mode

 What happens in the Medimotion?

Medimotion is moving meditation. Then including the movement field, all parts of the brain become active and all kinds of Qualia can encounter freely beyond any borders.

This state happens only in the Medimotion mode, the reason why the creativity of Life becomes maximum in the Medimotion. This finding is one of most important one during 20 years investigation.

 




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Listen to the Forgotten Memory
26 November, 2019
Listening to subtle Qualia of the darkness of the body

I often use the word “Listening”.
What is Listening?
What do we listen to?

When we listen to the body, at first we can sense only ambiguous something that is not able to recognize clearly Is this sensation? Or the imagination? Or a dream? Illusion? memory?

We cannot distinguish at all.

It is Non-dual Qualia.

Qualia is everything that cell’s Life resonates with. Life resonates with Qualia of Gravity, Sunshine, Air, temperature, moisture, sound, smell…

Life is always resonating with these physical Qualia of environment. And not only those present physical Qualia but also inner memory Qualia of those that are reserved as the Life memory during the four billion years Life history.

Both are always resonating double. We call the former “Outer Qualia” the latter “Inner Qualia”.

We listen to the double resonance of both though we cannot distinguish as well.

But, during the listening, the non-dual Qualia shift to a certain channel Qualia; bodily sensation, movement, visual, audio, emotion, human relationship, world=self-image, and thinking channels so that we can catch it clearly. We follow it by the whole body-mind until it becomes a certain subbody movement.

When we co-research it with some friends, sometimes a friend’s movement affects you, or your movement becomes other’s movement.

Listen to the process, taste the resonance deeply. It is proof that the border between self and others disappears.

Listen to your own Qualia and other’s Qualia as well.  

Listen to inside 50% and outside 50%. This is Transparent listening.

You will meet not only your friends but also meet the world Qualia.

In the world Qualia, it includes not only the physical world but also the invisible world Qualia that Hijikata called it “Behind world”.

Those are the Qualia that we listen to.  




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 26 November 2019

Why did the daily body lose creativity?

 

Why the subconscious body (subbody) has infinite creativity?

The fundamental logic of the subbody method came out transparently.
The reason why the subbody had to be submerged in the darkness of the body after being dissociated from the daily body, was because the subbody had Qualia that could not resonate well with this world.
The daily body gathers only Qualia that can resonate well, and repeated infinitely, and eventually developed a strong ego, identity, self-dynamism.
"I am strong", "I am kind", we knit a story of self-identity by gathering good Qualia that can affirm ourselves. And we try to reinforce the same story of ego every day.
All the Qualia that have leaked from it are driven to the darkness of the body as a subbody=cobody. The Qualia that resonate only once, know what is unacceptable in this world, sink deep into the darkness of the body without repeating its anymore.
So, to encounter the subbody the followings are important;
1. Search Qualia that Life could not resonate well.
2. Find Qualia that has never been repeated.
3. They might be immobilized in Qualia of <Kan (disability)> such as stiffness, blockage, habit, disability of mind and body, and are hidden somewhere in the darkness of mind and body.
It is especially important to focus on these three points.
It was these Qualia that Hijikata Tatsumi kept collecting throughout his life.
I was able to encounter this solution finally by closely observing the branch point between the subbody and the daily body.
While tasting those Qualia collected by Hijikata by the body, their common points soaked into the body naturally.
Deleuze which I have been reading for many years also helped in this understanding.

"The possibility of future creation is buried in things that have never been repeated" ("Difference and repetition")

Deleuze observed the daily body rather than the subbody and found the fact that "I", ego and identity repeatedly wear the same Qualia infinitely. They are only of what was old second-hand Qualia. It is arranged by tree-like hierarchical order. There is nothing fresh. Daily bodies are alienated from creativity because they are repeating the same thing.
With this, the reasons why the daily body are alienated from art and creation were also clarified.
And also why creativity is packed only in Life of the subconscious body.
I knew it from the experience of the body, but I could not explain logically until now.
Deleuze, thank you.
With this, we can add some new to the points of ordinary "Sati" (awareness that can be obtained by listening to the subtle Qualia).
Until now, we focused to be aware of when inner language talking comes up, we notice and stop it.
When we are caught in emotions, not expressing it as it is, but swallow it and wait for fermentation to a novel creation in the body.
Instead of obeying such a large inclination, we focus on listening to some sort of uncomfortable Qualia that Life cannot resonate well.
In addition to these, even when it is repeating the same Qualia, do notice it and stop immediately.
Life is short. It is unendurable to keep on repeating the same thing and getting old.
Stopping it at that moment and continue listening to the subtle Qualia of the three points above.
Let's keep listening with the subbody mode as possible as long, possibly for 24 hours.
This is the secret to living the life of full creativity every day.
Hijikata became the subconscious body and found the important Kan (disabled) Qualia to listen to.
Deleuze continued to criticize the daily body of the contemporary world and had reached the solution.
A half-century passed since I started the struggle with both. And finally, the two became one.
Both of them tried to bring novel creation to mankind. It is natural that they are connected.
However, this is the first time that the logic of the connection is discovered and they become one by resonance.
Both of them tried to bring a new creation to mankind. It is natural that you are connected.
However, this is the first time that is found the logic of the connection and discovered that it will become one by resonance.
The Tree Rhizome method that freely travels back and forth between daily consciousness and subconscious body is finally obtained a rich result.
It will open up a brilliant way that anyone can do.
Let's spread the Life Resonant Art to the world and turn everyone's Life into Art.
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The Butoh Revolution
Third Edition

Rhizome Lee

18 USD


29 October, 2019
The Butoh Revolution


Preface for the third edition

 

Butoh is a revolution.

Butoh discovers a new beauty even in the unsightly form of Life that people do not normally regard as beauty. Any ugly and distorted bodies can be transformed into beauty by finding the optimal Jo-Ha-Kyu.

Butoh has continued to invent a new “Beauty” that seems to be out of the ordinary for people, breaking the narrow aesthetics of the past.

This is possible by taking off the1“human” concept and becoming a “Life” that is not trapped by “humans” and exploring the darkness of the body.

In the darkness of the body, there are hidden infinite Qualia that cannot resonate well with the daily world.

The so-called Jung's “shadow” behind the surface personality, Sullivan's “not-me”, and Floyd's “inferior personality” are hedden.

In the collective unconscious area that ​​Jung found, there are lurked so many “Archetype” Qualia, which is the heritage of human history, and the deeper “Prototype”  diverse creature's Qualia before we became a human being.

Tatsumi Hijikata, who was a founder of Butoh called them, "Kan (disabled)" Qualia that Life could not resonate well with the world.

Daily consciousness captured by dualistic thoughts, judgments and information cannot even imagine or remind them.

But Subbody Life Resonance Butoh has found a way to regain those forgotten Qualia by the <medimotion (moving meditation)> method.

Sit in a quiet place isolated from information and listen to the darkness of your body. Then, we realize that the Life of one hundred trillion cells that make up our bodies resonates finely with all Qualia internal and external, and is moved slightly by something. While the listening we can follow the Qualia that is moved in an unexpected direction and posture. (Qualia is the Life resonance of the Life of the cell itself.) Find the most comfortable rhythm and speed. If you immerse yourself in comfortable sways, your daily consciousness will eventually calm down and you will become a subbody (subconscious body) mode.

While being moved comfortably as a subbody, the Qualia of Life memory engraved in the cells of the whole body resonates with the Qualia of the body movement, and a new Qualia is born. That is the creation of a new Qualia by <Resonance Emergence>.

By this method, the Subbody Resonance Butoh technique succeeded in opening infinite creativity of Life.

The Butoh founder, Hijikata has also quested while digging the darkness of the body in the same way.

Hijikata always reminded the dancers,

"Don't forget to take off all the human conditions."

Butoh is a revolution that takes away all the conditions in which modern human beings are trapped and becomes pure Life.

When we become to Life, we can recover the essence of Life Resonance that "other people's suffering and problems are my own" that we have forgotten.

In the present age of natural destruction and the devastation of Life, the biggest problem for us is that we have forgotten the <Connection of Life> or <Oneness of Life>.

 As human beings become Life again, the way to fundamentally solve the problems of the modern earth becomes transparent.

Butoh was the beginning of the coming <Life Resonance Revolution>.

In the future, it will spread to various fields of art and social activities as a “Life Resonance Art”. It will deepen and develop to a “Life Resonance Revolution” on a global scale by people who can make the whole problem of Life all over the world as own.

This book is the first step in my quest for 20 years of the path from the Butoh Revolution to the global Life Revolution.

I hope you proceed to read the next step of “The Practice Guide for Butoh Revolution” and the “Life Resonance Revolution” for the future of Life.

 





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25 October, 2019
The Seconf Letter for Transparency

Challenge for Ethics in the Transition period

Now we are in transition from the small Subbody Hall to the world. Through the big success of the 18th International Butoh Festival Himalaya and Europe Life Resonance Butoh Tour, we are spreading our activities to the worldwide scale and experiencing various social communications with people.
What the most fragile and unable to express by words in the Abyss of the darkness of the body
We are traveling in the darkness of the body, and we meet so many strange tendencies of Life. All of them are the most precious source of novel creation.
But, it is too strange, sometimes we do not want to face it. We call it “Edge”. Hijikata named it “Kan”. Kan is Qualia that Life can’t resonate well.
Only people who could travel all of them who want to overcome it by finding a better resonance pattern with them know it. Jung had sunk into the darkness of the body by alone to face his unconsciousness. It is like the follows;
“Here is hidden the most secret, most troubled, most intense, most sensitive, most shy, most ridiculous, most quirky, most immoral, and at the same time the most sacred feeling (Qualia). It drives us to build relationships that cannot be expressed in words and are difficult to explain. "
("Psychology of Transference" C.G.Jung)
Only a few people who could travel the subconscious realm until the Abyss( the bottomless depth) know it. It is too strange for the daily body (“I” or “ego”), but we know all of the strange Qualia are the infinite source of creativity of Life. We need to co-create a community where everybody can sink into their own Abyss and convert it to a unique creation.
While the past 20 years, we could experiment with it at the small utopia space of the Subbody School that is isolated from society. At that period, we needed only three rules;
1. No talking
2. No absent
3. Not to be late
It’s enough for us at that time.

Accept other's problem as own issue

In the beginning day of the course, we share each one's motivation and problems.
We become subbody=cobody, which accepts other's issues as our issues. We continued to try to find the best resonance pattern together to solve the issues.
By sharing these attitudes, we could share our own Qualia with others and co-create the profound Butoh creation.
But, now, we are in a transitional period from the small safe space to begin to engage with various social areas around the world.
Challenges in the transition period
In the transition period, we will meet diverse people in many social areas. We connect by not only face to face, but through the internet or mailing list and so on. This transition period has already begun. It is necessary to establish new behavioral ethics in this situation and share it with everyone.

How can we deepen the Ethics of the midwife

So far, we have already co-built the common principle of co-research and the co-midwife.
1. To share other people's problems as our problems and tries to resolve them together.
2. Confidentiality
In particular, the midwife who guides people has to keep the confidentiality that never reveals the secrets of others strictly.
3. No judgment
4. Not respond quickly
When we meet other's problems, to inhibit quick response is important.
Not to point it by words so that not activate the daily "I" or "ego" that tends to deny others and self-justification.
5. Listen to the double Qualia Resonance
When we encounter other’s problems, the first response is by daily “I” or “ego” to deny others.
In case you get angry or excite with strong energy, diverse Archetypes, or Complex drive you from the darkness of the body always without exception.
Listen to the double resonance between the other’s issues and your inner Qualia, which is resonating at the same time.
We wait for Life to find a novel way to solve the issue, and we share each one's best.
These are the common heritage of co-research, co-midwife, and co-creation of 20 years history of Subbody school. It is necessary to find and share transitional ethics that can apply these existing midwife principles to more diverse cases.
Now the Internet developed to communication tools without facing each face.
If we make a mistake using the Internet or mailing lists, it can even be a weapon that hurts and erases people.

Learn from a sad example

There was a situation in which a person who had heard another person's secret, the person told it others processed by his/her assumption and judgment, and someone who heard it distributed via the Internet or email list. The information spread as scandalous rumors to the world soon and involve others. Some would amplify and expand the rumors, causing people to become more confused. Some people might have touched on this phenomenon.
We should not blame others. Everyone can mistake, especially in the Transition.
We need to continue listening to Life for 24-hour.
All answers to find the best resonance pattern to solve issues will come up from your Life.
It is necessary to find the ethics unique to the advanced information age adding to the midwife ethics.
Now is the time for everyone to co-create new ethics of transition. If we miss this opportunity, the most profound heritage to co-create the future world would collapse.
I hope all of you continue to listen to Life and share your best with others.

24 October 2019
Rhizome Lee




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Wheelchair Butoh 2015-2019 
20 October, 2019
This is the Origin of the

Life Resonance Revolution!



We want to vanish all boundaries one the planet.
Between able and disable, knowlege and no knowlege, poor and rich, power and powerless, byoond all borders in the world.

We have continued the Wheelchair Butoh workshop and performance since 2015 to this year.
We will continue it with expanding to diverse boundaries until all of the boundaries will disappear.



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15 October, 2019
Yamazaki, Reborn!

Rhizome Lee and cobody


50 years ago I was an activist of the Anti-Vietnam War. In that movement, my intimate friend Yamazaki died.
While these two decades I continued to dance Yamazaki. Exactlysaying, not I, but Yamazaki danced with using my body.
This dance has been danced around the world dozens of times so far, but in the middle of the dance, touch a certain rock as a Yamazaki grave monument and tweet in my heart (Yamazaki, Revive!). However, while hitting the rocks by hand, there is a part where something suddenly drives my body violent and hits the rocks with stones and shout in my mind,
"Wake up Yamazaki!"
Yamazaki reborn! "

And gradually a turn over happened from I hit the rock to he hits me.
Not me but Yamazaki hits to wake up my frozen body , "Wake up Lee!"
I continued this dance for several years, but gradually my mind=body condition became strange and I had to stop this dance.
However, this April a filmmaker Daishima who is making Yamazaki's movie visited me from Tokyo, and asked me to dance the Yamazaki piece.
I decided that this is the last performance, and danced it twice. The first one was solo at Subbbody hall.
The second one is Lee and cobody at Tatapani riverside.
After that my mind=body was finally broken. I noticed that my immune system has stopped and many body-mind syndromes attacked my body.
Now I have to calm down my self by a retreat to listen to Life, counseling to treat and writing. It may continue for some times.
Now gradually recovering, wait for a while.



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 Yamazaki, Reborn! at the Subbody Theater Rhizome Lee
6 October, 2019
Yamazaki, Reborn! Rhizome Lee

This year's 52nd Anniversary of Hiroaki Yamazaki who died in the anti-Vietnam war movement has come around.

20 years ago, Yamazaki had possessed my body and created my virgin Butoh "Infectious Fever". He was the true author.

After that, while recent several years I continue to try to make a new piece for his 50 years Anniversary at various places in the world.
When I found a rock that looked like a gravestone of Yamazaki, I hit it, with praying "Yamazaki, Reborn!"
I have been dancing to revive Yamazaki's soul to the present.

I have given up to perform it in Japan by various cercomectances.
But, a film maker Mr. Daishima came from Tokyo and asked to me to dance it.
I decided that this was the last dance and danced at this spring semester at the Subbody Resonance school.
Mr. Daijima, and cameraman Mr. Kato shot and edited it.
(The above video was shot by Pitar and edited by Shiv in the school)

I heard that there will be a screening event in Japan.
Thank you very much!





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'What is Creativity of Life' Life Resonance Series 1 | Rhizome Lee 
6 October 2019

What is the Creativity of Life?
Life Resonance Series 1

1. Sharing three big Questions

Someone asked me, “What is Life Resonance?”
I want to share the essence of Life Resonance research.
I have three unsolved questions;
What is Life?
What is Resonance?
What is Qualia?
I have researched these Questions for a long year, but not found final answers, because everything is too complicated.
What is Life?
I believed that I have my Life if I die, my Life finished.
It is the individual aspect of Life. In Young age, I believed so, too.
But Life is not only like that.
Because we have a hundred trillion cells, and each cell has Life.
These hundred trillion of cell's Life resonate together. It is the Human body.
What is Resonance?
And Resonance is very difficult to explain by the word.
Resonance happens from both sides naturally, there is neither subject nor object.
In daily life, we believe that I am a subject and I see an object, we feel like this.
Resonance happens from both sides. And it is Multiple Resonance.
We can't explain this because the word is bound by dualistic subject and object.
What is Qualia?
Qualia is Life Resonance; each cell's Life is Resonating with Qualia.
Not only humans but all kinds of species cell’s Life can resonate with Qualia.
Qualia is regarded and researched as the human issue by philosophers and brain scientists.
Qualia Resonance is not only human.
Life of each cell of amoeba, bacteria, tree, animal, insect resonates with Qualia.
These three are the deepest questions that I want to share with you.

2. How is a new Qualia born?

Qualia are resonating very flexibly.
A Qualia meets another Qualia and immediately new Qualia is born.
In the morning Medimotion we are moved spines in various ways.
Some of the cells may remember that we were a fish or a snake.
Each cell has 4 billion years of Life history and profound Life memories.
In the first three billion years, we were the one-celled creature.
Qualia hat someone moves us is the most familiar Qualia for all cell's Life.
Always keep Medimotion. Don't be a stable position. It activates
your thinking channel.

3. Why daily mind can't open the Creativity of Life?

Why our Life and Subbody can open interesting creativity?
The reason why is because we stop the judgment.
Deleuze said, “We have a Big Tree in our brain.”
It is the “Ego”, “Identity” or “I”.
Every moment we collect positive Qualia to support it.
“I’m OK”, “I’m strong”, “I’m intelligent”, “I’m kind”, “I’m right” and so on.
Always "I", "I", "I", occupy the brain and then no space for creativity.
We are bound by the inner hierarchy that “I” is on the top.
“I control my body”, “I walk”, I see something”
This "I", "Identity" or "Ego" resonate with the external hierarchy; Nation-State, Religion, law, or Big Information system like the internet.

4. Internal Tree=Heierarchy are support each other

The Nation-State and “I” support each other and amplify each other;
"We are strong", "We are right", “We can fight against another Nation-state”.
Hierarchy collects Positive Qualia always, and marginalized the negative Qualia, and project it to the marginalized people; refugee, foreigner, disable people, crazy people, are cut and dissociated.
Our daily world is like this.

5. Listen to the Abyss of Life

But In the Subbody=cobody world, the borders disappear. It is a Non-dual=Multi dimensional resonance world of Life resonance Qualia.
Hijikata called it "Abyss". Abyss is bottomless depth.
Each one has the "Abyss" in the darkness of the body that is full of myriad negative Qualia.
Anger, fear, shivering, blockage, nightmare, Archetype and prototype, and so on.
They are the Qualia that Life couldn’t resonate well.
We don't regard that those Qualia don’t belong “I”. We cut them and dissociate to the subconscious or unconsciousness.
All we have marginalized them and forgotten.
But, very interesting Qualia are Hidden there. All of them are sources of creation.
They have never met together, isolated, and hidden for long years in the darkness of the body.

6. A new Qualia is born when a Qualia meets another Qualia

When a Qualia meets new Qualia, and new Qualia is born. They come out as Subbody=cobody.
Then we can change these new Qualia to our Creation.
It is the Creation world of Life.
The world of subbody=cobody world and creation world have different logic from the daily world.

7. We change the darkness to the Flower

We can change it the ugly, dark, unknown Qualia to the Flower=Novel Beauty.
A flower can't stand alone; the Mystery and Secret support the Flower.
Flower, Mystery, and Secret are connected and support each other.
After the creation of Subbody=cobody, when we go back to the darkness of the body, we can notice that the entanglement of negative Qualia has a little bit changed to transparent.

8. Repeat the Dynamic Loop every day

We repeat this Dynamic Loop every day, every week, every month.
It is the basic Life Resonance Butoh Method.



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The following is real final version of the First Letter

Sorry to uploaded the wrong version!
1 October 2019

Transparency -- The First Letter

Now the time has come to make the entanglement in the darkness of the body to Transparency.  It is not to justify my myriad mistakes, faults, and sins.  I am regret and apologize to all the people I hurt from the bottom of Life.
I have lived for this in my whole life.

About Trauma and Change it to the Flower

 
Dear All subbody=cobody and butoh friends

Confidentiality of the midwife

I decided when I opened a subbody school and became a midwife who supports the safe birth of each subbody=cobody and creativity of Life. I have to try to experience the phenomena that occur in Life as a test bench and open up the way to overcome them.
Because countless people with trauma, edge, and entanglement have joined in the Subbody School, I accepted all of them as my issue and tried to solve them together.
The midwife has confidentiality because many co-researchers who cannot solve their issue by oneself came to talk to me one's secret or mystery at every weekend.
Some of them have such a terrible trauma, various sexual abuse, domestic violence, experiences of suicide, mental or physical disabilities, and so on.
But, the midwife had to keep the secret of them entirely.

Affirmation of Life

In the beginning, I decided that any strangeness of Life should affirm. Because, all dualistic judgments; good/bad, right/wrong are only human illusion. In Life, nobody judges. I believe that when we stop language thinking and judgment, and we become subconscious body (subbody=cobody) mode, all boundary disappears. We can resonate with everything beyond any borders that exist in the society among mental or physical disabled people, dead people, poor, no education, crazy, crime people, any age, any minor sexuality, and so on. Even if it becomes grotesque shapes. I have manifested it at the beginning of Subbody school.
The manifest to affirm everything about Life, It was too radical and might lack validity. Maybe we need to add a sentence which "Except to hurt other Life."
Now I have a retreat to listen to Life. I want to quit to guide people as the top midwife of the Tree (Hierarchy) system of the school. We need to vanish all hierarchy in human society. At first, we should try the experiment. I hope all of you investigate and share your best with others to generate an ideal co-midwife=co-research=co-creation community. I want to learn from the experiments. How can we listen to more in-depth with all of you?


Dear all friends,
Listen to Life

Don't you have the experiences of the failure of love?
Don't you know when love broke, how it warped into extraordinary shape, how ugly and unknown?
Do you want to stop the self-research to the bottomless depth?
Do you stop to guide co-research to the Abyss of Life in your course?
When I spoke to present co-researchers in the meeting about my deep trauma, I told you all my Trauma was an inevitable mutation of Life. I could make it transparent through the 70 years investigation process.

Simply as the following;

When my mother abandoned me in my three years old, my first love and the safe world broke.
When I was separated from the second mother by conceit, my second love has broken at seven years old.
This double shock became my fatal Trauma, and the most energetic archetype; Anima possessed me.

Anima is one of the strongest archetypes that binds us by an ideal image of the partner. My anima was an innocent girl because I couldn’t believe an adult woman anymore by the Trauma above.

2o years ago I met a strange sentence of Floyd;

“When people became old age, some of them are bound by the five years happy environment.”

At that time, I couldn’t understand what he said. But when I became sixty’s, his Prophecy visited me. When I was five years old, every day I contacted my second mother (grandmother) and felt safe.

My sexuality has regressed to feel childhood skinship the greatest happiness.

I couldn’t see this process transparently at that time. Maybe it was my fault. But, to be able to see everything is only at the end of the process.  
I had met a girl A when she was five years old. During her childhood, we are just good friends. Every Sunday, we played together with her brother.

When she grew to use a computer, she sat on my knees and played the game. At that time, I was pleased with the skinship. It is my specific warped shape of sexuality that was regressed to feel childhood skinship the greatest happiness.

I have investigated in Life. Each Life of cells has connection desire. I couldn’t distinguish between the connection desire of Life and the regressed sexuality to childship skinship. Maybe this was my second fault.    
When she grew up to adolescence, I proposed to marry me. I made a “Will” that after my death, all my property belong to her and tried to love each other. But she couldn't accept it, because of too much age gap. My last love trial has broken. I have hurt her. I apologize to her from the bottom of Life.

I couldn’t distinguish between the connection desire, repressed sexuality, and love. It is my third failure. In the proposing process, I have hurt her. I had no desire for sexual intercourse at all but only wanted to kinship. I believed that if this loving approach has succeeded, we can solve everything as the complete love process. When she left me, my broken love tried to seek an alternative immediately.

It was girl B. When she was at 18 had to quit school and started working, I began to love her and propose to marry me.
She refused it. And she got married to somebody else.
My broken love found another alternative, girl C.

But I noticed that it was a shadow of love — an Anima that is an archetype that hides in our collective unconsciousness. I want to apologize to her, sincerely.
But, unfortunately, she got sick and has gone to another world already. When she returned home last winter, she died of serious disease,  because she had four organs problems and immune system failures. In spite of I was beside her every day and never realized she was unhealthy. I deeply regret this. My delusional love blinded me to her health. I have no way to apologize to her. This unsolvable heavy regret is what I must carry through until I die.

Now girl B and I are still good friends and see each other often with her family.
It is a rough story of the last part of what I told the present co-researchers in the meeting of the school.
I showed a strange shape when Life was twisted by something how much it mutated to frightful and unknown shape. It is an avoidable transformation for Life. I couldn’t resonate well with it until now.

Unfortunately, while writing this letter, some old co-researchers started a campaign that flame-up the fact by twisting and amplifying it. I hope to stop the campaign. It would be disturb to co-midwife and o-research into the Abyss of Life.

“Kan” Qualia

Hijikata called it "Kan (Disability)" and changed it to the “Flower of Kan”.
Kan" is Qualia that Life couldn't resonate well, and hard to remember because of unconscious marginalization.
To change the ugliest Kan Qualia to the Flower is essential Butoh creation.
I want to share my unknown mutated process as transparent as possible with you. Because if you want to be an actual Butoh creator, you need to face your own Kan Qualia and need to change it to a unique Flower of Kan.

Everybody hates "Kan" Qualia

I can understand that all of us must surprise the first encounter with real Kan Qualia. And refuse it strongly. But when we refuse something by extreme anger or hatred, our subconscious body knows that something similar tendency exists in the darkness of the body.
What ordinary people hate Butoh is the same trick.
The campaign amplifies this trick to the world. I hope to stop it from letting us listen to the body in the perfect silence.

Let 's transform this challenge condition into a Flower

Now it is the time for everyone to spread to the world as Rhizome with initiating, resonating, connecting, organizing, and separating freely.
I was waiting for this moment for a long time. We need to change the Subbody Butoh from the Tree (Hierarchy) system that only Lee was top of midwives. Now everybody should grow up to a co-midwife Rhizome. Please listen to and investigate in Life for 24-hour. And share your best with others.
Lee will disappear soon. I am in a retreat already. I never repeat my fault. I would never initiate the course as the one top midwife.  Please destroy the Tree type hierarchy system of ancient Subbody Butoh school. Instead of one midwife, Please everybody become co- midwife. I want to wait for a Rhizome Revolution. Instead of Lee, such diverse Midwife Rhizome will initiate, organize, connect, and separate freely for change the world where any ugly mutated Life can live as its unique Life.

Warm Resonance

Lee

 


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27 september 2019

Hunting the Dragon, and change it to a creation!

Dear Dan

I want to share your drawing and the novel "Trama/Recovery" with deep resonance.
I have a big sexual Traum, too, though the content is entirely different to you.

Daer all co-researchers and friends

When I saw this picture for the first time, immediately I felt profound synchronicity, "Oh, it is the same face and same shape as my hidden creature! " so, a part of my darkness of body transformed into like this creature, sometimes it turns a dragon or monster.
I want to make this mystery and secret make transparency, and have investigated it for my whole 70 years life.
It is more or less that such creatures lurk in the darkness of everyone. Many co-researchers told me about it for the 20 years Subbody=cobody Butoh history or carry own secret and change it to enormous unique creations. I've been doing my job as a midwife to support the safe birth of each own creation. The midwife has a duty of confidentiality, so I have never told it others.

From childhood, I noticed this creature moved me in unknown ways. When this creature starts moving, always it hurt others. I tried for a long year to hunt it and want to shift to a creation. But, could n't succeed perfectly.

This year, I could become able to control it slowly through multiple resonances. Now I am trying to make it as transparent as possible, though it is such hard work.
In spite of it, you did it by your creation. I am so glad that you did it, instead of me. I send you a big congratulation!
You encouraged me a lot. Thank you very much!
Now some of the old co-researchers knew it and bound by a dualistic judgment by anger. They have started a world campaign against me by advertising the fake news twisted and amplified. I hope them to notice that it is not only the breaking to the confidentiality of midwife, but also the destruction of co-research in the Abyss of Life.
I am facing challenging conditions, but many warm friends trust and encourage me to make it transparent.
Please wait for a while. I will complete it because it is no exaggeration to say I was born for finishing it. It is my destiny.

Thank you very much!

Lee

p.s. Dan is going to publish it soon. I recommend all of you to read it because it is one the most celebrated success to convert the inner creature to the unique creation in language channel.

He also asks people to resonate with this picture. If you are good at painting, please send him.
The secret of the darkness of the body is a picture, words, music, dance, any channel is fine, only to change it to unique creation is truly healing.

contact Dan: danielrobinwilliamson@gmail.com



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 Michel Foucault, Gilles Deleuze and Jean-Paul Sartre!!
 
 A small gift to you
27 september 2019

Very rare encounter!

I found deep resonance friend. Because he uses my big two philosophy teachers as his facebook page cover! Michel Foucault and Gille Deleuze. Also, Jean-Paul Sartre!
I wrote some articles about them in my new book "Practice Guide for Butoh Revolution".

A small gift to you

Anybody who is interested in this book, please send me a mail. I will send the sample version as a small gift because the total book is around 500 pages.

subbody@gmail.com



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21 September 2019

Life Resonance beyond all borders

Gradually, we are finding the principle why we can resonate with other person's Qualia o easily. It is because each channel's Qualia are coming out from the Non-dual Qualia.
We share the same Non-dual Qualia beyond any border's because it is inner memories that reserved in each cell's Life.
I introduce the article from the new book "Practice Guide for Butoh Revolution" as the following;


Conditioning No. 8.

Non-dual and Eight channels


Listen to the Non-dual Qualia

 

When we calm down our daily mind and body by Medimotion and start to listen to the body, at first we feel something undefined which we can’t distinguish what it is; “Is this sensation? Imagination? Dream? Illusion? feeling?”. It seems something mixed all of them. We call it “Non-dual” Qualia.

 

 

Fig.2 Qualia are streaming among non-dual and eight channels

 

Dancing between Non-dual and dual Qualia

 

See fig.2. The most of Qualia, maybe over 99.9999% Qaulia are non-dual and Rhizome without any orders and hierarchy. They are hidden in our hundred trillion cell’s Life memories. Our consciousness can’t recognize it.

But through medimotion, our body’s cells become able to remind it, and appear at some channels Qaulia; sometimes bodily sensation, spontaneous movement, visual fantasy, audio body sound, emotion, human relationship, world-self-image, and Qualia thinking and so on.

Hunt the moment and follow it by your whole body=mind=brain, it becomes your subbody-cobody.

The video above is proof that we can resonate with any Qualia beyond any borders
self and others, among various channels.
We are waiting for people who want to develop this Life Resonance Art method into, Art therapy, dance therapy, Music therapy and so on.






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08 september 2019

Subbody Drawing to Life Resonance Art

After enough conditioning, when the Qualia begins to flow and transform through the body, watch the Qualia stream relate to the visual channel. Various colors and shapes should come to mind. Draw all of it on paper. Draw as many Qualia as possible on a piece of paper.
When everyone has finished drawing, sit down in a circle and place a picture in front of you. At first taste all of the drawings together.
And turn it to the right person.
From here, we start to resonate with the friend's drawing in front ofyou with opening each channel.
It is a body sensory channel, movement channel, voice sound channel, human relation channel, world = self channel, language channel, etc.
Every time we turn the picture to the person on right.
Even if it is not your own picture, you could be able to resonate surprisingly naturally.
This is because all Qualia are streaming between the Non-dual realm that all boundaries disappear and each eight-channel Qualia.
Subbody Resonance School has continued this subbody drawing for 20 years. This is the basic experience for the current Life Resonance Art. I hope some hearty person can develop painting and dance classes for children.



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 08/09/2019
Subbody Drawing to Life Resonance Art


After enough conditioning, when the Qualia begins to flow and transform through the body, watch the Qualia stream relate to the visual channel. Various colors and shapes should come to mind. Draw all of it on paper. Draw as many Qualia as possible on a piece of paper.
When everyone has finished drawing, sit down in a circle and place a picture in front of you. At first taste all of the drawings together.
And turn it to the right person.
From here, we start to resonate with the friend's drawing in front ofyou with opening each channel.
It is a body sensory channel, movement channel, voice sound channel, human relation channel, world = self channel, language channel, etc.
Every time we turn the picture to the person on right.
Even if it is not your own picture, you could be able to resonate surprisingly naturally.
This is because all Qualia are streaming between the Non-dual realm that all boundaries disappear and each eight-channel Qualia.
Subbody Resonance School has continued this subbody drawing for 20 years. This is the basic experience for the current Life Resonance Art. I hope some hearty person can develop painting and dance classes for children.
 
19 August 2019

Teacher of <Resonant Rhizome>!

I've been watching bird flocks for decades, but I've never seen Birds Ohm with such an amazing illusion. Here are all the elements of the “resonance rhythm” without our choreographer. Subbody=Cobody around the world! Please watch and learn from this. I hope you to grow up into a Rhizome that can take initiative and promote unexpected transformations in the best timing and spacing.

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6 July 2019

Sangeeta Forever!


Dearest Sangeeta,
Half a year after your death, I was finally able to dance you!
Until today, most of your memories, who spent the almost whole life in Subbody school, were stuck at each place in the school, and I was attacked by a sudden sadness, it was not able to dance at all. I have to wait for the time matured.
Your sister Shiv shot and edited this Butoh.
Thank you for enduring the deep pain.


What is to dance the dead

What does it mean to dance the dead?
In retrospect, I have been dancing the dead for the last 20 years.
In my first work, "Infectious Fever" (1998), my revolutionary friend, Hiroaki Yamazaki came out and dance it with using my body. In the second work "Dark Black Fever", Yamazaki and Kenji Hashimoto, and Toshiaki Tsuji in "The Nightmare Fever". They are all dead in the anti-war and anti-government struggles since 1967, they fought with me together and only them died, I couldn't die and have survived.
Twenty years ago, I continued to perform those Butoh dances around the world for three years.
Then, the deads and the survivors of each place resonated and gathered along with the Butoh performances. It was mysterious and lively days.
The deads of the Tibetan riots of 1959 in India 'Dharamsala and its surviving monks, the deads of the Hungarian Revolution in 1956 in Budapest, the deads of the Yugoslav war in Serbia, the deads of Auschwitz in Poland and Romania, the dead of 2nd World War at Strasbourg in France. Countless deads had come together and resonated with like as a dead's carnivals were happened around the Butoh dances. I transcended the boundaries of the dead and living and lived in resonance with their lives. Such things can only be experienced while dancing.
In recent years, I danced my friend Ramesh, who have supported me for 15 years and lost three years ago. And this year I finally danced his daughter Sangeeta who supported me as my assistant for these years and has passed away a half year ago by malaria.

What does it mean to dance the dead?

It is to become oneness.
The ambition impossible in the consensus reality of wanting to become oneness with the dead, it is only able to be realized in the Butoh of non-dual and multidimensional Life Resonance Qualia.
When dancing, not only the deaths but also countless deads appear due to the multi-layered resonance of qualia. The memories that I forgot have suddenly come back.
Oh, I notice an invisible resonance of how this was connected like that. I am amazed at the depth of the darkness of the body.
It is a dance to travel through a non-dual and multidimensional resonance world of Qualia that cannot be remembered as a rigid ego or self, closed daily human being.
It is able to understand only by real dancers. Because only the Butoh dancers exceed the limits of human consciousness divided into each channel, and can live with the non-dual and multidimensional resonance of the Life Resonance Qualia connected in the subconscious and collective unconsciousness.
To dance Butoh means to live in the non-dual and multi-dimensional and multi-layered Life Resonance Qualia realm. Butoh dancer has to become a specialist of Qualia as the Life Resonance. Because there are no other people who live in the non-dual Qualia world for 24-hours.

Stop daily thinking and daily talking at all.
Sway between Qualia dreaming and Qualia thinking for 24-hours.
Reach to the infinite silence in each moment, and we can listen to so subtle Qualia for 24-hour.
To become Butoh dancer means to build this inner maxim strictly and become Life itself.
Life is Rhizome which is able to connect freely and separate flexible.
Communicate in this resonance way of Life instead of talking with using daily human language.
To become Life and to become Rhizome is oneness.
Let's open a novel future which all Life is able to open infinite creativity.

Since I have been dancing the dead for 20 years, and I finally realized what is happening.
It is unexpected happiness to be able to share this awareness with you.




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6 July 2019

Sangeeta Forever!


Dearest Sangeeta,
Half a year after your death, I was finally able to dance you!
Until today, most of your memories, who spent the almost whole life in Subbody school, were stuck at each place in the school, and I was attacked by a sudden sadness, it was not able to dance at all. I have to wait for the time matured.
Your sister Shiv shot and edited this Butoh.
Thank you for enduring the deep pain.


What is to dance the dead

What does it mean to dance the dead?
In retrospect, I have been dancing the dead for the last 20 years.
In my first work, "Infectious Fever" (1998), my revolutionary friend, Hiroaki Yamazaki came out and dance it with using my body. In the second work "Dark Black Fever", Yamazaki and Kenji Hashimoto, and Toshiaki Tsuji in "The Nightmare Fever". They are all dead in the anti-war and anti-government struggles since 1967, they fought with me together and only them died, I couldn't die and have survived.
Twenty years ago, I continued to perform those Butoh dances around the world for three years.
Then, the deads and the survivors of each place resonated and gathered along with the Butoh performances. It was mysterious and lively days.
The deads of the Tibetan riots of 1959 in India 'Dharamsala and its surviving monks, the deads of the Hungarian Revolution in 1956 in Budapest, the deads of the Yugoslav war in Serbia, the deads of Auschwitz in Poland and Romania, the dead of 2nd World War at Strasbourg in France. Countless deads had come together and resonated with like as a dead's carnivals were happened around the Butoh dances. I transcended the boundaries of the dead and living and lived in resonance with their lives. Such things can only be experienced while dancing.
In recent years, I danced my friend Ramesh, who have supported me for 15 years and lost three years ago. And this year I finally danced his daughter Sangeeta who supported me as my assistant for these years and has passed away a half year ago by malaria.

What does it mean to dance the dead?

It is to become oneness.
The ambition impossible in the consensus reality of wanting to become oneness with the dead, it is only able to be realized in the Butoh of non-dual and multidimensional Life Resonance Qualia.
When dancing, not only the deaths but also countless deads appear due to the multi-layered resonance of qualia. The memories that I forgot have suddenly come back.
Oh, I notice an invisible resonance of how this was connected like that. I am amazed at the depth of the darkness of the body.
It is a dance to travel through a non-dual and multidimensional resonance world of Qualia that cannot be remembered as a rigid ego or self, closed daily human being.
It is able to understand only by real dancers. Because only the Butoh dancers exceed the limits of human consciousness divided into each channel, and can live with the non-dual and multidimensional resonance of the Life Resonance Qualia connected in the subconscious and collective unconsciousness.
To dance Butoh means to live in the non-dual and multi-dimensional and multi-layered Life Resonance Qualia realm. Butoh dancer has to become a specialist of Qualia as the Life Resonance. Because there are no other people who live in the non-dual Qualia world for 24-hours.

Stop daily thinking and daily talking at all.
Sway between Qualia dreaming and Qualia thinking for 24-hours.
Reach to the infinite silence in each moment, and we can listen to so subtle Qualia for 24-hour.
To become Butoh dancer means to build this inner maxim strictly and become Life itself.
Life is Rhizome which is able to connect freely and separate flexible.
Communicate in this resonance way of Life instead of talking with using daily human language.
To become Life and to become Rhizome is oneness.
Let's open a novel future which all Life is able to open infinite creativity.

Since I have been dancing the dead for 20 years, and I finally realized what is happening.
It is unexpected happiness to be able to share this awareness with you.




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30 June 2019

Mystery of Life, Qualia and Resonance


What is Life?

Why only Life is able to resonate with Subtle Qualia?
It’s mystery that nobody knows.
We can only suppose Life as what was born as such a special novel being 4 billion years ago in the Universe.



The String theory

According to the String theory, all matter and energy are made of the change of resonance pattern of the String which is resonating in the 11 dimension: 4 Expanding time and space dimensions and 7 tiny curled up dimensions (Calabi Yau space) in the Plank length which is the smallest scale in the Universe.

1m(-33)=0000000000000000000000000000000001m


Calabi-Yau Hidden space

All kinds of matters and energies (Gravity, Electro-magnetic power, Strong power, Weak power) are made of the change of resonance pattern of 11 dimensional resonance of the String, but after Big-Bang that was happened 15 billion years ago, only 1 time and 3 space dimensions are expanded. The other subtle 7 space dimensions are still cured in the Plank length.



Life was born as Resonance being of Qualia

Life was born on the planet 4 billion years ago as a special being which can catch the change of resonance pattern of the string including subtle the change in the tiny 7 dimensional.
Life can felt the change as the Qualia.

Double Resonance of Qualia

Life has two kinds of Qualia. The 1st one is
Outer Qualia that is present physical Resonance. The 2nd is the Inner Qualia that is memories of the outer Qualia which is reserved in the cell.
Outer and Inner Qualia are always resonating double, then Life can recognize the present condition comparing with the past.
Life was born as such a special being can resonance with subtle difference of the resonance pattern of the string as the first time in the Universe. (Or maybe not the first time, but nobody Knows).




Resonance pattern of the String is infinite

Listen to the Subtle Qualia

When we became the subconscious mode through the
Medimotion, We can catch Subtle Qualia stream in the darkness of the body.
Listen to them carefully for 24-hour, All of them are the source of creation.



Infinite Creativity of Life

When Qualia meet the other Qualia, a new Qualia is born by the resonance emergence.
For example, place imagine pink Qualia and elephant Qualia.
Even if I ask you not to mix the both, but it is impossible. The
Pink Elephant has already start moving in your mind.
The Resonant Emergences of Qualia are natural phenomena.
The Infinite creativity of Life is based on the natural phenomena.

Subbody=Cobody

When we become subconscious mode the boundary between mind and body disappears and we become subbody. And also the boundary between self and others, between individual and group disappears. We become
Subbody=Cobody.
The Subbody=Cobody is able to open the infinite creativity of Life each other.
And we become the
Co-midwife that supports each other.
Please enjoy the Subbody=Cobody and open the Infinite Creativity of Life.
Now Subbody=Cobody Butoh method is expanding to all genre of Art, as the
Life Resonance Art method.
Let’s expand it to all over the world beyond the borders!



 
13 June 2019

The Harvest of 18th Himalaya Butoh Festival


An amazing explosion of creativity of Life arose in the 18th Himalaya Butoh festival, so many novel cobodies came out and every dancer deepened on their own subbody solo. Surprisingly almost every day they joined in others’ cobody piece and co-created it like a kid who doesn't know fatigue.
It seemed a miracle for me. What happened in it on earth?
It was a tiny change but a huge jump in the 20 years history of Subbody and Cobody process.
It is the first time in the Subbody Butoh history to realize the <Subbody=Cobody> co-creation.
Until this year we are bounded by the dualistic illusion which individual and group are different. Before we divided the research to Subbody solo and Cobody group creation. But this year we found two new methods. One is <Medimotion> and another is <Qualia share>.

<Medimotion> = <24-hour listening>

<Medimotion> is moving meditation. For long years we did it. But this year, we named it as <Medimotion> and focused on <24-hour listening> which our body is moved by someone when we found the most comfortable size and the speed we can enter into subbody mode easily. We stop daily thinking and judgment, and our brain becomes infinite silence.
Only when reaching to this infinite silence we can listen to very subtle non-dual Qualia stream. We can continue this condition for 24 hours. Even when we sleep the subconscious is activated and keep listening.
We tried to share this infinite silence and 24 hours listening during the semester.
Based on this <Medimotion=24-hour listening>, we could invent new co-creation method <Qualia share>.
We experimented so many kinds of <Qualia share> during this semester; <Dreaming share>, <Behind world share>, <Rhizoming share>, <Kan Qualia share> and so on. Now we can integrate all of them as <Qualia share>.

What is the <Qualia share>?

Through the <Medimotion> all of us become Subbody=Cobody mode. In the subconscious mode, the border between mind and body disappears and we can be the Subbody mode. At the same time, the border between self and others or individual and group disappears. We call it <Subbody=Cobody> mode. In this <Subbody=Cobody> mode we can share other’s Qualia as our own Qualia.
When one person initiates a Qualia with the body movement and simple word, the others can follow it by body movement easily, sometimes copy or follow with the same resonance pattern or different resonance patterns. We can co-create one person’s dreaming world together.
This is the very final method which we can leave from the existing Tree ( Hierarchical) system which a director or choreographer create and direct everything, the dancers just follow it. We researched how we can overcome it by new Rhizoming way for long years.
Finally, we can find the way by this <Qualia share> with <Subbody=Cobody> mode. In <Subbody=Cobody> mode the border between self and others disappears when we co-create a piece we can be transparent which is bounded by neither self nor others. A half we can co-create the cobody piece together and at the same time, another half we can research each own secret and mystery. Throughout the whole time, we can be a creative mode, not following the choreography which the choreographer directs you.


 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Harvest of Subbody=Cobody Co-creation
A Half of 12 Days Himalaya Butoh Festival has finished.
Every day, I was surprised at the unexpected explosion of creativity of all dancers.
Each dancer invented a unique stage and all dancers co-created the diverse world changes infinitely. Especially, so many novel cobody resonance patterns came out almost every day. I am a special researcher of cobody resonance patterns for over 20 years, but they surprised at me by so many unseen cobody resonance patterns and world changes scenes.
It was the biggest surprise.
What is happening on earth?
Why the sudden explosion of creativity occurred?
Two revolutions of subbody method
I realized that two revolutions of subbody method occurred in this year.
One is <24-hour Medimotion and Listening>
Another is <Dreaming share> or <Qualia share>.
I guess that these revolutions grew up during the festival and brought the amazing Harvest of creativity.
<24-hour Medimotion and Listening>
We stop language thinking and judgment by 24-hour Medimotion. Medimotion is a moving meditation.
We let our body as being moved by someone and become most comfortable subconscious body mode. We continue to listen to the very subtle Qualia of the darkness of the body.
Especially, forgotten memories, forbidden illusions or dreams and very short term memories reserved in cells.
They didn’t focus on only each own creation, but they joined in other cobody pieces almost every day and co-created them together.
It was amazing energy as if an infinite fountain or volcano of creativity of Life was born.
<Qualia Share among subbody=cobody>
In the subbody mode, when we catch some tendencies of movement of a part of the body, we follow it, and it becomes our subbody movement.
When we become subbody mode, the boundaries between self and others disappear, and we transform into subbody=cobody.
In this condition, when one person initiates one’s own Qualia by movement or and simple words, others are able to share it easily with the same resonance pattern or different patterns.
This semester, we practice a lot of this <Qualia share>.
There are so many variations;
<Dreaming share>,
<Behind world share>,
<Nightmare share>,
<Rhizoming share>,
<Deterritorializing share>,
<World change share>,
<Kan Qualia share> (Sharing the Qualia which each Life could not resonate well) and so on.
It seems that all of those experiences beyond self and others bloomed at once, and brought these energetic co-creations every day as the novel flowers.
The Festival continues half more duration.
It’s big fun, what will happen in the latter half.



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 Subbody Resonance Butoh Trailer ver.2
 
18 May, 2019

Take off the Self and Dance the Behind World

 

Alex was exploring how to dance the <Behind World>.

This week, she created a new <Behind World Share> or <Kugutsu(傀儡) Share>.

We were divided into groups of several, one by one (from A1), asked the other members to dance the own <Behind world Qualia> of each.

This day I first danced as A1. I asked to be <a fake womb>,  <a seducing witch>, <a didconnected childhood girl friend>, and  <a red god>  to be behind world of me.

A2's Navila shared her behind-world where <various objects are transformed into creatures>

A3 Sonia shared <bugs, abyss, laughing mother>,

A4 Raul shared <storms, black holes, sweets, memories of sad wars>,

A5 Ripley shared the world behind <influences from mother, dust ball, all living things die>.

 

When I actually danced this, I was surprised to encounter so rich unexpected experiences.

First, when I was dancing with my Behind world's Qualia that I had asked for others, I was reminded of how I was being bound by myself and I felt that I had to fight against these behind worlds until death.

However, when I danced another person's behind world Qualia, I felt a sense of liberation that I could not say by word.

Every day Co-researchers have danced countless world Qualia in order to co-create each other's world, but I have never done till this day.

And I noticed. (Oh, dancing the behind world Qualia that do not connect to self is necessary training to take off self.)

It is definitely not enough to dance yourself.

We need to keep dancing what we are not ourselves.

 To dance every Qualia of an infinite diverse world is necessary.

This is the unavoidable way to take off the self binds that are deeply trapped and to become Life.

This <dancing the world>, <dancing the Behind world> lessons will eventually be incorporated into the root of the De-self method. 

Opening Hidden Muscles

To dance the behind world 

When we dance the behind world, we inhibit the surface muscle that we use in the daily life, instead of them we open hidden (deep layered) muscles. Because Life Resonance with the Behind world is not daily body’s resonance but Life Resonance. Normally the Deep layered muscles are controlled by subconscious. When we use them, we can open forgotten (=marginalized) Qualia, it connects to the Proto Life response.

This method which we use both of present physical movement and inner memory Qualia at the same time is depend on the Qualia method which we found the double resonance of outer Qualia and inner Qualia. This is a practical development from the Qualia theory.

(cf. “Qualia as the Life Resonance” by Rhizome Lee, Amazon publishing click here)   

This kind of thing that happens is the biggest joy of co-research and co-midwife of the subbody=cobody community. We are growing to the unknown future.

 




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