What
kind of qualia should we listen to in the journey of the darkness of the body?
This chapter will guide you through three particularly important three points.
All of these are almost inaudible under normal language consciousness, so
listen carefully while continuing the medimotion enough.
Very Subtle Qualia
Listening to subtle
Qualia of the darkness of the body
I often use the word
“Listening”.
What is Listening?
What do we listen to?
When we listen to the body, at
first we can sense only ambiguous something that is not able to recognize
clearly Is this sensation? Or the imagination? Or a dream? Illusion? memory?
We cannot distinguish at all.
It is Non-dual Qualia.
Qualia is everything that
cell’s Life resonates with. Life resonates with Qualia of Gravity, Sunshine,
Air, temperature, moisture, sound, smell…
Life is always resonating with
these physical Qualia of environment. And not only those present physical
Qualia but also inner memory Qualia of those that are reserved as the Life
memory during the four billion years Life history.
Both are always resonating
double. We call the former “Outer Qualia” the latter
“Inner Qualia”.
We listen to the double resonance of both though we cannot distinguish
as well.
But, during the listening, the non-dual Qualia shift to a certain
channel Qualia; bodily sensation, movement, visual, audio, emotion, human
relationship, world=self-image, and thinking channels so that we can catch it
clearly. We follow it by the whole body-mind until it becomes a certain subbody
movement.
When we co-research it with some friends, sometimes a friend’s
movement affects you, or your movement becomes other’s movement.
Listen to the process, taste the resonance deeply. It is proof that
the border between self and others disappears.
Listen to your own Qualia and other’s Qualia as well.
Listen to inside 50% and outside 50%. This is Transparent listening.
You will meet not only your friends but also meet the world Qualia.
In the world Qualia, it
includes not only the physical world but also the invisible world Qualia that
Hijikata called it “Behind world”.
Those are the Qualia that we
listen to.
24-hour Listening
When we are entering into the real creation process, if you want
to be a real Butoh creator, we need to stop thinking and talking completely.
Keep infinite silence 24-hour.
Only in the infinite silence, you can listen to very subtle Qualia stream.
Qualia are always changing and streaming in your Life, but it is extremely
subtle. If you activate the language thinking and talking, immediately you lose
the subtle Listening.
Keep listening to what you cannot remember in the darkness of the body. And at
the same time keep subtle medimotion that your body is moved by someone with
very subtle Qualia from all directions.
Keep the body to follow the unusual forms always.
If you continue these two, there will always be some form and movement of the
body, there is a moment when A specific Qualia and body movement connected and
suddenly crystallized as one. Hunt it, it is your subbody!It is important to continue this work always.
As long as you continue it, it will be possible to complete solo or cobody
piece for an hour in a year.
The movement consists of mostly strange movements and shapes. The memories that
were forgotten to connect with are also full of strange, dusky, hardly o be
explained.
By linking them together without any meaning or context, it becomes an unknown
thing that you do not understand well. That is the characteristic of
subbody=cobody.
When the movement led by one Qualia is over, it is the timing to accept the
next subbody. In this process, strange developments are born one after another.
When you dance with others, the border between subbody and cobody disappear,
your subbody become cobody, other's cobody becomes your subbody through Life
Resonance.
We become unknown Rhizome that connect freely and separate flexible at any part
of the body at any moment.
Become swarm, and become an alone wolf!
Transform individual to group instantly and reverse!
Sometimes it jumps to an unexpected place. Do not mind at all.
If you add a story that you can explain with your consciousness, the tree of
meaning will immediately rise and it becomes boring. The chaos that nobody
understands is OK. Life is moved only to something that has never been seen
before. It will be over if the audience is convinced with the head. Constantly
betray their expectations and keep even yourself amazed.
This is the essence of Life-Resonance Butoh that has become lucid recently and
I can tell now it transparently.
Even
sleeping time, we can continue Listening
We sink down to
deeper research of the darkness of the body. We expand the Qualia listening
from only school hours to 24-hour. Continue Medimotion that is moved by someone
for 24-hour.
During sleep time,
also we are moved by unknown Qualia which sometimes it becomes a dream.
Sometimes our mind
state shifts from medimotion mode to meditation mode that we continue Qualia
thinking with subtle Qualia without opening the movement channel. Taste the
swaying among both processes.
We integrate the Subbody method, Hijikata Butoh
method and Deleuze philosophy with researching "Quiet House"
Butoh-fu.
Quiet House: The building of Subbody school transforms into the Quiet House that nobody
talks anymore. We keep complete silence and listen to the darkness of the
body.
The Red God: Life
is moved by unknown Qualia always. The medimotion is what we moved by someone. This
"someone" is "The Red God". The 24-hour medimotion means
that we feel the invisible Red God for 24-hour.
Hijikata isolated himself for some years and meditate about his dead sister to
invent his necessary last Butoh.
A girl who plans an evil deed in the rain: This
is Hijikata's main motif of The Quiet House. We start researching each one's
motivation for creation. Until we find own necessity of Butoh creation, we
continue to seek it in the darkness of the body.
A fine
spider's thread that runs on the forehead:
Beggar:
Cat Waist:
Behind World:
To control these four elements indigently is Hijikata's secret technique of
the weakened body. He segmented his body into thousands of details and
transformed various things.
Deleuze said <Differentiation and Differenciation> as same as Hijikata, to segment into
different parts and each part transforms differently.
Garbage
disposal place:
When I rubbed a mirror, there was a swaying shadow of flower:
A fragile sound collapsed in a shed:
Can Factory:
The inner Qualia of cell's Life memories are resonating with multiple Behind
World.
It is the Rhizome which is able to connect freely and separate flexibly.
Now finally we can integrate Hijikata method, Subbody method, and Deleuze philosophy.
A strange
condition continues in my body and mind after leaving from Himalaya. I was so
tired during the two weeks Himalaya Butoh Festival. I could not sleep during
the term. I am carried by unknown space quietly as dead during the travel.
Exactly saying, it seems a condition of so-called "Bardo" in Tibetan
Buddhism. It is another time-space between Life and death. In Buddhism, it is
believed that the dead floats in the Bardo during 49 days after the death.
Also, I felt as if I am floating in the Bardo during the two months travel from
Himalaya, via Switzerland, and Greece. I met various foreign scenery and things
during the travel; I resonated with them as only one resonance until dying. I
cannot bring them into the dead world. I felt every Qualia as only one chance
in Life. Even subtle Qualia of swaying leaf, bird song, floating cloud, I could
feel so brilliant and each of them is so rich and unique. I could feel all of
the Qualia as the very precious resonance of Life. After death, I cannot feel
any Qualia through Life resonance. I cannot carry them into the dead world. Now
an important awareness came out. This must be the first essence of "the Technique
of Shisha”.
The entrance of
the " Technique of Shisha" is to stop the daily mind and body.
Because they are so gross and rough comparing the subtle Qualia of Life. They
are a trillion times stronger than Life Qualia.
As a daily body,
we cannot be aware of the subtle sway of Qualia in the darkness of the body by
the masking of strong language thinking.
We can try to stop
thinking through various conditionings; the breath of Life, swaying meditation,
shivering conditioning, and so on. Through these conditionings, we can calm
down conscious thinking, and language brain. But it takes a long time to get
it. In the intensive summer workshop in Greece, though the term is four weeks,
in the third week half of participants have exchanged. Then we had to start
again from the beginning of conditioning to become subbody mode.
Almost all
participants still could not respect only one principle no talking during the
class. They start talking often unconsciously. It means they are not in subbody
mode. It means also that it is not possible for them to stop inner talking and
thinking. Even one word coming out, it destroys the subbody mode of other
people including me.
To take off all
condition of human and to become Shisha is the essence of Butoh. Then in the
third week, I decide to guide people into the dead world which I am
experiencing now as "Bardo". Through normal conditioning of swaying
or vibrating, when we enter the subbody mode, slowly all of Life swaying’s stop
and become a Quiet body as a dead.
Watch this living
world from the dead world.
You are already
not here; nobody can see your shape.
What will be seen
in your dead eyes?
What is happening
in the living world?
What is Life?
What is death?
Continue this
condition during your whole life.
You can get such
precious awareness about Life and death.
You will be able
to become a Butoh dancer someday.
During searching
for old photos of swaying conditioning, I met nostalgic pictures in the School
photo folder of 2006.
At that time, the
school term is one month to three months, then we could enjoy the beginning
stage of the subbody process.
There were three
processes in the slideshow above.
1. Swaying
meditation to free resonance
2. Rolling
conditioning to free resonance
3. Reso-touch to
free resonance.
Still, now, we
follow the same process in the beginning. And proceed to various self or group
research processes. This variation became so developed in the past decade,
students are able to explore the darkness of the body deeper.
Edge---Biggest
difference between ten years ago and now
One of the biggest
differences is 'Edge'.
In the short term,
students may not encounter hard strange edge Qualia. Or in case of meeting
something hard, they finished school and left.
But now school
term extended to a minimum one year to three years. All students must face each
own edge and have to solve it and overcome it because the edge Qualia is one of
the richest sources of originality, creativity, and resonativity (resonance
ability) of Life.
Edge is unknown
hard Qualia which happen through the resonance of one's first process and the second
process. The first process is one's daily body/mind. There are strong Ego and
Self, and ego or self is bound by an illusion which "I" can decide
everything freely, 'I" can think everything freely. This "I" as
the subject is the strongest illusion of the modern human. We can say it is the
strongest Archetype that remains in the contemporary world.
It connects to
individualism and capitalism strongly and Ego and Self-support the Nation-State
which is also the strongest common illusion of this world.
The so-cold
'success stories' bind people tightly.
This first process
is bound by dualistic logic; good/bad, input/output, right/wrong and so on. All
words and language thinking are bound by dualism.
Then, students who
entered the Subbody school, their first process meets unknown second process in
the darkness of the body.
It has completely
another logic which is non-dual and multi-dimensional resonance.
Students have to
encounter strange Qualia which are streaming in the subconscious realm. It is
an extremely strange world which they had not to notice until now. All people
feel fear and unsafe, their Life shrinks for self-protection against the
unknown something. It is a natural process of Life.
During the three
months, all students meet it and have to struggle with it. In these ten years,
we could develop the method for how to resonate with the edge Qualia.
1. Acceptance
All Ego and Self
don't know the importance of acceptance. Because they are bound by the illusion
of the freedom which "I" can choose everything. "I" will
follow to a good thing which "I" recognize so if "I" don't
agree, I will not follow.
How foolish an
illusion it is! All illusion of "I" are supported by the intentional
ignorance to the fact which we cannot choose parents, nation, sex, body,
time/space of the birth, and the kind of creature.
So, the first
thing to do is accept everything including hardship, emotion, body condition,
and so on.
2. Optimum distance
Find the optimum
distance with the edge Qualia.
This is the basic
attitude of Life. Until we will find the best resonance pattern, Life just
waits with finding the safe distance.
3. Original conditioning
Invent a proper
'conditioning method' with its own edge.
With trying every
method which you learn in the school, apply it to your own condition which is
bound by the edge.
4. Change it to your own creation
Shift the edge
Qualia to own creation of Butoh of Life. Though it would take time.
De-self-conditioning
These decades are
the challenge for me as a midwife for meeting the hard edge of the birth of
fetus subbody=cobody.
The edge is
completely different among students.
How to support
each student who is attacked by diverse edges, I could hardly find diverse
methods of edge work.
Resonance touch
Resonance Shiatsu
Edgework of
Mindell
Mixing method of
hundreds of eyes-faces-breaths-voices-movements
When your Ego and
Self are activated helplessly by a storm of emotions and feelings and cannot
get out of it, please try this de-self-conditioning in such a case.
Leave from the
place where you are excited. Find a quiet place, in the standing position or
sitting position.
Feel the breath of
Life.
Your hundred
trillion of cells in your body is activated to get oxygen and feel that the
body is going swell just a little while relaxing very slowly.
And after a while,
some part of the body starts fading also.
Let your body relax
in the comfortable Life sway.
Swayback just one
millimeter, from your present position to another dimension of the dead.
Stretch your back
a little bit and move toward the behind world.
Become a
transparent body, feel that you are missing from this living world.
Watch this living
world from the dead world.
Enjoy this
de-self-condition, until your mind and body become silence.
We dance the
universe. What is seen and what is unseen, we dance all. Archetypes are the
oldest resident in the darkness of the body. The time when we must dance a
variety of archetypes will come often. Archetypes are a matrix of our
imagination that humanity has genetically inherited from ancient times, and it
has a very strong binding force. When we are caught once, then it is difficult
to get out.
If we are
possessed by it, we would fall into a miserable existence without flexibility,
creativity, and originality.
Shadow, Anima,
Animus, old sage, Trickster, Girl, Boy, King, Queen, God, Demon, Devil, and Ego
are the archetypes of self-image. Few people know that the Ego is also an
archetype. But, it's the strongest archetype of modern society. Most people
have got caught too, then it is misunderstood that it is the inevitable nature
of the human. But it is just an illusion imprinted by the capitalistic
education and information system.
Though it must
become lifetime work to be separated from the Ego bind. It is the biggest
challenge for modern people.
Otherwise, we
cannot recover the Resonativity (resonance ability) (=Resonance ability) which
are the most important qualities of Life.
We need to dance
all the archetypes, to be released from the unconscious restraint of them. It
is only possible to escape from the restraint by dancing them thoroughly. We
need careful attention to dance it. We must keep a safe distance where we do
not get eaten by it. There is no choice but to dance on the edge of the fine
line between success or failure. Otherwise, we would be eaten by archetype and
become the prisoner easily.
It took for decades
to be able to catch the moment when the ego comes out for me.
Now I control myself to be subbody mode in a whole day, otherwise, I cannot
enter into student's subbodies and resonate with it from inside.
But sometimes when the morning conditioning is not enough, my ego comes up and
possess me, I noticed twice times in this week.
Maybe I felt that my work for this year has finished, then conditioning becomes
loose.
It is one of the proofs of loose that my old poet character came out this week.
I have lost concentration for keeping midwife mode.
Then many small fragmental egos come out and possessed me.
When ego comes out, it has a particular signal. Ego is bound by dissonance
mode.
Because ego was born when the complete resonance with the womb world was
broken, and ego had to make oneself as if it were a war orphan. The ego feels
always conflict, fear, anger, and complaint to the others.
It is the first characteristic of an ego that ego forgets one's own problem and
ego puts the blame on the other person. The ego feels always angry and
dissatisfied with others.
When we get angry with the others, we project all bad Qualia to the others and
bound by blaming always. It is not ninety percent, but exactly a hundred
percent.
Because this ego process is completely unconscious, the ego doesn't know that
the real problem is on its own side, then it projects all the blame of bad
thing on the others.
Ego pictures the best planning in its own imaginary world, and if the world did
not follow the planning, the ego becomes dissatisfied and gets angry, this is
the characteristic process of small ego.
Even me, when I am not enough conditioning, immediately small ego comes up and
possess me, and I was fallen in anger mode
The morning enough conditioning is everything.
I realized the importance of conditioning deeply again.
When the conditioning is not enough, always small ego comes out and binds us.
We need to continue it every morning until enough.
I hope all students to continue it every morning, even after they have finished
subbody school.
The biggest point
what I learned in Himalaya is that we don't need to pretend to be strong.
It's not necessary to show that we are strong.
We are so deeply bound by the strength which our society and education continue
to force us to be strong. It becomes unconscious pressure in the darkness of the
body.
We need to release ourselves from the pressure to pretend to be strong.
Our ego is bound by this pressure. But not only ego but also subbody is bound
by this pressure.
When I created "Infectious Fever" ten years ago, twenty years old
subbody possessed my body and created the piece.
Then it was full of strength, pretending to be brave, I was bound by the
tendency which tries to show stronger movement.
After the performance, I found that my body was full of adrenaline mode.
It was so bad for Life because the immune system was shut down in adrenaline
mode at all,
then my body had stopped to perform it eight years before.
But this month, when I tried to create a Butoh piece after eight years rest, I
had to face the tendency to be strong is still alive.
My subbodies were born in the early age of my life, and they were folded in the
darkness of the body with keeping small ego as the same as they were born.
I have to face the big struggle between the weakened body which I had trained
myself for these ten years, and the young subbodies with full of the tendency
for strength and a small ego.
I have to recognize that not only the
daily
body is bound by ego, but also hidden subbodies are bound by each own small
ego.
To be released from ego is not easy to process, it is the deep labyrinth in
multi-dimensions.
We don't need to deny ego and any subbodies.
Ego and small egos have the tendency to deny each other, but we need to accept
everything for finding the best resonance in the whole self, in the whole
world.
The most important thing for life is to accept all elements in our life without
any denial.
And how can we find the optimum resonance among everything in the darkness of
body?
This is the final problem for me in the face of sixty years old birthday.
Life is non-dual and
multi-dimensional resonance itself. Qualia are Life Resonance.
It has no dualistic boundary. All Qualia are resonating beyond any
boundaries.
It is Rhizome that has no center, no top, no hierarchy at all.
The Rhizome is able to connect freely and separate flexibly at any moment at
any place.
On the contrary,
ego, superego, and consciousness live in the dualistic world. It is Tree system
that has hierarchic order.
There is a huge gap between Tree and Rhizome.
We need to
cultivate a novel type of intelligence that is able to go and come between both
realms of Tree and Rhizome.
This issue will be described later. (See chapter 8. “Rhizome⇔Tree sway”)
In a quiet state
where you can notice the appearance of ego and superego, it is important to
spend every day at that condition, because the appearance of it is so
subtle.
As long as you talk with people using words, self and superego are activated
unconsciously. And in the conscious mode, we cannot listen to it.
It is important to stop talking with words externally and internally. Maintain
a transparent state of mind and body that you can notice the subtle Qualia
constantly.
Then you can notice at the moment when ego or superego comes up.
At that moment, you can give a greeting to ego and superego.
“Hello! My ego, and superego.
How are you?
I know you well,
you are necessary to survive in this capitalist society. But, not now. Now I am
in the creation mode. See you later!"
Never deny the ego
or superego directly, because it activates them as counterproductively.
Ego and superego
want to receive optimum respect. We need sensitive attention to it.
Nobody can live in
today's daily world without ego and superego.
And as long as
humans are captured by ego and superego, the man keeps supporting the common
illusion of Nation-state and power.
And the creativity
of Life continues to be alienated from people.
For the real
liberation of human beings, the disappearance of Ego, Superego, Archetypes and
the Nation-state are necessary at the same time. The liberation from the common
illusion of the Nation-state and politics are connected. I was working on
those issues over many decades.
In order to fully
demonstrate the creativity of life, it is necessary to get out of the ego,
superego, and Archetype.
The fact that
modern people cannot exercise the creativity of life is,
It is because he/she is forced to have an ego and he does not know how to stop
his ego.
Nothing becomes
obstacles to create as much as ego and superego. Because they are captured in
dualistic judgment.
In order to quench
ego and superego, first of all, we have to know exactly what they will show up.
People are
unconsciously captured by ego and superego in daily life, it is because we cannot
control it without knowing the other party.
Let 's describe
the outline of how the ego and superego emerge.
The ego's appearance
The ego generally
appears in the following form. If you notice it, immediately say hello and
break apart.
1. Private Territory Owner
Ego is always
territorializing like "This is my area". It is driven by the urge to
secure his own safety zone. The ego is captured by anxiety. Found a quiet
environment that you can become alone.
"You do not have to worry. Because no one here will try to infringe you,
here."First of all, you can find an environment that makes your ego
relieved and calm. It is important first.
The ego is stuck
with the urge of private ownership "This is mine". These
tendencies that we were born and raised in a capitalistic society of private
property system. However, that is not the only way human beings are. I
leave the attachment of my ego and descend to the land of Life.
There is no
boundary between self and others, and every life is just resonating in the
world. I will let the ego know that there is such a different world.
2. Self-justificatory
The ego always
keeps on justifying himself. I cannot live with confidence without
awareness that "I am not wrong".
There is nobody in
the world of Life, such as making a dualistic judgment of right and wrong, such
as right and wrong. I do not have to keep busy, self-justification,
etc. Because I am convinced that it is a human being, I am driven to such
work.
3. Story maker
For that reason,
the ego always keeps making his own story. As long as you believe in your own
story, you can always be in your own right. Even if that is just my own excuse,
the ego does not notice such a thing. Because I cannot support myself as soon
as I noticed it. You never do such a stupid thing.
4. Pretender to be a good person
I am dressing my
ego all the time. I am busy showing myself well. For that, we must first
believe in stories we make up first. The ego knows somewhere a lie always cold
wind is blowing. Just do not desperately look for it. I am convinced that I am
as being a "nice person."
5. Ironic critique
When the ego sees a person, he always looks down. I am watching whether the
fantasy of the ego stories that others believe has not come off. Only a careful
look that does not overlook the collapse of others' story. It will save my own
story of the story from collapse.
6. Emotional
Ego is always
regulated unconsciously by the condition of the body and emotions rising from
it. However, I do not notice it on my own. Ego's actions are all inspired by
this unconscious emotion. Since that urge brings only a faint signal. It is
hard to notice with everyday consciousness. It is not until you stop your ego
consciousness.
The unconscious connection between the ego and the body and emotion appears
transparent.
How the super-ego appears
Ego is still cute.
Compared to the unrelenting denial of the superego.
Superego is a type
of <Archetype> living in the collective unconscious of deep
layers. Its power to control is powerful, and it cannot be ruled out if it
is captured.
7. Public prosecutor
A judge like a
prosecutor or a judge is the biggest feature of the superego. Wielding around
the dualistic judgment of a narrow "good/bad" I try to decide my own
black and white. Then deny and truncate without mercy. There is no bad
existence of prosecutors who believe that they always belong to justice.
However, prosecutors and judges are alive among anyone. Every time it comes
out, keep on quitting. Perhaps super-ego is a type of former type to be
described later, I am trapped by it before I notice it.
In learning how to
go out with <Archetype> living in the deepest layer of unconsciousness. I
gradually calm down the captivity by the superego.
8. Self-critic
There is superego
which only ironic and cynical criticism is done. Always stick to new attempts
at negative criticism. I try to ruin everything. It is a timid, most
conservative denier to the new transformation.
9. Justice guy
The end of the
prosecutor and judge is righteous Han. Believe that I am right and swing. There
used to be many men in the old days, but now it got less. On the contrary, I
often came across the case that I possessed in women's animus. This righteous
man is alive in everyone. I have also fought with a guy who faces Justice in my
life for life, but I cannot stop my breath. Especially I am not aware that I am
infiltrated by Animus. Feminism women are eaten by eating this super-ego called
Justice Han. It is pleasant to sexuality to associate with Animus of justice.
Once you get killed you will not be able to escape, it is the same as when men
are captured by the Anima.
But because it is
unconscious, every feminist woman, Anima's captive man cannot notice it. It is
still the biggest obstacle for me.
Other Archetypes
Many Archetypes
live in the darkness of the body besides ego and superego.
10. Shadow, Not me, Dissociated personality
All Hidden bodies
are the archetypes, too. As same as the surface identity or character of Ego is
Archetype.
Freud called it
“Inferior personality”, Jung called it “shadow”, Sullivan named it
“not-me”, and so on.
All of those are
also Archetypes, many shadows are hidden in our darkness of body. We need to
dance it to release them.
11. Anima, Animus
Probably one of
the most powerful Archetype. Anima is a secret feminine aspect of men. Animus
is the opposite, it is a secret male side in women. However, since they lurk
unconsciously, we usually do not notice them. And the man projects the feminine
Qualia inside himself to a certain external woman or feminine image. It is
love. Love is unconsciously invaded by the Anima, Animus inevitably. If I tell
it in more detail, In a love affair, so multiple Qualia are entangled around
the sexuality; biological sexual hormone states, emotional influence
of the Archetype of Anima, Animus, Girl, Boy, Queen, King, Princess, Prince,
Great Mother, forgotten memories of relationship with Mother, Father,
Grandparents, infantile girl or boyfriend, momentum flashback Qualia of them,
social moral of sexuality, and so on.
It cannot be said
easily. However, if you always look at the fact that you always fall in love
with a particular biased woman or man, you can see the fact that Anima, Animus
is involved in it.
Liberation from
captivity to Anima is an unknown task in the middle of the quest. Since working
on decades, just a little bit has become transparent, though it is still on the
middle way. My final creation will be about Anima. Prisoners for women of
Animus are also deep misery.
I can only say so
now, to be honest. We may need a partner to liberate from them together.
Unless we solve
this problem, it is clear that only the fact that friendship between men and
women cannot be realized.
12.
Great Mother
The Great Mother
is the oldest Archetype and is also involved in Anima. Sometimes it appears
like a superego. Great mother loves everything and eats everything. There is no
distinction between love and desire to own possession.
Non-dual Resonance
Archetypes are all
in the Qualia cloud that is not able to distinguish clearly. There is no clear
distinction between them. Those Qualia are resonating in non-dual and
multi-dimensional with changing shapes infinitely. Sometimes other
Archetypes resonate with those and become so complicated entanglement. Old
wise men, heavenly woman, boy, animal, trickster, mad, guru, god, devil, etc.
There is the millions number of Archetypes that are unlimited. Every day it's
going to come up with them and we are in the middle of exploring how to handle
it, I still have no power to tell them all. Here I focused only on Ego,
Superego and Anima, Animus.
Denial tendency of Ego and Superego
This super complex
group of problems only has to deal with deepening multidimensional resonance
theory.
Features of ego and superego are in denial. It is bound by the tendency to deny
others.
The superego
denies yourself from above with overtaken power.
The ego denies in a horizontal confrontation with others.
There is only a difference in position and case.
The superego
always appears together with the common illusion such as justice, morality,
ethics, true and good.
The whole image of
the identity is in a deeper mystery than the Archetype because it is mixed with
multiple elements of the sexuality, nationality, moral, education, religion,
law, thoughts, and so on.
Superego is the
biggest enemy of creation more than ego.
To calm down and
stop superego and ego is necessary inner work for everybody in order to realize
the better future that is able to open the infinite creativity of Life.
I continued to try to calm down my ego
process for decades years, now slowly it is able to catch the subtle signal
when my ego comes up transparently.
Until now I could
not notice the timing because my ego did not calm down enough.
Maybe, the ego is
the biggest Archetype that is imprinted
in the collective unconsciousness for us. Now everybody has it, and
nobody noticed that ego is the Archetype as the same as other Archetype, Anima,
Animus, Great mother, Trickster, Superego, God, Devil, Spirit, Ghost, Monster,
and so on.
It is the most
familiar tendency for the daily body and mind. In this capitalist economy, without it we can’t survive.
But, in the creative realm, it is the biggest disturbance.
When ego comes out
I noticed that
there are two typical tendencies which the ego comes up. One is the moment when
the ego receives uncomfortable pressure from outside. This is easy to
understand when we feel pressure which we are pressed, ego takes the role to
guard ourselves.
Another one is the
moment when ego inflates by self-conceit,
proud, praise, and
so on. This case becomes a blind spot for us often.
Especially when we
feel, "I got big discovery!", it is the crisis which ego comes up and
possesses us.
In eight channels,
I describe the typical moment when the ego comes up and binds us.
1. Body channel
When we receive
unpleasant pressure from outside, ego comes up as a guard immediately.
Also when we are
possessed by habit, like addiction, daily routine work and so on, ego controls
us. The ego feels that I am the owner of this body with satisfaction.
This kind of ego
is so strong like an instinct. It is so hard to control it. We just need to
become aware of them. It's enough for the first stage.
2. Movement channel
When we move
according to a plan, like a strict choreography, ego has to wake up and control
us. Ego controls ourselves by dualistic judgment--right/wrong, good/bad,
beautiful/ugly, and so on.
When we are
released from ego, we can improvise flexibly between us choreograph and
accidental events. I call this method: "Real-time resonance".
It is not so easy.
When we are released from ego enough, we can do it.
3. Visual channel
When we are bound
by an archetype of sense of beauty which is considered as normal in a society,
our egos are bound also by them and guide us to be in a beautiful way. Ego
inhibits us to go out of the border unconsciously.
Almost all persons
feel resistance to warp one's intelligent face because ego inhibits us
strongly. It is the edge of the visual channel. Ego considers that the ugly
face does not belong to me, it belongs to "not-me".
"Not-me"
is a dissociated self like a sub-character, shadow, inferior character.
Subbodies include them.
4. Audio channel
Our audio channel
is bound by the archetypes like as human language, twelve scales of normal
music.
Our daily bodies
are trained by them for a long time, we believe that they belong to a human.
The ego receives
unpleasant feelings from the sounds, voices out of the "human".
But when we are
released from these archetypes, we can create the novel beauty world where the
daily body does not feel beautiful.
5. Emotion channel
When we enter the
subbody world, we often meet unknown uncomfortable emotion, because the basic
composition between consciousness and subconsciousness is changed from daily
conditions.
Our daily bodies
are bound by very few kinds of feeling: glad, sad, angry, easy, and so on.
These are archetypes in emotion channel.
But so many
variations and gradations of emotions and feelings are streaming in our subbody
world. It is impossible to name them.
When we meet an
unknown emotion, it is felt strange strongly, and we feel resistance. We don't
want to receive them and try to escape from them.
This is the edge
in emotion channel.
At the first
stage, we can just recognize them. After then, slowly, slowly we can become
friend with them.
6. Human relationship channels
Our daily bodies
are bound by archetypes: human role, family role, and gender. Ego has only a
gender. But subbody have multi-gender. Sometimes subbodies are a fetus, baby,
boy, girl, mother, father, old man, old woman, and genderless being.
Subbodies have
"nth sex". When we open our “nth sex”, we can transform the female
body, male body and so many genders bodies.
But it is pretty
difficult, because one of the strongest archetypes: Anima, Animus disturbs the
process. We are so strongly bound by them. This is the hardest edge work. We
need to wait for the timing when we are ready to face it for a long time.
Also, I continued
to try to be released from my Anima for a long time, but still I cannot succeed
it. 7. World image= self-image
channel
When we meet a subtle uncomfortable feeling: "I don't know what is
happening, but something is wrong.”, we encounter an edge in world image-
self-image channel.
When our world image and self-image are fitting, we feel ease and
self-confidence. We can keep proper will. But when there is a subtle gap
between them, we cannot keep will properly. We are disturbed by this unpleasant
feeling. This is the edge in world=self-channel.
It is happening always, but our daily bodies ignore them normally until this
gap grows up to a body-mind syndrome or sickness.
Then suddenly we are attacked by a nightmare, somatic syndrome, and sickness.
When we die down our ego state, we can catch the subtle signal of this edge.
Actually, we meet them so often. The subtle gap is always happening.
The focusing method by Gendrine is to listen up to this subtle gap. He named it
"felt sense".
But on the other hand, when our ego meets a good situation, good luck,
fortunately, also at the moment the subtle gap between world image and
self-image comes up.
This moment is the crisis, if we don't notice it, our egos are bound by
conceit, proud, ego-inflation, and so on easily.
In my school, when a new idea works successfully, I often encounter this
crisis: my ego comes up with a glad and proud face, " I got it!", and
when I am bound by it, I fail in becoming student's subbodies.
I have to recognize the bitter fact what is "Ego cannot become a
midwife".
I need still a long process to train myself.
8. Thinking channel
Thinking itself the strongest edge of ego. When we are bound by thinking, we
cannot resonate enough.
We need to release from thinking so often.
The only good way is this: when we get a new idea, we should write it down soon
on a notebook nearby, and forget it immediately, then we can come back to
subbody mode. Always we need to effort shifting our consciousness from thinking
mode to listening mode constantly in all moments to be released from the ego
process. But thinking is the biggest edge for us. Our daily body believes that
we cannot live without thinking like a human.
It may true, but it is not enough to become a life. We need to release us from
the biggest illusion what we are "Human". When we think that we are
human, we are bound by the biggest proud.
The feeling of human hides the deep fact what we are just life.
When we are released from the illusion of human, we can recover the life
resonance which can resonate with the weakest being in the world.
1. Listen to the non-dual Qualia in the darkness of body
Every day, we
start medimotion or the walking
medimotion like Ash
walk or weakened walk. When we stop thinking and
listen to the darkness of the body, at first, we meet obscure chaotic Qualia
that is not able to distinguish which they are. Sensation? Memory? Feeling?
Imagination? Dream? Illusion?
Signs? Flirt? Finch? Prediction?
Suggestion?
We cannot
recognize it separately, Qualia are mixed and changing at each moment like a
Rhizome.
We call it,
“Non-dual Qualia”.
Life is resonating
with this non-dual and multi-dimensional Qualia, always.
2. Hunt the moment the non-dual Qualia become a subtle
movement
In the Ash walk,
we try to carry the body as quiet as possible. But, we cannot inhibit the
subtle vibration or sway. We listen to the subtle vibrations or sways, we may
meet so diverse tendencies, some part may want to float up, another part may
sink down or shrink.
Listen to the
diverse tendencies, and hunt the moment that a part of your body follows the
tendency by the body movement. Watch the spontaneous movement by the distant
eyes. It is your subbody.
Normally, we
follow the spontaneous movement and develop it as today’s subbody. But, in the
Winter Intensive, we will co-research in this subbody process much more
precisely.
3. See the whole process transparently
We move and see it
transparently what is happening. We watch the subbody process precisely and
exchange it by word and movement. We use the Qualia language that is connected
to each label language of Qualia by "and".
What Qualia do you
feel at first? And what is next? And the next?
This is the work
to elucidate out the subtle subbody process precisely. We will co-research each
subtle phenomena that happen in the subbody process.
The subtle
tendencies might be felt with various nuances as the followings;
Forgotten memory,
Finch, Flirt, Invitation, Temptation, Implication, Insinuation, Suggestion and
so on. It doesn’t matter. We just follow the tendency and it becomes a bodily
movement.
It might come from
your forgotten memories of cells because cells have four billion years of Life
memories. Or they may connect with the Archetypes and appear as the following:
Flirt from another
world
Implication by
someone
The insinuation by
a spirit
Invitation from a
dreamland
Suggestion by the
ancestor
Temptation by a
trickster
and so on.
When you
will meet these Archetype Qualia, not being
possessed like ancient people, see it transparently what resonance is
happening between the archetype Qualia that we share in the collective unconsciousness
and present physical Qualia. To be transparent means not bound by anything.
4. Investigate in them half as the mental process and half
as the physical process
To become
transparent that is not bound by anything, we need to keep exact 50% and 50%
balance among all. We research it half as the mental process. It means to grab
the phenomena as the resonance of imaginary Qualia; memory, imagination, dream,
sensation, feeling, emotion, illusion and so on. And the other half we try to
grab the process as the physical process. Do we research what will happen when
an imaginary Qualia meet some cells of the body?
Subtle physical
particles are provided from a cell and the neighbor cells receive it by the
receptors. They are called the nerve transmitter; including the hormones.
Recently so many variations of them are found. Each nerve transmitter has own
special role and controls the body with complicated network resonance.
We need to keep
this transparent attitude to investigate our body=mind process without any
bias.
5. Be aware not to be trapped
Be aware that all
viewpoints in the world are trapped by own bias. All Religions are limited by
own beliefs, science is bound by own narrow viewpoint. We have to build the
Transparent eyes that are not bound by any tendencies by ourselves, even it is
extremely hard. If we lose this Transparency, immediately we are trapped by a
biased viewpoint.
Do not believe the
internet information directly. Do not use the same terminology as them. We need
to avoid the biased words in each narrow tendencies, including the biggest
modern humanistic biases.
See yourself by
Transparent Distant eyes, and check the following;
1. No Duplication
Do not do
Duplicate the movement unconsciously. See yourself at each moment from Distant
eyes and if you find it, break it, and invent.
2. Break your habits
Do not allow your
habitual arm position, leg position as usual, and invent novel positions that
you have never done at each moment.
3. Remember forgotten Qualia
Listen to your
Hidden skins, Hidden joints, Hidden fluid and resonate with your Qualia cloud
around your body. Those Qualia moves each detail, part, and whole body.
4. Subtle control technique
Pass through
different Qualia at random, at a different part of your body, in a different
direction, with a different rhythm. Remember the <Slow Kanchen>,
<Silent speed>, <Listen to subtle Life Resonance>, <Carry
density> and <Jumping wild>.
5. Mutual Midwife
Either opening all
the above points, listen to yourself and others equally. Then, do not regard
the issue of the others as a stranger, accept it as your own issue, invent and
share the best conditioning that solves it. What we are trying to co-create is
a community of the future that we can care for each other.
6. Become Transparent
While accepting
all of them, slowly your body will become Transparent that is <half passive,
half active>, <half outside, half inside>, <half follow, half
invent>, <half subconscious, half Transparencious>. These are the basic
checkpoint by your <Transparent Distant eyes> at every moment.
1. Listen to the non-dual Qualia in the darkness of body
Every day, we
start medimotion or the walking
medimotion like Ash
walk or weakened walk. When we stop thinking and
listen to the darkness of the body, at first, we meet obscure chaotic Qualia
that is not able to distinguish which they are. Sensation? Memory? Feeling?
Imagination? Dream? Illusion?
Signs? Flirt? Finch? Prediction?
Suggestion?
We cannot
recognize it separately, Qualia are mixed and changing at each moment like a
Rhizome.
We call it,
“Non-dual Qualia”.
Life is resonating
with this non-dual and multi-dimensional Qualia, always.
2. Hunt the moment the non-dual Qualia become a subtle movement
In the Ash walk,
we try to carry the body as quiet as possible. But, we cannot inhibit the
subtle vibration or sway. We listen to the subtle vibrations or sways, we may
meet so diverse tendencies, some part may want to float up, another part may sink
down or shrink.
Listen to the
diverse tendencies, and hunt the moment that a part of your body follows the
tendency by the body movement. Watch the spontaneous movement by the distant
eyes. It is your subbody.
Normally, we
follow the spontaneous movement and develop it as today’s subbody. But, in the
Winter Intensive, we will co-research in this subbody process much more
precisely.
3. See the whole process transparently
We move and see it
transparently what is happening. We watch the subbody process precisely and
exchange it by word and movement. We use the Qualia language that is connected
to each label language of Qualia by "and".
What Qualia do you
feel at first? And what is next? And the next?
This is the work
to elucidate out the subtle subbody process precisely. We will co-research each
subtle phenomena that happen in the subbody process.
The subtle
tendencies might be felt with various nuances as the followings;
Forgotten memory,
Finch, Flirt, Invitation, Temptation, Implication, Insinuation, Suggestion and
so on. It doesn’t matter. We just follow the tendency and it becomes a bodily
movement.
It might come from
your forgotten memories of cells because cells have four billion years of Life
memories. Or they may connect with the Archetypes and appear as the following:
Flirt from another
world
Implication by
someone
The insinuation by
a spirit
Invitation from a
dreamland
Suggestion by the
ancestor
Temptation by a
trickster
and so on.
When you
will meet these Archetype Qualia, not being
possessed like ancient people, see it transparently what resonance is
happening between the archetype Qualia that we share in the collective unconsciousness
and present physical Qualia. To be transparent means not bound by anything.
4. Investigate in them half as the mental process and half
as the physical process
To become
transparent that is not bound by anything, we need to keep exact 50% and 50%
balance among all. We research it half as the mental process. It means to grab
the phenomena as the resonance of imaginary Qualia; memory, imagination, dream,
sensation, feeling, emotion, illusion and so on. And the other half we try to
grab the process as the physical process. Do we research what will happen when
an imaginary Qualia meet some cells of the body?
Subtle physical
particles are provided from a cell and the neighbor cells receive it by the
receptors. They are called the nerve transmitter; including the hormones.
Recently so many variations of them are found. Each nerve transmitter has own
special role and controls the body with complicated network resonance.
We need to keep
this transparent attitude to investigate our body=mind process without any
bias.
5. Be aware not to be trapped
Be aware that all
viewpoints in the world are trapped by own bias. All Religions are limited by
own beliefs, science is bound by own narrow viewpoint. We have to build the
Transparent eyes that are not bound by any tendencies by ourselves, even it is
extremely hard. If we lose this Transparency, immediately we are trapped by a
biased viewpoint.
Do not believe the
internet information directly. Do not use the same terminology as them. We need
to avoid the biased words in each narrow tendencies, including the biggest
modern humanistic biases.
Listen to inside 50%, outside 50%.
Keep this balance exactly to be transparent. Transparency means not being bound
by anything, not bound by internal elements and external elements, and we can
become Transparent Life. The word of inside and outside is tricky, it changes
always depend on the focusing condition.
Subbody mode
For example, when you are subbody mode, inside means inner Qualia; feeling,
emotion, desire, memory, imagination and so on, outside means present physical
resonance with the environment.
Cobody mode
When we are cobody mode, the outside becomes a friend’s movement and inside
becomes yourself.
Subbody=Cobody mode
In the performance, the outside becomes the
audience and inside becomes the dancers. Performance is the training chance to challenge to be transparent Life in the world. In the
performance, we tend to be bound by the word of “Showing”. This word is bound
by the daily dualistic illusion. Daily mind=body is bound by the dualistic human
illusion of <self and others>, inside is
separated firmly from outside, and we are bound by the pressure, “I have to show myself
to outside.” But, this word “show” is a dualistic illusion, “I” show
something. In the real aspect of Life, there is just Life Resonance> In
the resonance, there is no subject, no object, it
happens from both side. But, the daily body is bound by the illusion of “I” as the
subject, and regard the others as the object. We need to take off all of these
illusions to become the Transparent Life. All of us are
One Life and performance is the field to share the best of each.
Not being bound by anything
Transparency means not being bound by anything.
It means not bound by yourself, not by the group and not by the audience and
the world.
There are some useful techniques.
Steal the steps
Not bound by “I”, ego, self, all inner Qualia; feeling, emotion, desire and so
on. Zeami said, “Steal
the steps”. When you do a strong step or big movement, you steal the
sound of steps. Then you can keep the transparent balance. When you want to
shout, do it as the “silent shout”, then you are not bound by the
emotion.
Half carrying a secret,
half co-create the total Jo-Ha-kyu When you co-create a cobody piece that your friend
initiates, half you co-create the total Jo-Ha-Kyu with finding best timing and
spacing, and at the same time always you carry your own secret. Then whole time
becomes pure creation.
Real-time Resonance
Not bound by the group totally. Even if you confirmed the
Jo-ha-Kyu development with the meeting of group rehearsal,
always everyone research the best MA of timing and spacing, and if you find
novel resonance pattern, immediately follow it even it is out of confirmation
in the meeting. Then Jo-Ha-kyu will be co-created in the real-time Life
Resonance.
Riken (Distant) eye
In the performance, if you are afraid of the critical eye of the audience,
swallow it as your Riken (distant) eye. And you can see yourself always and
able to find the best MA and resonance pattern. What
you afraid audience eye means wants of your own Riken (Distant) eye by
yourself.
Multiple Life Resonance
Actually, we are living in the multiple resonance world of the Qualia.
All dualistic judgment and hierarchy are the human illusion.
Become Life!
Become the Transparent Life which is not by
anything!
Become Rhizome!
Become a Secret!
Psychologist
C.G.Jung and philosopher Gille Deleuze, whom I learned a lot, put <individuation>
as a human goal. <Individuation> means realizing 100% of Self potential.
<Individuation> is a precious goal. However, the present age that the
destruction of Life and Earth has advanced to its limit, that's not enough. Not
only becoming Self but <To become Life> is what the deepest matters.
What comes after
the “human death” predicted by philosopher Michel Foucault is <Becoming
Life>. If there is something in this book that I can add to the achievement
of my teachers, it will be <Becoming Life>. Only that can open up our
brilliant Future.(See chapter 4
“Research the 5 Desires”)
Becoming a behind world.
Becoming a Shisha(Dead) that is able to transform to everything infinitely.
Becoming a mad man=child=beast.
Becoming a vaporized body.
Becoming a chimera.
...and so on.”
Each
sentence of the score is the variation of becoming.
And he uses the technique of <Reduction by X> in each becoming.
Reduction by X means to reduce an element from the normal human body.
X can be anything, then it is the universal transformation method to become
everything in the Universe.
For example...
“Becoming a girl means to reduce sexuality and age from his human body.
Becoming a stuffed spring means to reduce Life from every living being.
Becoming a behind world means to reduce all visible physicality from the daily
being.
Becoming a Shisha means to reduce Life from a living being.
Becoming mad man=child=east means to reduce sanity, age, humanity from your
body.
Becoming a vaporized body means to reduce all physicality from the human physical
body.
Becoming a chimera means to reduce your identity and totality of your body,
and each part of the body transform to various beings.”
I can continue this till the last sentence, but the other parts, you can do
it by yourself.
<Becoming>
in "Thousand Plateaus"
Gille Deleuze and
Felix Guattari wrote the book together.
Also in this book, there are full of Becoming.
The main thing is Becoming Rhizome which is able to connect freely
and separate flexibly at any part of it.
The rhizome is also multiple transformation state of us.
We are bound by so many restrictions as a modern human being. To release from
all of them and become a completely free being is the Rhizome.
A rhizome is a sprouting form of future of human being.
Let's see the many becoming in the book.
For becoming Rhizome, it needs so many examples.
Because Rhizome is a manifold, and manifold has so many entrances.
“Becoming a
Rhizome.
Becoming a wolf.
Becoming a herd.
Becoming an anomaly.
Becoming an animal.
Becoming a child.
Becoming a woman.
Becoming a manifold.
Becoming a molecule.
Becoming something that is not able to recognize.”
You can see the surprising similarity with Hijikata Butoh. And also we can
understand that they use the same method as <Reduction by X> to become
those being.
Becoming Rhizome means to reduce Tree(=dualistic thinking and
hierarchical order of human society) from daily human being which is bound by
those restrictions.
Becoming a wolf means to reduce your humanistic personality from you and
remind your wildness. A wolf is a herd itself, they can be alone and a herd
flexibly.
Becoming a herd means to reduce the illusion of modern individuality from
your being, and remind that we are a cobody as Life.
All of them are to becoming a minority, not becoming a majority.
It is a common characteristic of both of Hijikata and Deleuze=Guattri.
We do not become a man, not becoming a General.
Because it is to back to the Tree based on the hierarchical order.
We do not become a teacher, not become a fixed leader.
Because it supports the Tree system that is out of date.
Becoming manifold is the same as <Becoming Chimera> in Hijikata.
Becoming something that is not able to recognize is also the same as
<Becoming Behind world> and <Becoming Shisha> in Hijikata.
They had never contact, but the universal Life Resonance around 1968, brought
them to the same horizon.
This was the miracle of Life Resonance.
A similar Life Resonance must occur again in the near future.
Because everyone living in modern times is influenced by the rapid inflation of
higher information technology, and Life is eroded on the first scale in human
history.
“We have to go to the place before the
differentiation of self and others.”
Deleuze said,
“To reach, not the point where one no longer
says I, but the point where it is no longer of any importance whether one says
I. We are no longer ourselves.”
Both
are the way to release from the modern bondage of ego.
2. Second synchronicity of the
transformation method to overcome the ego bind
Hijikata invented
<Reduction by X and regeneration>,
Deleuze invented <Deterrtorialization and reterritorialization>.
Both are the transformation methods to release from all kind of binds; ego,
self-identity, humanity, sexuality, nationality and so on.
X and the territory can be anything. Then both method is completely the same. You
can replace “territorialization” into X, then Hijikata method becomes
"Reduce the territorialization" as the same as deterritorialization. You
can replace “self-identity” into X, then your any part of the body can travel
anywhere and transform anything, it means your part become nomad beyond the border
between you and others.
You can reduce “the restraint by ego’s territorialization to the body” then
each part of the body can connect others and separate freely.
During co-research of <Reduction by X and regeneration> and
<Deterritorrialization and reterritorialization>, gradually we could find
the amazing synchronicity of both methods.
3. Third
synchronicity of "Becoming"
It is a miraculous
coincidence because they are completely the same.
Becoming is the most fundamental technique of Hijikata Butoh. Butoh is not
human expression, but becoming as the Life, the inevitable becoming to survive.
Deleuze said, “Become wolf, become a woman, become a child, become molecular,
become an unrecognizable secret, become a Rhizome!"
Becoming unrecognizable one is exactly the same with “Clouding (obscuring)
method of the body” in “Sick Dancing Princess “ by Hijikata.
Hijikata guided to become the chimera. Chimera is a being that various Qualia
merged into a body and becoming something that
This word of Foucault that I met at the end of my twenties changed my life
fundamentally.We can take off the
"human" that is imprinted by the modern society, it turns on the
light of the huge hope.This word has become the
guidance that I was able to reincarnate as a Butoh dancer in my 40's.Because
the Butoh, created by Tatsumi Hijikata also pursues to take off
"human", and it opened up a practical way to become Life.In
those days in my twenties, what should we do exactly after the death of
"human", I had no idea about it.
I was wandered with searching in the darkness of body, it's no way to be the
"Superhuman" as if in Nietzsche.
However, after 20 years of retreat in the Himalayas, the practical enlightenment
that we take off "human" and at the same time, the way of
"De-self" to take off the "Ego", "Self-identity"
and "Personality" become transparent gradually yet slowly.
Hijikata also had pursued the way of "Butoh of Life" that
"Sinking down to the relationship before the differentiation of self and
others".
The way to be Life was becoming transparent.
Also, those resonate with the "Rhizome" that overcome the
hierarchical Tree orders of Deleuze's thought who was Foucault's ally.
To take off Human, to become Life and to become Rhizome is Oneness.Because
Life is Rhizome, neither the center nor the upper and lower.Foucault,
Deleuze, and Hijikata are deeply connected to one and are an eternal forerunner
for us to become Life.
Take off the
modern "human illusion" and become Life!
Now, I can say that with confidence.
Friend, it is not yet late.
Let's become Life desperately!
I would like to
introduce the most important philosophical discoveries in the 20th century.
The most important philosophical event in the 19th century was "God has
died" by Nietzsche.
And in the 20 century, Foucault predicted "Disappearance of Man".
It happened in France in 1966.
And, surprisingly, in Japan at the same time beyond the sea, Tatsumi Hijikata
was created Butoh that abandons all human conditions.
It was surprising synchronicity!
We knew the fact that Life is connected to one in the Abyss, through it.
Only my generation has experienced the amazing synchronicity of Life in 1968
world revolt by world youth.
However, someday again the day when the world Life will resonate to Rhizome
will come.
Tree-like hierarchical order confines the creativity of Life.
Someday the Life in the world will notice it.
I believe it. "I
believe that the human has been If not a bad dream, a specter, at least a very
particular figure, very historically determined and situated in our culture.
It’s an invention.
In the 19th century and also the first of the 20th century, it is believed that
the human was the fundamental reality of our interests.
But,
we can’t find the
term ‘humanism’ earlier because humanism is an invention of the late 19th
century.
Before the 19th century, it can be said the human didn’t exist.
The human is a figure constituted near the end of the 18th century and
beginning of the 19th century. which gave rise to what has been and still are
called the human sciences.
If the man is dead, all is possible, or more precisely, we’ll be told that all
is necessary.
What is discovered in the death of God, what was discovered in the great
absence of a supreme being, was a space for freedom.
What is now discovered in the disappearance of man is a thin space left by man
which must arise in the frame of a kind of necessity, the large network of a system
to which we belong and is to be necessary”. (from Lectures
by Michel Foucault 1961 and 1983)
We can
start from here to the future.
What will happen after the disappearance of man?
I want to share the biggest mysteries for me. It is what is Life,
what is Qualia and what is Resonance.
What is Life?
Scientists tried to define Life in various ways such as
self-replication, self-organization, etc. But all the Life theory have been
overlooked one point that only Life can sense the Qualia and thereby able to
control itself.Modern Life research is
limited to material research on DNA and genes, and Life cannot be viewed
radically as something that resonates and swaying between material and
non-material.
Life is a special
being which can resonate with subtle Qualia. Qualia is everything that cell’s Life
resonates with; Qualia of Gravity, Sunshine, Air, Weather, Temperature,
Moisture, Sound, Smell and not only those present and physical Qualia but also
inner Qualia which is reserved in the cell as the Life memory.
The newborn Life
had very few resonance patterns with the environment. Life could get new resonance pattern through the experience and transferit to the next generation. Then
present cells have much richer resonance patterns of Qualia. Life can recognize
the change of its own cell’s condition through resonance with Qualia
and has a special ability to reserve it as the cellular
memory.
What practice do we need to become Life?
1. Listen to Life at each moment every
day, and ask your Life.
"What do you want to do the most?"
I have kept asking
the question every day for the last twenty years.
This is the basic in the basic task for becoming Life.Without this,
nothing happens.
Just keep listening to Life.
I do not know what is Life.
It is one of the biggest mysteries I've met.
Because Life is a huge complex mystery and secret.
Thinking ordinary, Life has three phases.
(1) Life of an individual If I
die, it's just the end of everything. I was caught by that in the past.
However, we cannot catch the Life only by it.
(2) Life of cell Our
body consists of 100 trillion cells. Every single cell has Life. And each cell
has been living for 4 billion years. Each one has Life memories of 4 billion
years. Our beings are the resonance body of 100 trillion cell's Life.
(3) Life as a Life Tide
Not only our human cells but also all living cells continued to live for 4
billion years. From the origin cell that was born 4 billion years ago to today,
with differentiated into various species and changing shapes. It is a single
huge Life that has to be called a big Life Tide. Life is ONE.
Life needs to be regarded as integrating all three phases.
Listen to Life and keep listening.
What is Qualia?
Life is only one
being that can resonate with Qualia in the Universe.
Life was born as a
special being which can catch the change of body as Qualia that connect to the
resonance pattern of the String.
Double Resonance of Qualia Life
has two kinds of Qualia. One is Outer
Qualia that is present physical Resonance between the body and
the environment. Another is the Inner Qualia that
is memories which are reserved in the cell for four billion years.
Outer and Inner Qualia is always resonating double, through it Life can
recognize the present condition comparing with the past.
Life was born as such a special being that can resonance with the subtle
difference of the resonance pattern of the string as the first time in the
Universe. (or maybe not the first time, but nobody knows yet).
Why only Life is able to resonate with Subtle Qualia?
It’s a mystery that nobody knows.
We can only suppose Life as what was born as such a special novel being 4
billion years ago in the Universe.
What is Resonance?
The String theory
A revolutionary
change in physics happened at the end of 20 Century.
It was the String
theory that changed the fundamental view of the Universe. In the 20 Century,
the standard physics regarded that everything in the Universe was made of the particle;
Molecule, Atom, Quake, and so on. But, the String theory revolted the
fundamental view that not the particle but very tiny String is the most
fundamental thing.
According to the
String theory, all matter and energy are made of the change of resonance
pattern of the String which is resonating in the 11 dimensions: 4 Expanding
time and space dimensions and 7 tiny curled-up dimensions (Calabi Yau space) in
the Plank length which is the smallest scale in the Universe.
All kinds of matters and energies (Gravity, Electro-magnetic power, Strong
power, Weak power) are made of the change of resonance pattern of
11-dimensional resonance of the String, but after Big-Bang that was happened
4.6 billion years ago, only 1-time dimension and 3 space dimensions are
expanded. The other subtle 7 space dimensions are still cured in the Plank
length.
Resonance patterns of the String are
infinite.
If it is allowed
to expand the String theory to Life, also Life must be born as a special
resonance pattern of the String. We can suppose that the specialty of Life is
that Life can catch the subtle change of own resonance pattern as the Qualia.
Other material can’t feel the Qualia and can’t recognize the change of the
state of the matter itself. This is the essential difference between physical
material and Life. Though no scientist notices it.
Listen to the Subtle Qualia
When we became the subconscious mode through the Medimotion (See chapter 4), we can catch a Subtle Qualia
stream in the darkness of the body.
Listen to them carefully for 24-hour, All of them are a precious source of your
creation.
One more recent
discovery in brain science is “Default mode”. Brain scientist found when our
consciousness has a rest, the brain activity doesn’t rest, on the contrary, the
bloodstream in the brain is more than the thinking mode. The brain is active in
“Mind Wandering”. They called this “Default mode”
Default Mind Wandering mode (Medimotion mode)
The traditional
meditation technique is sometimes to keep this “Mind Wandering” mode to be
aware of various things. Because in this mode various parts of the brain become
active and various Qualia can encounter each other and generate new Qualia
automatically. Recent “Mindfulness method” maybe in this mode. In the
traditional meditation technique, sometimes they focus on one image, for
example, “Buddha”, “God”, Gull” and so on. In this case, brain mode becomes
closer to thinking mode.
Observe the above
figure carefully, it is activated except for the movement field. In the
movement field, there is no activity. Because they block body movement at all.
The Qualia stream can’t meet movement Qualia at all.
Medimotion mode
What happens in the Medimotion?
Medimotion is
moving meditation. Then including the movement field, all parts of the brain
become active and all kinds of Qualia can encounter freely beyond any borders.
This state happens
only in the Medimotion mode, the reason why the creativity of Life becomes
maximum in the Medimotion.
The relationship
between Qualia and Information has been a mystery
that cannot be
solved well for a long time. But, it began to be solved out little by little.
When Qualia are converted to information, what do they lose? When this question
came up, a transparent brightness was seen for the first time. By losing what,
do Qualia become information? It's Life Resonance! Qualia are generated as long
as Life resonates with something. When Qualia are converted to information,
they leave from the field of Life Resonance which Qualia are generated. They
are converted to things that are information. Information of the image, of the
sound and of the language, they can be translated into binary machine language
consisting of 0 and 1. At that time, by losing the Life Resonance, Qualia is
converted into Information. Only Life can resonate with Qualia. The machine
never resonates with Qualia. The machine can treat only things like
information. From here, it is possible to go confront the deep mystery between
Qualia and Information. I was able to find with difficulty such a point
finally. Although I cannot drink liquor anymore, Let the imaginary glass empty
tonight. I could come to this place by researching "Sick Dancing
Princess" of Tatsumi Hijikata which is full of Life Resonance. Not by any
information, but by Qualia and Life Resonance, the Butoh of Life will be
created
To stop
thinking is the alpha and omega of the Subbody process
The first thing to
do in the Himalayas is to have enough rest and relax completely. It is to rest
the mind and body that was excited during the long journey. To solve the
tension of mind and body, to stop thinking, and do nothing but sleep.
Gradually shift to
the mode of listening to the darkness of the body from daily thinking mode.
That's the most important thing to do from the beginning till the end.
Shift to the
listening mode in the deep brain from thinking mode in the surface brain.
During thinking by using language, the brain is excited by electrical signals
which fire connections in the neuron cells at the surface layer in the cerebral
cortex.
Why do we need to stop thinking?
The cerebral
cortex has a 6 layered column structure. The surface layer:Ⅱ · Ⅲare used in
thinking mode and the communication between the left and right cortex. The deep
layer: Ⅳlayer is for the
sensory systems, Ⅴ · Ⅵ layers are
involved in the expression of motion.
Figure: by
Sengodai, 1978, from Nishinomiya Hiroshi "multi-space-time theory"
1997
Fig1. Cerebral
Cortex Structure
When we think of
using language, the neurons of the left and right brain communicate by electric
signals through the Ⅱ·Ⅲ layer of the
cerebral cortex. However, the glia-neuron cells are resonating with subtle
Qualia in the deeper layers Ⅳ-Ⅴ- Ⅵ. The Glia-neuron
Qualia is not an electric signal, but an extremely weak chemical signal. When
we think, these subtle sensory and movementQualia of the in Ⅳ-Ⅴ- Ⅵ layers of the
brain are masked by the strong electric signals of thinking in the Ⅱ·Ⅲ layer. Hence, we need to
stop thinking to open movement completely.
Fig2 Masking the
Subtle Qualia by Thinking
What is the meditation and listening
mode?
fig3. Medimotion and Listening mode
When we stop using
language thinking, electrical signals that come and go in the Ⅱ·Ⅲ layer are weakened, and we
can listen to the subtle signals resonating between glia and neuron in the deep
brain: Ⅳ.Ⅵlayers. The communication between glia and neuron are using faint
chemical signals of neuro-transmitter, and then the cellular Life of glia and
neuron can resonate with each other’s Qualia. According to recent brain
science, our memories and learnings are reserved in the glia cells of the
brain.
To enter the
listening mode or meditation mode means to be in the condition where we stop
the language thinking and dualistic judgment and just follow the tendency of
the Qualia which we can catch by listening to the darkness of body.
Fig4 Keep Alpha
Wave Mode
When we are not
thinking, the brain waves shift from busy beta wave to calm alpha waves. This
is the sign of meditating or listening. Keep this condition as long as possible
and you can follow the subtle signal by using the whole body. It is your
subbody.
"Conditioning"
of subbody method is to become this condition of mind/body.
Important novel findings of recent
brain science
Glia-neuron network
Our memories and
learnings are reserved in the glia cells of the brain, and it works through the
glia-neuron network. Glia takes an important role to control the glia-neuron
network.
Consciousness may
concern mainly the neuron-network of surface layers: 2nd and 3rd layers of the
brain, left the brain and right brain communicate and translate from Qualia to
language information through 2nd and 3rd layers. Neurons communicate through
electric signals.
Subconscious may
concern mainly glia-neuron network in the deep layers: 4th-6th layers. The glia
and glia and glia-neuron network communicate by sending subtle chemical signals
to neurotransmitters.
The energy level
of electric signals among neurons is a trillion times stronger than the
chemical signals among the glia-neuron network.
The meditation
mode and listening mode means to stop thinking and avoid the disturbance of
strong signals of thinking, and we can listen to the very subtle signals of
Qualia which are resonating in the darkness of the body.
It takes many
years to stop thinking properly. It is the alpha and omega of the
subbody-cobody process. I will guide you to it, at first.
We
undertook fundamental reform of the subbody technique.
I realized the necessity as I read the practical guide again and tried to
re-edit.
It is necessary to have a fundamental revolution.
Let’s become the free traveler between Rhizome=Qualia and Tree=Language realm.
For the travel in the darkness of the body,
we need to know the fundamental difference between the daily body world and
Qualia stream in the subconscious body (subbody=cobody) realm.
The
difference between Qualia and words
Let's give some
big differences.
Qualia is the resonance of life. Resonance has no subject or object, it happens
from either.
But when we try to put it into words, the words cannot leave from its own
grammar of subject predicates.
It transforms fundamentally to another thing.
There are no numbers and no order in the Qualia. However, by the reasons of
easy to understand, if we order the numbers, we cannot avoid the fundamental
alteration.
Since ten years ago, I have written down the new technique born every day in
the sentence.
And while we ran these careless mistakes, I could not notice it well.
Under consciousness, there was no fear of being (somewhere different?).
However, the word was a big stretch and it proceeded across it.
Let's confirm the difference between Qualia and words more.
Language goes straight. The description goes forward and it is arranged under a
hierarchical order.However, Qualia resonate in a
non-dual multidimensional world, so there is neither before nor back.
There is neither above nor below. There is no hierarchical order or anything.The
part of Qualia is always away from the whole, flowing everywhere,It
can resonate with anything else and become one. Parts will always be the whole,One
whole can become a part of something else at any time.There are no
differences between whole and part, kind and individual in Qualia. Based on
sorting them none of the usually known logic can be used. Qualia jump wildly
over those constraints with confidence, Qualia transform freely.
To
be Subbody=cobody and to become Life
We try to take off all human conditions; Ego, Self, Identity, Sexuality
nationality and so on, and we try to become Life.
It is not so easy, very hard process to meet many hardships in the process.
We need to one Life to overcome all the issues that we will encounter.
For it, we need to share 3 important maxims.
1. No talking
2. No absent
3. No late
This is the tradition of the Subbody School for these 15 years.
When everybody respect and shares these 3 rules as own maxim, we can be the
co-being as the co-midwife, co-researcher and co-creator.
To share everything that happens in the class and try to find the best
resonance pattern, it is the necessary process to become Life.
Let's enjoy it with becoming subbody-cobody and share each one's finding. This
is only one place that we become co-researcher, co-midwife, and co-creator as
Life.
There is no other way to quest the mystery and secret of Life.
One
Tree in your head
"A lot of people are growing a tree in their heads"
("Rhizome" Delude = Guattari)
A long story called "Ego" or "Identity grows from this tree. The
inner language which supports the self-identity is repeated infinite times.
The tree grows up to an adult, parent, teacher or a General.
No matter how
conscientious it is, the Tree will kill the Rhizome of Life.
I was careless. I did not notice it. I overlooked what the tree was killing the
explosion of subbody = cobody for 20 years.
The common illusion of the education theory of step-by-step method that I was
bound has limited the free explosion of them.
I wonder how far I was missing respect to Life.
In the past 20 years, I listened to the darkness of the body of the students
and participants as a midwife.
Listen to the breath of subbody = cobody lurking there, I have devoted myself
to their birth.
However, in the process, I regard the unborn subbody = cobody as if it were a
baby.
I was noticed that I was getting into a misunderstanding.
Certainly, many subbodies= cobodies have hidden in the darkness of the body by
the parents' selective carelessness in childhood.
They might not have acquired good resonance patterns with this world.
However, at the same time, subbody=cobody is also a crystal of wisdom of Life
that has been living for 4 billion years.
I had overlooked it and forgot the awe of the wisdom of Life.
It reminded me that on the second day after this autumn class started.
when we did the <Cobody Dreaming Share>.
There are thirteen fresh cobodies appearing one after another in one day.They
sprang out as if they had been waiting to come out for a long time.And
everyone was lively dancing among other people 's cobody world. When the tree
in my head was turned off and the teacher in me ceased to lead, I was surprised
at how much interesting sight would spread. When I withered the Tree in me, it
seems that the Rhizome which was suppressed by it gets spread freely.
An amazing explosion of creativity of Life arose in the 18th
Himalaya Butoh festival 2019, so many novel cobodies came out and every dancer
deepened on their own subbody solo. Surprisingly almost every day they joined
in others’ cobody piece and co-created it like a kid who doesn't know fatigue.
It seemed a miracle for me.
What is happening on earth?
Why the sudden explosion of creativity occurred?
It is the first time in the Subbody Butoh history to realize the
<Subbody=Cobody> co-creation.
Until this year we are bounded by the dualistic illusion which
individual and group are different. But, we realized that the dualism does not
exist at all except for human illusion. Before we divided the research to
Subbody solo and Cobody group creation. That is the biggest bind of the
dualism.
Revolutions of the subbody method
I realized that two revolutions of the subbody method occurred
in this year.
One is <Medimotion and 24-hour Listening>
Another is <Qualia share>.
I guess that these revolutions grew up during the festival and
brought the amazing Harvest of creativity.
<24-hour Medimotion and Listening>
We stop language thinking and judgment by 24-hour Medimotion.
Medimotion is a moving meditation.
We let our body as being moved by someone and become most
comfortable subconscious body mode. We continue to listen to the very subtle
Qualia of the darkness of the body.
Especially, forgotten memories, forbidden illusions or dreams
and very short term memories preserved in cells. They didn’t focus on only each
own creation, but they joined in other cobody pieces almost every day and
co-created them together. It was amazing energy as if an infinite fountain or
volcano of creativity of Life was born.
What is the
<Qualia share>?
Through the <Medimotion> all of us become Subbody=Cobody
mode. In the subconscious mode, the border between mind and body disappears and
we can be the Subbody mode. At the same time, the border between self and
others or individual and group disappears. We call it <Subbody=Cobody>
mode. In this <Subbody=Cobody> mode we can share other’s Qualia as our
own Qualia.
When one person initiates a Qualia with the body movement and
simple word, the others can follow it by body movement easily, sometimes copy
or follow with the same resonance pattern or different resonance patterns. We
can co-create one person’s dreaming world together. This is the very final
method which we can leave from the existing Tree ( Hierarchical) system which a
director or choreographer create and direct everything, the dancers just follow
it. We researched how we can overcome it by new Rhizoming way for long years.
There are so many variations;
<Dreaming share>,
<Behind world share>,
<Nightmare share>,
<Rhizoming share>,
<Deterritorializing share>,
<World change share>,
<Kan Qualia share> (Sharing the
Qualia which each Life could not resonate well) and so on.
It seems that all of those experiences beyond self and others bloomed
at once, and brought this energetic co-creation every day as the novel flowers.Finally, we can find the way by this
<Qualia share> with <Subbody=Cobody> mode. A half we can co-create
the cobody piece together and at the same time, another half we can research
each own secret and mystery. Throughout the whole time, we can be a creative
mode, not following the choreography which the choreographer directs you. Every
day, I was surprised at the unexpected explosion of creativity of all dancers.
Each dancer invented a unique stage and all dancers co-created the diverse
world changes infinitely. Especially, so many novel cobody resonance patterns
came out almost every day. I am a special researcher of cobody resonance
patterns for over 20 years, but they surprised at me by so many unseen cobody
resonance patterns and world changes scenes.
From Individuation
to Becoming Whole Life
I researched that Life has a Non-dual tendency that seeks better
resonance patterns at its root and that human fundamental desires are derived
from it. ( See Chapter 6, Researching Five Desires)
It is a desire for safety, a desire for comfort, a desire for
connection, and a desire for self-realization (creativity). The tendency to
seek better resonance at the base of Life cannot be called desire, but in the
case of humans, if it is called resonance desire, it becomes a total of 5
desires.
I learned "Self-realization" from Jung. Jung called the
"Self", including unconsciousness, in our whole Life, to distinguish
to "Ego" that is the center of consciousness. He named it"Individuation". My master of
philosophy, Deleuze, has set "individualization" as one goal, too.
However, the concept of “Self” is easy to be confused with “Ego” as
Jung himself fears, and has caused numerous misunderstandings. I am sure that
“self-realization", “individuation”, and “individualization” are the most
important things for human beings.
But, it is not enough. We need to become Life in addition to it. We
can call it to become "Whole Life". The concept of “Whole Life” was
learned from Haruchika Noguchi, the founder of the Noguchi body conditioning
method.
In this ward, confusion with the ego is unlikely to occur.
"Whole Life" includes the resonant attitude inevitably to face the
current nature is devastated.
To change the world, we need not only individuation but also
becoming “Whole Life”.
In case I say “becoming Life” in this book, I would like you to
think of it as meaning this “Whole Life”.
The Subbody method
is developing to open the possibility that everyone can participate not only in
Butoh dance but also for all genres Arts; visual art, music, installation,
literature, bodywork, and so on.
We named it <Life Resonance Art>.
Let's join in it, and let you reborn as a unique artist who opens the
creativity, originality, and resonativity (resonance ability) of Life.
Let’s become Life as the Subbody=Cobody Rhizome
We researched the
following question in the Himalayas: “What is the
next form after the modern human who is bound
by the selfish mind?”
How can we develop the transparent mind-body which keeps consciousness and
subconsciousness half and half equally? How can we be transparent between the
body and mind?
We call this future form of the human as the “Subbody=Cobody Rhizome”.
Subbody=Cobody is coming out of their unique shapes here slowly, even though
they are still in the germination stage.
Open multi-dimensional resonance
When you enter
into the darkness of the body, you will find that it has no borders and that
many dimensions are connected to each other in complicated ways. Your
Subbody=Cobody lives there. Even sometimes they appear as very strange
dark shapes or ugly forms. Do not worry. To judge them as the “dark”, “ugly” is
only belong in the daily dualistic world.
Butoh is a special art to
shift everything of Life to a novel beauty beyond the poor dualistic judgment.
Nobody judges and denies them in Life, contrary to the dualistic judgment of
daily human society.
Enjoy them. Taste
the diversity. And become a friend!Then
you can get a free passport to travel in the subconscious world. You can open
your potential infinite creativity, originality, and resonativity (resonance
ability) of Life fully.
Subbody Drawing to Life Resonance Art
We have experimented Subbody Drawing for 20
years. It is we medimote enough and draw inner Qualia stream on a paper, and
<Drawing share> that we resonated with friend’s drawing through the eight
channels. It is slowly fruiting old subbody’s Fine Art.
Above left is Devanjalee’s recent drawing. She
is every year continue to deepen. Subbody drawing is able to develop to an Art therapy
work. I hope some hearty person can develop painting and dance classes for
children or adult.
To the Installation
In Geneva, old students Sebastian, Aymon and cobody created an
Installation, “Bamboo Nest” 2017, and it is developing
every year, now the Bamboo Nest grow up to a famous spot to play, recreate, and
place for the various event, performance and so on. Geneva city continued to
support it. This is the first experiment that subbody method expands to another
Art genre.
To the Literature genre, too
Dan sent us a Novel,
"Recovery/Trauma".
Dan was a co-research in the first semester of
2019, he has struggled
with his Trauma and performed deeply. Now he
could shift it into Language channel, and succeed. I'm so happy this is the
first
achievement to expand literature genre. He is
going to publish it, will be informed soon. Please read it!
These samples are proofing us that all kinds of Art genre are crystallized
from non-dual Qualia to each channel. We can proceed with the Life Resonance
Art project with confidence.
What is "Butoh called by the name of Life" that
Tatsumi Hijikata left behind like a will?
I've been exploring it for over 20 years as my life work.This
year, I fought and struggled to overturn the subbody method because it was
still bound by the dualistic constraints so far.At last, something
like a subtle light came into sight.
Butoh of Life is nothing but Butoh that is directly
transmitted from Life to the Life.
And for that, a dancer should take off "the common
belief
of human" and try to become Life.There
is nothing other than to dance the inevitable things.If we can dance
the most important thing for Life, at that time the Butoh that is transmitted
directly from Life to Life would emerge.
There is a special
important Qualia to focus to listen to
It is Qualia that your Life could not resonate well.
Remember the
Qualia that is hard to resonate well in your life.
Most are
dissociated and cannot be remembered.
Among the things
that you cannot remember, there is the most important thing to dance.
They may be
lurking in forgotten dreams, imagination, and delusions.
Remember them
desperately.
And continue to
dance it.
I have been
focusing on it for decades.It
was so hard to
encounter those Qualia that have been dissociated by Ego and Self-organization.
Why the Qualia that cannot resonate well is important?
Because the secret
of the birth of each subbody=cobody is hidden in that Qualia. Everyone is born
and grows up as a "human", everything that could
not
fit into that Self-organization successfully was dissociated from
self and submerged in the bottom of the darkness of the subconscious body.
If we explore the
Qualia that could not resonate well with this world, we can inevitably
encounter the secret of occurrence of subbody=cobody, and the secret of how
consciousness, subconscious and unconsciousness had to be separated.
It is a treasure
house where the mystery and secret of Ego, Self, Subbody=cobody, and Life lurk.
The secret of why
we must live by being captured by unknown something is hidden. If we do not
solve the mystery, we cannot be freed from the prisoners of the Ego and Self.
Just dancing it and continuing to transform it into unique creation is the way
to release from it.It is a narrow and
steep road, but this road is worthy to try.
The Butoh of Life
is to connect your Life trying to follow its path at the risk of Life, with
other Life through Life resonance.
About “the Qualia
that cannot resonate well”, Tatsumi Hijikata called “Kan”. We learn it in
chapter 9 Butoh-fu.
<Stone Garden cobody> is the opposite of <City Garden
cobody>.
In the city garden, people keep the same distance each other. And
they can hold own personal space distinguished from others. This is the common
modern Dissonance among Egos.
Stones in the Japanese Stone Garden like Ryoanji Temple are
resonating each other with the best spacing.
Then, species
differentiation proceeds, especially after the Cambrian explosion of species.
Variety of species
adapted to a variety of environments on the planet in harmony.
The gradually rich
ecosystem was born which was diversifying particular ecosystem evolves under
certain circumstances.
The ocean has a
particular ecosystem of the ocean, the Desert has its own ecosystem.
Rainforest
ecosystem is the richest one where infinite diverse species coexist, abundant
water is constantly circulating, colorful variety of plants, insects, birds,
and beasts.
I have developed
an infinite variety of resonance patterns for these years, and now we name it
as <Forest cobody>.
Marine is also one
of the <Forest cobody> which is rich.
Anyway, quite an
interesting journey began this fall unexpectedly.
We are able to
experiment with various resonance patterns in this field to explore freely the
secrets and mysteries of Subbody and Cobody.
We finally were
able to find it.
I wanted to dive
headfirst into this mystery.
I wanted to eat
this mystery and secret with the students.
I have come to the
point where my longtime wish finally come true.
Life has countless
of resonance patterns with everything.
It is the wealth
of life, which has been accumulated in the history of 4 billion years of life.
How would've it
have been developing on earth?
What would have
been the first resonance pattern of life that was born in 4 billion years ago?
I have been
exploring it becoming the origin of life by upstream life meditation for long
years.
My friends try to
imagine that all is the dead world around you which was born four billion years
ago.
Only a group of
cells of life was born by chance and is alive.
You can resonate
well with those of only a few things; water, warmth, Calcium and Sodium ions,
Amino acids, and so on.
There are only a
handful of things that can resonate well.
You do not know if
you should resonate with other things.
When you encounter
such a new thing, if you can find a proper resonance pattern in a moment you
can survive, otherwise, you must die.
Life had been
forced to stand on the edge of life and death in the event of borderline.
For origin Life,
the edge Qualia between death and life was the most fundamental Qualia.
Can you resonate
well, or not?
Success or
failure?
Life or death?
Only cells that
found a good resonance pattern instantaneously have survived.
Numerous fellows were
dying.
None of the original
cells could help them.
It was the original
world where Life was born.
Harsh conditions
which Life encountered in four billion years;
asteroid impacts,
earthquakes, volcanoes, floods and ice ages...
Under extreme
conditions, the many lives will be extinct, only handful cells were able to
survive.
Life had met these
hard trials again and again, which is called a bottleneck event and were
selected, differentiated, creating a new resonance pattern.
A species shears a
particular resonance pattern which is best under the particular circumstances
of each environment.
It is the first
resonance pattern as <Swarm cobody>.
It had been
developed to survive as a species.
Every species
shares a unique resonance pattern of each own <Swarm cobody>.
It's was the most
unavoidable way to survive for Life.
<Swarm
cobody> and the edge Qualia of life and death is one.
Life invented the
resonance pattern of swarm or herd in order to live, but the herd of mankind is
full of terrible paradox.
There is a swarm
to kill, such as military,
also, a swarm to
be killed, such as Auschwitz.
They have stripped
away of even personality, a personal face on it.
What is swarm?
What is the individual? What is kind?
There is a deep
mystery which is not able to understand without becoming a swarm.
To be a swarm
means to undertake all the mysteries of these, and investigate those questions
through bodily experiences.
This is
the Swarm
We can learn
various resonance patterns of cobody from creatures.
Swarm
Forest
Stone Garden
Chimera cobody
Stuffed Spring
Dismal Air
Monster
and so, on
This bird's group
dance, fish’s school, plant’s forest are the teachers of the Swarm or the
Forest.
The difference of
them is that the Swarm shares the same Qualia and the Forest shares diverse
Qualia like a primitive Amazon Forest.
The Stone Garden
has a unique diverse distance among each other.
Chimera cobody is
combined with different Qualia in a huge cobody.
What is resonance? Resonance
happens spontaneously.
It is not caused by ego or subjects neither intentionally nor consciously.
When the consciousness dies down, you can notice that life resonates with
everything naturally.
When we become subbody mode enough, we can resonate each other on every
channel.
We can resonate in the body feeling channel, movement channel, visual
channel, audio channel, emotional channel,
relationship channel, world image=self-image channel.
There are some simple principles.
I will describe the resonance method in the movement channel for example.
A subbody starts the movement, and then another subbody fined the timing
to enter into space by following the resonance method.
1. Similar-Similar
The first principle is to share Qualia and follows by similar Qualia in
each channel.
Just throw out your ego, then you can follow with another Subbody’s
Qualia, with the same posture, same speed, same timing.
You can shift from very close distance to middle distance and far
distance.
You can become cobody by sharing Qualia.
This is the basic principle of resonance.
2. Similar-Deferent
<Positioning>
Start from a similar position, and shift to different position, for
example standing- standing resonance to
standing-rolling resonance.
<Speed>
Shift from resonance with same speed to different speed.
<Distance>
Start from resonance by close distance and shift to resonance
by far distance.
3. Different-Similar
<Positioning>
Similar-Different/ Opposite to above. Shift from different position to
similar position.
<Speed>
The shift from resonance with different speed to the same speed.
<Distance>
Start from far distance and shift to close distance.
4. Different-Different
Resonance in completely different dimension.
Just show the variation of different Qualia from Subbody’s Qualia.
Resonance not by similarity but by difference.
Actually, our universe is full of difference and they are resonating in so
rich ways.
Resonate in multi-dimensions each other.
When you got this resonance way, the concept of handicapped will be
disappeared.
We can start co-creation of the new world which is full of Life
Today we did the
first <Cobody Dreaming Share>.
After opening various Hidden skins, we try to remember the forgotten memory of
cobody or co-being. During four billion years of Life history, our Life
experienced so many resonance patterns of Life Resonance.
The first 3 billion years, Life was the one-celled creature.
1 billion years ago, Life invented the new resonance pattern of the group cell.
It was one of the greatest inventions that lead to the multi-celled creature in
Life history.
Each cell could resonate properly in the subtle distance between the contact
and not contact that we named the placenta layer Hidden skin in the subbody
method.
(This was the missing link that makes able to realize the <Cobody Dreaming
Share>.)
We practiced it, and we tried to remember the forgotten memory that we were
resonating in various cobodies as diverse creatures.
We share each one's cobody dreaming with movement and minimum words.
Unfolding
Another Dimension
Diverse cobody
images came out one after another. As if another dimension is unfolding.
This is a characteristic phenomenon of Qualia in the dreaming.
From very subtle Qualia that is almost nothing, a specific world unfolded and
appear as a special world.
We enjoyed this interesting process.
We will continue this sharing a lot in various ways.
We will get so many cobody resonance patterns, and able to use it in our
co-creation flexibly.
So, finally, we could complete the subbody=cobody co-creation method after 20
years struggle.
<Cobody
Dreaming Share 2>
Finally, we got
how to share each one’s forgotten cobody Qualia after twenty years of trial and
error.
The missing key was hidden in the method of conditioning.
1. Conditioning for Cobody Dreaming Share
Resonate each
other with various Hidden Skin distance
-Placenta layer: Between touching and not touching
-Womb layer: Become twin fetus in the Amniotic fluid
-Mother’s body layer: Relationship in the individual distance
-World layer: Resonance in the distance
-Physical contact: Contact with various pressures
2. Dreaming of cobody resonance
Remember the
forgotten Qualia when we were one cobody; a swarm, flock, herd, school, crowd.
Imagine the most interesting cobody group movement with a Jo-Ha-Kyu. Find the
best place to share the cobody.
3. Cobody Dreaming Share
Guide others to
your cobody Qualia by the movement and the words at the most interesting place.
The others follow it.
Finally, we got
how to share each one’s forgotten cobody Qualia after twenty years of trial and
error.
It was hidden as so rich and diverse forms in our darkness of body. It was just
that we didn’t know how it is possible to activate it.
We are cultivating
the Resonativity (Resonance ability) beyond the boundaries!"
Suddenly I was
aware of it.
"This must be
what my Life wants to do most!"
To recover the
Resonativity (resonance ability) of Life is one of the revolutions of Butoh.
Human is bound by
Ego and Self, then we cannot resonate with all kinds of disability of Life. It
is nothing but an unmetered stage of Life. We need to expand the concept of
human from the child condition bound by the selfish ego to resonant Life.
Hijikata wrote in
his memory,
"We humans have not yet touched parts per million of
mythical and historical order, and unknown order of life on the way coming from
now. "
It is written in
Hijikata's "Sick Dancing Princess” infinite variations of resonance which
Life is resonating with behind invisible world.
When we stop
thinking, we can be aware of the Life in our darkness of body which is
resonating with everything including disability, misery, happiness, and
unhappiness on earth, because we are not only human but also One Life on the
planet.
Let's take off the
narrow bind of Human and become Life which has rich resonativity. It will take
a long time, but, this long process is the only certain way to change the
world.
When I was
meditating at the veranda with receiving warm Autumn sunshine on my back,
I noticed a
beautiful reflected shade of pool water ripples at the ceiling of the veranda.
I felt that it is
similar to something and finally, I found it is so similar to the video of
calcium wave in the brain.
Please see both of
images.
I enjoyed it for
many hours, and during then I noticed that the condition of swaying is the best
condition for creativity.
Because when I
made a strong wave in the pool water, the reflection shade disturbed by a busy
wave, and the slow sway was disappeared.
It seemed the
condition when the language brain was activated in our brain.
When we watch the
shapes of brain wave as a curved line, we could not notice that they are
resonating each other, but when we see it at the two-dimensional plane, we can
find that each Qualia are resonating together clearly.
We can find that
when we meditate and the brain calms down like as the water ripples, the
resonance among Qualia which are reserved in each glial cell could resonate
together in so versatile way.
I noticed that creativity
must happen in this condition where so rich encounters among Qualia happened
frequently in our brain.
But when the
activity of language brain occurs, the rich encounters among Qualia are masked
and we cannot notice them.
This is the reason
why the subconsciousness has such richer creativity than consciousness.
Recovery
of Resonativity of Life
"So!
We are cultivating
the Resonativity (Resonance ability) beyond the boundaries!"
Suddenly I was
aware of it.
"This must be
what my Life wants to do most!"
To recover the
Resonativity (resonance ability) of Life is one of the revolutions of Butoh.
Human is bound by
Ego and Self, then we cannot resonate with all kinds of disability of Life. It
is nothing but an unmetered stage of Life. We need to expand the concept of
human from the child condition bound by the selfish ego to resonant Life.
Hijikata wrote in
his memory,
"We humans have not yet touched parts per million of
mythical and historical order, and unknown order of life on the way coming from
now. "
It is written in
Hijikata's "Sick Dancing Princess” infinite variations of resonance which
Life is resonating with behind invisible world.
When we stop
thinking, we can be aware of the Life in our darkness of body which is
resonating with everything including disability, misery, happiness, and
unhappiness on earth, because we are not only human but also One Life on the
planet.
Let's take off the
narrow bind of Human and become Life which has rich resonativity. It will take
a long time, but, this long process is the only certain way to change the
world.
When you continued
researching in the darkness of the body by finding various tunnels of travel,
and enter the creating process further, it is the timing to share what the real
creation is to deepen farther from basic practice.
The deepening
process is the following;
1. Infinite segmenting
In the basic
conditioning and researching, we learned simple and gross Qualia; stone, ash,
liquid, vapor, creature, animal, plant, human, humanoid, kugutsu, hidden body
and so on. It has simple movement and transformation as the vibration, sway,
wave, shock, collapse, die, and so on.
The advanced stage
of it, we try to segment them into small parts and proceed it into the infinite
level.
Segmenting of the
body;
We segment a total
body into various parts, and details. And each part of them we let resonate
with diverse Qualia.
We try to control
our body at the whole-body level, a part of it, and the detail. In each level,
we try to resonate with various Qualia of behind worlds. Finally, until our
body becomes a multi-resonating Chimera body where various parts and details
transform into various being.
Segmenting of the
eye;
Normal daily eye-
rotten eye- a nest of the eye- compound eye, participating in the skin- Hidden
skin=the third eye
Segmenting of
nerve;
Daily sensing and
moving nerve- nerve about each part of the body- nerve about the detail of
parts- nerve about body fluid conditions- nerve about hidden memories of each
part of cells
A segment of each
channel;
Like the above,
try to segment each channel; body feeling, movement, visual, audio, emotion,
relationship, and world=self channel
2. Infinite Multi-layering
We have twelve
kinds of conditioning methods. To mix each conditioning and develop it into
multi-layered resonance is required for deepening.
6: Six sways-
vibration, sway, wave, shock, collapse, and die
7: Seven
Rhizoming: Bottom rhizoming, Top rhizoming, Behind rhizoming, Front rhizoming,
Inner rhizoming, Outer rhizoming, and Time rhizoming
8: Eight channels:
Body feeling, Movement, Visual, Audio, Emotion, Human relationship, World=Self,
and Thinking channel
9: Segmenting
conditioning
10: Twelve
Meridians conditioning
11: Cobody
conditioning- Resonance touch, Resonance Shiatsu and so on.
We can create
various multiple resonances by mixing some of that conditioning and
researching.
The daily body can
open only one channel at the same time.
When we stop daily
thinking, we can listen to the diverse Qualia which our Life resonates with
multi-dimensional Qualia at the same moment.
By this
multi-layering, we can get the BPD-W method of Hijikata which is able to
control the four levels of the Body, Part, Detail and Behind World.
When the outer
(=physical) Qualia and inner (=memorial) Qualia become one, it changes from
mere movement to Butoh dance.
Through developing
this multi-layering, we can transform into Multi-resonance Chimera body. Life
is Chimera which resonates with diverse Qualia of multi-dimension at the same
time. We can call it by another name; 'Calabi-Yau Resonance body' as the string
of The String theory of physics has infinite resonance patterns.
3. Originating
Through the
infinite segmenting and multi-layering, we travel deeper and deeper into our
darkness of body. We pass through the first level of novel Qualia, via. the
second level of finding deep Qualia and finally until we will encounter the
necessary creation for living. The necessary dance has own unique Flower,
Secret, and Mystery.
The Flower can
bloom based on the own Secret and Mystery which even ourselves do not
understand.
We need to deepen
our subbody=cobody Butoh dance by repeating practice and polishing it. It grows
up through many times performing in front of an audience. At the performance,
we can get 'Resonance Riken (=distant) eyes' how to resonate with the world.
Through them, our
creation becomes an open treasure of Life.
4. Return the creation of Life
The creation means
to invent a novel resonance pattern of Qualia which does not exist yet.
If creation is a
real creation, it belongs to neither Ego nor Self. Because the true creator is
Life.
Life has already
infinite Qualia through the four billion years of Life history. We receive all
of them at each cell, and we try to find new resonance patterns of them by
using them in the limited conditions.
We return our
creation to the Life through performance or through midwifing which supports
other's creation by giving workshops.
We return our
finding of new resonance pattern of Qualia, and the treasure of Life Resonance
pattern becomes a little bit richer. Even with using a disabled body or warped
mentality, we can change it into a novel beauty. Then some of Life can be
encouraged, "oh, we can live as a creator with this disabled body or
twisted mind."
We will die as an
individual being, but we return into the Life as our creation lives in the huge
Life Tide.
This is the Butoh
of Life.
Do you know why it
is neither ego expression, nor self-expression?
Though, still many
people are bound by the modern concept of Art.
Squeaky air Stain on the wall infinitely Blurred flowers wander
Locomotive passes through
the inside of the body
Passing of the myriad
gaze
A firm with remaining
blurred
The face of the dried
flower
People who are made of dust
A dangerous person who
seems to be collapsed
The dark bottle stands
dangerous
A girl wrapped in the
behind the darkness
Saido
rise
Rising up with the
darkness gradually
Generation and
dismantling of the doll by soil
Saido Collapse
Wire in the body
The collapse of the
beggar
Disappearing into the
haze Leaves fall in the cranium one by one
( See chapter 9
Butoh-fu “Kan Flower”)
Saido transformation
We transform into the huge Mystery of Life.
A novel technique to become the Mystery of Life was found. It is
called Saido technique. We segment our body into thousands of fine fragments
and each fragment transforms into different beings with fine Rokudo vibrations.
Rokudo is Six movements of Vibration, Sway, Wave, Shock, Collapse and Die. We
also segment the Rokudo into random fine fragments and pass them through each
part of the body at random.
Until it is swaying between Non-dual and dual or between Life
and Death. The whole body shape is changing into another shape with Saido
vibrations. It is called as Saido Stand, Saido rise, Saido collapse and so on.
Then our body stops to be a human body and transform into something unknown.
Saido technique is originally from Zeami who was a founder of
Noh dance 600 years ago in Japan. He used it especially in the <Kyu> part
of Jo-Ha-Kyu. It was the most important secret technique that transforms into
something unknown between Death and Life. We ourselves transform into something
unknown. And we co-create the whole process the world transforms into something
unknown. The audience will be involved in your Butoh through the Life
Resonance.
Remember the
spontaneous turn over in your sleep, from tiny twitch to big posture
change.
These are the natural somatic response to adjust your body from uncomfortable condition
to a comfortable position. The cellular lives adjust themselves with changing
their resonance pattern among cells of the whole body.
Being Warped
Imagine that each
part of your body is a cubic shape, and one of them is warped by an unknown
power, with a different direction, size, strength, speed, and rhythm.
Reverse warp
Amplify the warped
transformation to the maximum; your life must response it with reverse warping
against the warped transformation. Life response it always reverses warp.
Human walk to humanoid walk
Start a human walk
which is the same shape with a normal daily walk but with minimum speed. A part
of your body is warped slightly by unknown force with giving a subtle change in
your human walk. Continue it with spreading to various part of your body.
Sometimes your body may respond with natural reverse warp. Your body
becomes a system error humanoid robot.
Your eyes become video camera eye, everything reflected on your eye but without
resonance.
Your nerves are stolen when you noticed it. Also, the eyes start system errors.
You watch everything without resonance.
It is not rare in the contemporary world; you can meet many humanoids on the
street of the city.
Polish your humanoid body day by day. The work will be connected with the
question; "What is the contemporary world?”, "What makes people into
humanoid without resonance?"
Walk with your own humanoid walk toward the world. Your walk becomes a mirror
of the contemporary world.
Research the novelist sequence and combination for your life.
Weakened body
Sometimes the
warped has developed beyond the limit of reverse warp. Your body has been fixed
in the warped shape without
plasticity. This
is the weakened body. Also, many bodies are
collapsed in the
contemporary world by pollution, by job, war, and
so on. Hijikata
collected these collapsed bodies as the teachers for
the weakened body
to open universal resonance ability. To cultivate infinite resonativity
(resonance ability) with handicapped people, diseased people, insane people,
crime people, and dead people. We need to change the world which all people can
live with resonance without elimination. Walk as a weakened body, warped body.
Ask the people without words "Why did you lose your resonance ability with
collapsed people and weakened people?"
Find your own weakened body, and invent the way to survive with the weakened
body.
Create your own transition
Try this exercise
among the various method of walking with creating variously warped and reverse
warp; ash walk, nest walk, stone walk, mountain walk, puppet walk, human walk,
humanoid walk, origin walk. Animal crawl, starfish roll, ameba roll, water
body, vaporized body and so on. Invent your own warped transition or collapsed
transformation among the various way of moving.
Become rhizome which can survive with changing into any kinds of the miserable
body to ugly body.
This is the essence of weakened body Butoh which can be called as "The
Butoh of Life".
Researching
the necessity of your dance
Why do you dance?
Why do you need to create?
To research in it, the best way is to find your 10 problems and letting them
devour you.
"I
usually solve my problem, by letting them devour me." (Kafka)
This is the same way of "Bug's walk" of Hijikata. "Bugs
walk" has many layers to deepen.
1. The first stage of Bugs walk is just dance as the text.
Bugs move you. Bugs ate up you. Bugs change the world.
2. The second stage of it is to put your own Qualia into "Bugs".
Your own Qualia moves you. Your own Qualia eat you. Your own Qualia change the
world.
3. The third stage is to put your problems into "Bugs".
Find ten problems with you.
Your problems move you.
Your problems devour you.
Your problems change the world.
When a problem eats Life, Life always accepts it as a twisted Qualia, and
response it with reversing the twist.
When your ten problems devour you, Life will try various <Reverse Twist>.
ten problems devour you, and Life does the <Reverse Twist>.
Dance all of them.
In that chaos, you must get a deep Qualia for your Life.
It will guide you to the very reason for your dance, and your necessity of the
creation.
After the five desires walk, listen to your ten
issues about your desires, habits, addictions, thinking tendency that you are
bound by, and so on.
Saido
Technique that dances between Life and death
Break down your body into the cell size
“Saido” means to
break down your body into finest non-dual vibration to release from normal
human expression. Some co-researchers are still caught in the emotional
expression that is still overacting.
This is a habit, so the midwife must find the best timing and point it out
somewhere. Overacting expressions are those of everyday life and are commonly
used in the normal theater. It is not creation. Creation of Butoh is
not repeating the daily body but invents a novel form that travels from Life to
Life. By prohibiting exaggerated emotional expression as seen in theater and
movies, for the first time the invention is inevitably pushed out.
Become the fine shivering body!
How do you devise a novel Butoh dance that changes to it?
One possibility is to break down the body dance into a fine size infinitely.
We inhabit all the human size expression, and by crushing finely into cell
size, shivering and frightening, the possibility of Life Resonance transmitted
from the Life to Life is born.
This "Fine shivering body" is one of the breakthroughs in < Kyu
part> kept investigating in Zeami and Hijikata secretly in recent years.
There is hidden synchronicity among them. Also, I have met my necessity to
inhibit aggressive expression. After long years of ferment, this cell's
shivering technique is coming out. Let's try it on the possibility now. To
transform it into only one secret in the world.
This is the conclusion of the investigation in that Zeami of the later years
reached to prohibit Rikidou-style and focused on the Saidou-style that is the
fine shivering. And my listening to my body has met the same invention. This is
also synchronized with the change of Hijikata from the Ankoku butoh of his
young age to the weakened body of later years. Behind this, there would be
hidden a universal issue about the Beauty of Life Resonance Butoh.
Jo-Ha-kyu of vibration
We can integrate all vibration techniques like the following.
Jo: Ash body -very subtle vibrations
Ha: Clouding body -wear the Qualia cloud and the forgotten Qualia
will moves you in the diverse sizes of vibration and swaying.
Kyu: Fine shivering body -Break own your body into cell size, with
rapid rhythm and increase the intensity. Become the fine and hard shivering
body. Try to use this technique instead of the overacting movement. We can
approach one more step toward the Butoh of Life.
“Saido” technique
is from Zeami of Noh-dance. He used it at the most important Kyu part. Also,
you can use it in the Kan Flower of Hijikata, especially for the Kyu
transformation.
The most
fundamental desire as Life is Resonance desire. Even Life of a cell has this
tendency that pursues or wait for the best resonance pattern between Life and
the environment. We can regard it as the basic tendency of Life. The cell has
no sensing organ, only a cell’s skin, and cell fluid. The Resonance tendency is
Non-dual Listen to Life of your hundred trillion cells how they resonate with
various Qualia between cell’s Life and the environment; the gravity, the son,
temperature, moisture, sound and the Life memories that are reserved in the
cell as the inner Qualia. All other desires connect to this Resonance tendency.
This is the most fundamental and non-dual tendency for Life.
2. Safety
desire
Next three desires are the fundamental desires as the creature. Start Ash
walk and at first listen to safe Qualia that is good Resonance with the
world. After for a while listening to unsafe Qualia that you feel fear
with the world. Like this in each desire try to listen to both of good
Resonance Qualia and dissonance Qualia. Dance it by your spine response.
The prototype fear, shivering and blockage might be hidden in your deepest
hidden muscles.
3. Comfort desire
With walking listen to Qualia that you feel comfortable, food, drink, breathe,
and circumstances. And Imagine that they are disturbed and you feel uncomfortable.
Research your own pattern of comfort and discomfort around your habits,
addiction. And so on. Dance it by the response of your all Hidden Cavities;
inner organs, the intestine, stomach, lung, heart, throat, mouth, nose,
tongue and so on.
4.
Connection desire
Connection desire includes sexual desire. But
for the cell’s tendency, we can call it as the connection desire as a general
term. What do you want to connect to? You will feel satisfied when you can
connect to what you want to connect. What do you feel when you can’t connect to
what you want to connect? You feel fluctuation and the desire will be twisted,
broken, and transform to anger, hatred, jealousy and so on. Taste the both of
good Resonance and Dissonance of connection desire. Dance it with the response
of all layers of Hidden skin.
5. Individuation desire (Creation desire)
Individuation desire (Creation desire) is only
human beings have it. It is a special desire, “I want to be a hundred percent
myself.”, “I want to realize all potential creativity, originality, and
resonativity (resonance ability) of Life.” It also grasps as the Creation
desire. Listen to how did you become yourself? What is it that let you not
yourself? Or, how did you fail to become yourself?
How is it possible to find your true dance?
I have investigated how to guide students to get it for a long year, but, I
could not find the best proper way until this year.
A night in the dream my subbody of "Infectious Fever “which I created ten
years ago, told me "Lee, guide students into the same way to find me
exactly ten years ago, it is necessary for everybody, not only for you.”
Ten years ago I have faced my ten problems which I have bound by for long
years, and I dinged the tunnel to release from these problems one by one. I
started to tackle the smallest problem.
The first problem was what I could not stand neutrally.
The second one is what I could not open transparent eyes without intention and
tension.
The third one is what I could not escape from the superego which continued to
direct me from the above sky.
I invented each movement to release from these ten problems.
It became my first subbody solo of "Infectious Fever".
But, until recently I regarded that it was only my special case because it was
so hard to process. I couldn't guide the others that hard process. But now I
recognize that it is really worth to face one's binds and problems for everybody
to meet one's true dance which is necessary for life.
I organized the safe process of "Sen-Shin-Hitsu" with using resonance touch and shiatsu method for awaking the
proto vitality which is able to heal by oneself and "Edge work" to overcome the uncomfortable crisis of encountering the edge...
Now finally I find the method how to research in the darkness of the body.
I named it "Sen-Shin-Hitsu" method.
"Sen" is the first step of
researching subbodies.
"Sen" means "Novel!", "New!", "Fresh!”,
“Interesting!", and "Precious!"
When you calm down daily body/mind and listen in the darkness of body with
moving our hidden joints, hidden cavities, and hidden skin in various ways, if
you meet a novel body feeling, just follow, amplify it until the limit. You can
create your "Sen" subbodies.
The second stage is "Shin"
"Shin" means "Deep!"
When you find a curious movement for your Life if you feel "I don't know
the reason why, but I could feel something connected to my depth", this is
the sub-signal of "Shin" from your Life.
Our inner Qualia are resonating each other beyond the time and space in our
darkness of body. The new Qualia which you meet today may resonate with the
experience of child age, maybe dream of fetus age, or deeper life memory which
is folded in your cells. The constellation of the inner Qualia is resonating
together in multi-dimension.
It may connect to some "Shadow" which Jung found as an inferior
character, "Not-me" which Sullivan found which was disappeared
character in infant age through being ignored by parents,
"Trauma" which you have forgotten, and "Dissociated
character" which your ego has cut away.
They can become your "Hidden subbodies”. Sometimes it may connect to
deeper life tendencies which were folded in your cells as life
memories. They can become your "Proto subbodies".
If you find the "Deep!" sub-signal, you will encounter many edges
which give you unknown uncomfortable body feeling. We need to learn Shiatsu
technique for overcoming these unknown difficulties on the edge and get the
proto vitality which can cure and heal by oneself.
We need to proceed slowly and slowly with listening to the time of life.
The third step is "Hitsu"
"Hitsu" means
"Necessity!"
When most of the students seem ready to proceed to the next stage, we will
begin deepest researching to find the necessity of movement for life. We have
to face one's own problems and bind which bound us until today. It will be so
hard inner struggle, but it is worth to do for finding the new way to live with
being released from these unnecessary binds.
Accentually all of the binds are not necessary for life. But our ego and self
don't know how to escape from these unnecessary binds...
The real creation is the always "Reverse twist" of our lives which
try to turn ourselves to the opposite direction which our lives are twisted,
pressed, and warped.
You don't need to force yourself against the deepest problem in the first step.
We have so many binds which are folded in our darkness of body. You should
start to tackle the easier problems which you can overcome with small effort;
you will do the reverse twist and reframe your constellation from those binds.
To live subbody is to continue this infinite process one step by one step with
spiral deepening.
Subbody Butoh is to continue the investigation in the necessity of dance of
Life.
The important thing is the tempo. The too-early process must break you by the
too strong pressure of edges. The midwife of subbody
has to listen in the time of life of students carefully with throwing away the
self. To become the midwife of subbody is the hard training to abandon one's
self. It will be the hardest way of life, but it is the most worth to live.
In the previous
column, I mentioned the relationship between "Sick Dancing Princess"
of Hijikata and Jung's active imagination. I'll keep organizing the
relationship between Subbody method and active imagination today.
Active imagination
was discovered by Jung to integrate the consciousness and the subconscious
through meditation. And also, classical oriental meditation has the same
method. It is one of the universal methods to integrate the whole self. I also
learned a lot from them.
Channel method
All kinds of mind
and body methods can be divided by the difference of the channel to use. The
comprehensive list of the channels is below. I learned the concept of the
channel from Arnold Mindell.
In the extrovert
channels, the Life of our cells is resonating mainly with present physical
Qualia here and now. We call it outer Qualia.
And in the
introvert channels, the inner Qualia which are stored in the cell as the Life memory
is used as the main. In the meditation, we stop the extrovert channel and
listen to the Qualia of the introvert channel. Normally the extrovert movement
channel is inhibited to open.
Hypnotherapy is a
similar process as above, following the suggestions by a hypnotist, and then we
can contact the Qualia of infant age and so on beyond time and space.
Self-hypnosis is
also to open introvert channels alone without hypnosis’s suggestion. Also, it
doesn't open the extrovert movement channel, human-relationship channel and so
on.
The dream is
similar; the movement channel has subsided during the sleep and opens the
introvert visual channel to become the main channel. Sometimes it opens the
other introvert channels.
Floyd's dream
analysis is to interpret the dream by the thinking channel with using language.
Mindell's dreaming
body method is trying to understand by focusing on the integrity of the visual
channel of dreams and body feeling channel.
A Jungian active
imagination is to open introvert channels through a meditative state, following
the imaginary Qualia stream freely, and fix it by language as a fantastic
narrative.
Drawing active
imagination is to be replaced by the visual channel instead of the language as
the slideshow above.
All of these are
useful therapy to explore the resonance between the conscious and the
subconscious, to rebuild a good relationship between them.
Jung used it for
individuation to integrate consciousness and subconscious as the whole self.
Subbody method has
some differences from them. One of them is to open all channels except thinking
channel. We open body feeling, movement, visual, audio, emotion, human
relationship, and self-=world channels and integrate all of them to create a
subbody Butoh dance. It is a unique characteristic of the subbody method.
Listening to the all inner Qualia of every introvert channel and convert them
to the outer Qualia of the extrovert channel, then it appears like the actual
movement of the body.
One more important
characteristic is opening cobody channel.
The subbody=cobody
method is to enter the deeper realm of the darkness of the body. In the deep
layers of it, subbody and cobody are not separated, they are muddled as oneness
in the non-dual realm.
Of course, our
daily body must encounter extreme hard edge Qualia in that realm. The biggest
archetype of Ego and Self-resistance against the non-dual Qualia is fear.
Through the struggle to overcome the edges, we can release from the biggest
modern illusion of Ego and Self which binds us strongly.
In the creation of
Subbody=cobody Butoh, it will be able to integrate the whole of the
consciousness, subconscious, collective unconscious, and body as oneness.
Subbody=cobody method is not limited to only creation, healing, and mind-body
therapy, it is a survival method to re-edit our daily life by opening infinite
creativity of Life. Because the Subbody=cobody method opens all channels, we
can understand the exact difference of other methods which open only limited
channels. Hijikata oriented to enter the non-dual realm of the darkness of the
body. He wrote down in his notebook.
"To enter the realm of undifferentiation of Self and
Others. It has another relationship of hidden logic different from daily
relationship."
"Through only it, we can overcome the modern concept
of self-expression or ego-expression, and we can create the Butoh which is
called the designation of Life."
In the center of
the figure above, there is a realm of non-dual Qualia. There is no separation
of channels, and the border between self and others inside and outside
disappears. This is the realm which we must enter to create the Butoh of Life.
Dream body
Consensus Reality of the daily Human, and Reality of Life
Resonance Qualia
Dream body,
subbody, and cobody are brother-sister. Both are generated in the darkness of
body which is resonating in the non-dual and multi-dimensional realm of Life.
The difference is only one. Dream body doesn't open movement channel, subbody
and cobody open all channels. Especially, in the proto dream where we cannot
forget or repeat dreaming many times, a big hint to find a secret tunnel toward
where each one’s own Abyss is hidden. We started to share all proto dream
worlds by entering with subbody and cobody into each proto dream world.
We become all
things in nature, or in the Universe and everything in the imaginary world.
"Becoming", it is not like a performance in the theater where a human
plays a certain role and personality.
If we do not take
off the belief that I am a "human", "Becoming" is not
possible. Become a child, become a woman (man), and become an animal. Become a
stone, become a smoke bug, and become a shady thing. Become a swarm of bees,
mole's whole, stuffed spring.
Become dismal air,
garbage disposal space, the dream of a stranger.
Pass through your
blood into all becoming. Carry density, reduce by X and regenerate, jump wild
freely. It's the Butoh of Life.
Passive body
Qualia of to be
moved is one of the deepest Qualia for Life, just like as Qualia of unable to
move.
Because our origin
of Life was born four billion years before it could not move at all in the
first period.
Life was moved by
another power; gravity, wave, wind earthquake, thunder, storm, and so on for a
long time.
Then in our Life
memory, so many kinds of Qualia to be moved and unable to move is folded.
Our consciousness
forgets them but our Life remember them, they are recorded in our genome, and
then all of us can share them.
To be moved at
hundred points of the body.
Similar as hundred
tandem three dimensions practice, from sacrum to head, at all hundred tandems
of body, try to be moved by another being toward the random directions, with
different timing, to different directions, by different strength and speed.
Forget that you
are human.
Throw away the
concept that you are the subject.
You become just a
passive body.
Not you but
another being moving your body.
You become just
medium which is possessed by strength, by other spirits.
This practice is
an important process for becoming possessed body.
Butoh is not the
self-expression at all.
You do not dance
by yourself, but someone moves your body.
Another being that
comes from an unknown dimension possesses your body and mind.
This is the
different point from the western dance concept which is bound by the modern
concept that dance is self-expression by using body.
They believe that
I can possess my body and can control it.
It is the
misunderstanding about Life and body.
They don't know
about subconscious at all.
Also, most of
Butoh dancers are bound by the concept of self-expression.
Real Butoh is the
art for living in a completely different multi-dimensional world released from
the narrow concept of modern human.
1. Swaying medimotion
Rotate your pelvis. Find the most comfortable speed and size.
2. Inner breathing
Send fresh air to all cells. Listen to the subtle change of cells feel.
3. Remember the fetus dream
when we are a fetus in the mother’s womb, we did not know that we are a human.
We are just floating in the amniotic fluid for ten months.
Our consciousness forgets this age at all. But our subconscious remembers this
age's body feeling. When we got the most comfortable sway in the swaying
medimotion, everybody feels special comfort.
This swaying comfort is an imprint from swaying in fetus age. We might have
various dreams as a creature except for human.
4. Remember the single-cell age
our individual life started when our mother's egg cell met the father's sperm.
We were just a small single cell.
5. Upstream to the origin Life
Go upstream more. Imagine our life repeated the single-cell form and multi-cell
form for long years. Imagine that we were the original cell which was born on
this planet for the first time at four billion years ago.
6. Qualia by the resonance between origin Life and the Universe
Imagine
what Qualia the original life felt about the environment.
Even a single cell could feel the Qualia of gravity, sunshine, air, wind, wave,
and taste of a molecule of food.
7. Move as a single-celled creature
Find the most primitive movement as a single-cell creature.
Ask to your life "what do you want to do?"
8. Find subbody movement
As a single-cell creature, find a most primitive movement. Short movement is
OK. Just a simple movement for a minute. We shared each subbody movement
together in the subbody theater at the end of class.
Dance the most impressive Qualia of resonance or
dissonance of five desires. Start from Listening to Non-dual Resonance desire.
The subtle sway between good resonance and dissonance will connect to the subtle
sway of other desires. Dance all of them with using the Jumping wild and
Carrying density techniques. Through this research, you can travel your Whole
Self and Whole Life.
Individuation and <Becoming Life>
Psychologist C.G.Jung and philosopher Gille
Deleuze, whom I learned a lot, put <individuation> as a human goal.
<Individuation> means realizing 100% of Self potential.
<Individuation> is a precious goal. However, the present age that the
destruction of Life and Earth has advanced to its limit, that's not enough. Not
only becoming Self but <To become Life> is what the most important
matters. What comes after the “human death” predicted by Michel Foucault is
<Becoming Life>. If there is something in this book that I can add to the
achievement of my teachers, it will be <Becoming Life>. Only that can
open up our brilliant Future.
Before the
differentiation between self and others
Opening the
relationship channel of Life. Sink into the fetus world when we didn't know
that we are human. When we were fetuses, we were not divided into self and
others. Fetus and womb were oneness.
There was the origin of the relationship before we were divided into self and
others.
We are from there, though our self-consciousness has forgotten it all.
Because the self-consciousness had to deny the oneness world to become
self-consciousness. But our subconscious body can remember the oneness
world. Our subconscious bodies prefer to contact with other body and melt into
oneness. We have the proto-tendency to return to the original world where self
and others were not divided yet. Of course, our consciousness and ego
don't think so, because they have forgotten it at all.
Our ego and self-consciousness are bound by so many misunderstandings, and the
self-consciousness which is based on a sense of the divide between self and
others is the typical one.
Because self-consciousness has to deny the sense of oneness to establish a
sense of divide. Consciousness cannot accept any ambiguous.
The self-consciousness which believes that it exists by oneself is the biggest
illusion for human. We take off the illusion of self-consciousness. Then it is
able to taste the Qualia of oneness when we were fetus or another
creature. All Qualia which life has experienced are reserved in our cells
as Life memories.
Open the proto sense of Life
When we were an embryo or fetus, we did not know that we are human. We didn't
have thought, we cannot have seen, because we didn't have eyes and brain. We
had only body fluid and skin of the cell. Through the skin, we felt everything;
we did resonate with the world. This is the proto sense. We need to open this
for sinking into the deeper realm of the darkness of body. We can enter
this world through cobody (=group) process. Cobody is connected with the corrective
unconscious body. It is deeper than the individual subconscious body
(=subbody).
Today, we started from resonance touch, shiatsu, and group contact with rotten
eyes. We become embryo and fetus in the womb together. In these
conditions, the body feeling was the main channel without visual, audio, smell,
taste channels. All senses were oneness as an integrated proto sense. With
opening this proto sense, we did group research with contacting together with
rotten eyes. We become a human mountain, a human ocean, and a human couch. We
did creation and sharing together as a cobody=subbody.
This cobody process is closer to the non-dual and multi-dimensional realm of
life than the subbody process. I noticed that this is the very entrance of
"the Butoh of life" which Hijikata has researched in his last stage.
We may reach the entrance of the tunnel of Butoh of life. It took ten years
investigation for me in Himalaya.
Open the hidden nerves One
of the most important hidden sense is the imaginary tale.
Now we don't have a tale, but we have the nerve for tale still. The nerve is
forgotten for the daily body. But we can open the hidden nerve of a tale. It is
connected with other hidden worlds; underground, heaven, behind, past, dead
world, archetypes world, proto dream, forgotten memories.
The "Hip shijun" which is one of the important choreographs for women
group of Hijikata Butoh is also connected with the hidden nerve of the tale.
The old ladies in the ancient community are moved by the resonance with other
worlds where the ancestors are living. To talk with them is "Hip
shijun" It is hard to understand if you keep modern thinking way. We need
to learn to throw away our thinking habit by words. To be moved by
following invisible tale is one of the ways to release from the daily human
body.
At the request of
a student, we tried the Regression to the Fetus world work after a long
absence.
It is where one
person becomes a center fetus, and the others cover it as a womb and share the
experiences in the womb before and after the delivery of the baby.
It is something
that experiences four of the worlds before and after the Delivery that was
found by Stanislav Grof.
BPMⅠ: Ocean ecstasy
BPMⅡ: Expulsion over from paradise
A sudden change of the world, No exit
BPMⅢ Conflict of Death and Regeneration
Violence and Biological anger, Volcanic ecstasy
BPMⅣ Experiences between Death and Rebirth
Deep journey in the Abyss, Cosmic sense of Unity, Mystery
of Ego and Universe, Enlightenment
(BMP="basic perinatal matrices")
Big events after
the birth, are tied with any of the four phases above and are amplified by the
resonance of Qualia.
All Qualia
resonate with each other beyond time and space, between outer Qualia of
physical experience that is happening nowhere, and inner Qualia that are stored
in the cells as the Life memory of 4 billion years and all Qualia of the fetus.
We experienced all
Qualia of Life history condensed in ten months, and the four phases of inner
Qualia before and after delivery that Grof found.
The danger of this
work is, we cannot predict when and how the resonant amplification would occur.
We need
preparation with great care, if anything might happen, everyone must face it as
their own issue and solve it together as One Life.
Fortunately, it
has been built among this year's students.
Not only to
experience this work, through it, but we are also sharing the issue to be
transparent which we see all phenomenon as the Life Resonance of Qualia.
This is the first
achievement in the history of the ten plus years of Subbody School.
Squeaky Air
Hijikata wife, Akiko Motofuji wrote,
“One-day Hijikata asked me in the bed “What is
Squeaky body?”
Hijikata seemed to consist to the “Squeaky
Qualia” form long year.
Actually this “Squeaky Qualia” connect to our
first Traumatic Qualia that everybody has experienced and forgotten. When we
were a fetus in the mother’s womb the first ten months it was very comfortable,
warm and free… the fetus might hope to continue forever. But it’s not forever,
after ten months the womb started shrinking. “Stop it, stop it!
I don’t want it”, the fetus might feel so, but
never stopped, Fetus sought the exit, but no exit was found; Fetus became panic
and got angry as a creature. “If you kill me, I will destroy this world!” Fetus
desperately searched the exit and finally found the vagina at the bottom of the
womb. Fetus pushed his head into the small hole and twisted his
body. It was the deepest experience between
death and Life without breathing and blood occupy for several minutes. Fetus
struggled with it, and finally came out! “Ogyaaa!” Congratulation! It’s your
birth. We don’t have a memory about it, because during the delivery process.
Inner morphine, beta-endorphin has spread from brain to whole body and we
forgot everything, pain, stress panic… But, cell’s Life remembers it, then when
we meet a similar experience the first traumatic Qualia resonate double. Then
it becomes panic. Hijikata had researched this deep mystery of the “Squeaky
air” Qualia for long years and crystallized it in this butoh-fu. (See chapter 9
Butoh-fu)
On Facebook, I
have met again the fateful words that led me to become my Life after decades.
"You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a
dancing star."
-Friedrich Nietzsche
When I was 16
years old, I read this in the library of the high school. And into the coming
decades, like eternal recurrence, these words had continued to echo in the
darkness of my body. I continued to cherish the unknown chaos of the darkness of
the body carefully and kept listening to it.
At last, when I
was 45-years-old, the dancing star got to dance and jump out of the body. And I
have continued listening to the chaos of the darkness of the body, as the most
important thing. When I was young, I could just notice it as "chaos",
but now; it has become a little transparent as the following:
"Non-dual and multi-dimensional Life Resonance"
Though it is still
deep numinous Abyss even now, I can understand the reason why it is so hard to
recognize certainly.
Because Life and Qualia is not a substance, but it
is Resonance. My work as a midwife in the subbody school is to support students
to be aware of the abyss of the chaos in the darkness of the body. We call the
chaos also "discombobulating" which has neither clear direction nor
orientation. I hope every student to get a way of life which continues to
listen to the infinite chaos. I believe that it is the infinite treasure house
of the infinite creativity and originality of Life. We encounter fateful words
that we never forget and it continues to lead us to our destiny.
9. The Warped Qualia One day, Hijikata
Tatsumi said to his wife, "I wonder what the warped body is?" (Akiko Motofuji, Hijikata's wife in her book The memories of Hijikata Tatsumi.)
He used to make the sound at his
various joints in the bed at night often. Butoh dancer digs various tunnels in
the body for twenty-four hours. Hijikata grew up in the Akita
prefecture where is placed at the northern edge of Japan. They have their own
deep culture based on animism traditional which has a big difference against
modern western culture in Tokyo, Japan. Hijikata felt deeply warped Qualia
in his body between his natural body from Akita and modern Tokyo where he moved
in his twenties. For me, the warped Qualia are the most important for
creation. Almost all of my butoh pieces started from the warped Qualia. I investigated them for long years. I moved from the countryside
of Japan; Wakayama to big city Osaka, too. I felt a big gap against a modern
city life in Osaka. I could imagine the depth of warped Qualia for Hijikata
because the gap might be extremely bigger than my case. Warped Qualia happen
between different cultures, customs, but not only that.
What
are the warped Qualia?
Warped Qualia have so
many variations in the multi-dimension; pressed, twisted, frozen, shrunken,
rotten, decayed, blocked, collapsed, weakened, surprised, attacked by unknown
uncomfortable feelings, strange emotion, itchy, afraid, something wrong, a
momentary subtle feeling, and so on. I cannot explain them generally. But I can
say a thing about them.
Warped Qualia
happen between life and the world. It is a necessity for life. Warp means a necessary change
by an unknown stimulus that life did not know yet how to resonate with it. The
change might lead to death. But life had to decide to do or not to do at the
risk of life. The change by the warped Qualia was on the risk between life and
death.
Warped Qualia,
edge Qualia, and the proto dream I found the hidden connection
among warped Qualia, edge Qualia, and the proto dream. They are connected in the deep non-dual
realm as oneness as the necessary creation for life. They are the most
important experiences for surviving. The deepest warped Qualia
appear as the proto dream which has become an unforgettable dream in our life,
sometimes it repeats many times. When Life receives an important warped quale,
life creates a deep impressive dream to remember it. Then a deep secret and
mystery is folded in our proto dream and warped Qualia. There may be a key for
who am I?Or where is your uniqueness
from?
Hijikata investigated in the
warped Qualia through the life. He finally digs out the deepest warped Qualia
as his last butoh dance: A girl. The dead sister was one of the deepest warped Qualia
for him. Why his favorite sister had to leave from home when he was a child and
had to sell her body in a foreign city. It was an unsolved mystery for him
in his childhood. He investigated it throughout his life. And finally, he could
succeed in reverse the warped qualities of the creation of the butoh.
Hijikata made some
"Practice Butoh score" for the workshops to raise a butoh dancer of
next-generation in his later years. It is his Will to the next dancers that
"A size walk" and "Bugs walk" told us.
Become a small cell's
Life and let the body follow the demands of "A size walk" carefully.
Here it is not a body that belongs to the physical world, but it is requested to
become a body that resonates with another dimension, different worlds behind
the daily world. Every element of the Kugutsu (puppet) body was included that
we have been exploring.
The revolution that
Hijikata tried to do was to greatly expand the concept of human of the
contemporary age. The world image of future human beings = self-image is
included here.
"A size walk"
1. Walk while keeping
a size
2. Transition instead
of walking between heaven and earth
3.Become the grass ball eyes and put the third
eye on your forehead
4.The reflecting speed is faster than the
viewing speed
5. Razorblade on the
sole of the foot
6. A water vase on the
head
7. Joints are hanging
by the spider thread
8. The wish to walk is
preceded and the shape catches up afterward
9. Traces of walking
are hanging both forward and backward
10. Become the grass
ball eyes and put the third eye on your forehead
11. Razorblade on the
sole of the foot
12. A water vase on
the head
13. Forest at the back
tooth and spiders thread in the cavity of the body
14. Eyes already stop
looking and feet will stop walking. Your being itself will become walking eyes,
walking feet
15 Steps demand the
discontinuity of walking and urge the spread of space
A short explanation
1. Walk while keeping
a size
It is the Kugutsu
(puppet) body itself because it does not have the flexibility of changing size.
2. You do not walk like
a human being. You shift your body with the world behind, the heavenly world,
the boundary of the earth, along with the different world of the darkness of
body. Carry the Kugutsu (puppet) body which mediates this world and the other
world.
3. Reduce your daily
watching eyes and become the glass ball eyes of Kugutsu or Shisha.
And the other eye on
the foreheads is similar to the traditional the third eye which is able to see
everything transparently. Hijikata had deepened the third eye into the skin
eyes that all the skin cells become into the eyes and ears; he called it
<participation into the skin>.
7. The fact that a
joint is hung with a spider thread is to become a puppet moved by some other
power of a different world. In "Quiet House", it's called "The Red
God". It resonates with other worlds through the motion of each single
spider thread.
8. You do not walk
with your own will; the wish to walk is away from the body. In an attempt to
regain the missing soul, desperately trying to pursue that hard desire.
Struggles in the impossibility to restore the integrity with the soul.
9. From here I will
enter a different world. It has not belonged to the space-time of this world
already. Beyond time, traces that walked in the past forward and backward are
hanging. This is exactly the non-dual world to which Qualia of Life Resonance
belongs.
10. Forest of the back
teeth. Forests and nests are the special terms of Hijikata, the symbol of dark
mysteries and secrets where unknown Qualia is entangling. The forest is the
original forest that remains only in the mountains Tohoku or islands that
almost of them have already been lost. Infinite Life and death fold in many-layered
beyond time and space. Feel the deep mystery and unknown secrets of them. The
cavity of the body resonates with the unknown world through the thread of the
spiders as well.
11. Space-time is not
as continuous as the daily world. Walking through a multitude of contiguous
multi-dimensional contradictions where infinite space-time is interrupted. You
do not know what will happen, cannot predict what your body transform into. You
will experience everything as a "Shisha" as its infinite resonance
transforming body.
This is the condition
of the world image = self image for Butoh left by Hijikata. Why do we have to
show such things to people who live in modern times?
The world =self
image wearing overlapped different worlds
If your image of the world is this
consensus reality of four-dimensional space-time. Your self is a daily body.
You do not notice what your body deviates away from Life and tapped into such
miserable narrow prison.
If your world image is
in sympathy with a different world from this world, you spread beyond the
boundaries of contemporary human beings in different dimensions. The world
image and self-image are integrated. There is no such thing as a world image
and a separated self-image (identity).
However, many Western thought and
psychologists and scientists deal with it as if there is an independent
identity from the world image.
In fact, it is
unconsciously imprisoned into the common illusion of this contemporary world.
It was long ago that
Heidegger raised the concept of "existence in the world" a long time
ago. I also received suggestions from him about the idea of my world = self-image. However, he did not
consider the multi-dimensional world of the Life Qualia that mankind has
resonated with myriad other worlds of Animistic worldview for tens of thousands
of years.
The fact that the definition of
Life of modern biologists is only captured by material processes also indicates
that biologists dissociate the non-material processes of Life. They could not
integrate both, and still now no consideration about it, because they
dissociate the real hard problem unconsciously and get fake happiness.
Even though anyone
thinks that Life is not only related to the material dimension but, they ignore
it because it is not a territory of science. They trap themselves in a narrow
modern human intelligence.
Intelligence in any
field will not attempt to capture the truth of non-dual and multi-dimensional
Resonance of Life.
It is the modern world trick that
everybody is caught, self-isolated from the world, human dissociates the Life,
knowledge forgets the long human history, and consciousness ignores the
subconscious. Nobody attempts the integration at all. Segmented common
fantasies, it is the contemporary world we live.
What
Hijikata tried desperately
Hijikata who was oriented towards
Butoh of Life was aware of that. That's why he tried to show the true
appearance of Life by becoming a swaying being among the different worlds of
Life and death.To become Shisha wearing the various other worlds including
death.
Epidermal cells of our skin, the
first secret membrane, are also dead cells. We are dying and dead, being alive
and being alive. Nothing is as familiar as death to Life. Most of the entire
Universe is the world of death. It is the reality of Life that is trembling
always at the border of Life and death.
However, we forgot
that long forgotten the awe of the unknown worlds. bound by the common illusion
as if only a modern human being exists.
Moreover, from modern
society, dead people, sick people, crazy people, disabled people, criminals are
isolated to hospitals outside the society and prisoners, and only healthy
people are allowed to exist in society.
The thought that only a healthy
person dominates the world and can change it as you want is prevalent in this
world. In the ancient Greek world that was supported by slavery, citizens who
eliminated slavery alone conceived the world = human figure, and it was aimed
at governance by only that "narrow citizen = human".It is an illusion
of democracy.
The co-fantasy of that democratic
state is still reigning as the best co-fantasy. Human element form that
"human = material world view = democratic state" became a triple is
dominating the world. They alienate the infinite creativity of life from modern
humans. They will not be released from these narrow frameworks unless they
overwhelm the modern co-fantasy structure of this Trinity from the ground.
Hijikata tried to greatly extend
the human concept through the butoh of Life. He tried to get back the infinite
transformation ability that the modern man lost away.
"We
abandon all human conditions.
Please
do not mistake this. "
"Human beings
have not touched one-millionth of the unknown order that will come yet."
Nevertheless, until
when will you endure suffocating on this narrow fantastic prison? It is that
question that Butoh dancer asks to the present age.
In 1949, 43 years old,
you performed the first dance performance in Tokyo. When you came back from
Manokwari of New Guinea, demobilized
after one year of prison life, you decided to dance your friends who died in
the Second World War; you called it "dance of the jellyfish." You wanted to dance it from
the experience onboard the voyage home from New Guinea, saw off the burial at
sea the people who died in malnutrition and disease, floating in the sea at
that time. Tatsumi Hijikata at 21 years old saw your first dance
recital and was shocked. He called you "The Poison Dancer!" later. After the War, no modern
dancer tried to dance the dead, they were hoping to the happy future, only you
danced it by becoming Shisha (dead) itself. Then Hijikata resonated deeply,
because also his most of sisters and brothers died in the War including the
beloved sister which he could dance it in the last solo of Quiet House,
finally. You and Hijikata started from
the deep resonance to dance invisible different dimension including the realm
of the dead.
Dancing between the
Bottom and Vaporized body
I collected the bottom shapes of Kazuo Ohno. The only
dynamic standing pose is spread to the world as if Ohno's trademarks. I worried
about it. It guides people to a big misunderstanding about his butoh.Ohno's
butoh was distorted by those great poses of his pictures. Photographers used to
shoot the timing of his standing and spread his big hands to the sky. In spite of that, it is merely a pose of his butoh,
cameramen aimed to shoot the great pose. Because it is felt like the beauty for
their eyes. But their eyes are warped by the
modern daily sense of beauty. Photographers, who shoot only
his great pose, distort his life of butoh completely. And the sad thing, many
Western butoh dancers are influenced by 'the fake of Ohno's butoh style', and
it spread to the world. For long years I worried about
it. It is one of the flowers of his butoh, all right. He
looked even great beings who communicate with the Universe. But the flower is
not made of by flower itself. The flower becomes the flower supported by the
secret and the mystery. Ohno's real dance was wandering the dark world below
the knee; he faced to the edge of death, listen to the other world, full of the
secrets and mysteries of life there. And he danced the distance between the
bottom realms and vaporized floating realm. Kazuo Ohno was an improvisational dancer. He could
dance for long hours just by improvising as his original jellyfish dance. Hijikata
gave him an important choreographs when Kazuo asked Hijikata to choreograph
"La Argentina" and “My Mother". A few people knew that both pieces were choreographed
and directed by Hijikata. Hijikata's choreography was just put some
materialized bottoms in the piece because it was the most necessary thing to
support Kazuo's natural jellyfish dance, it was the vaporized body in Hijkata's
term. Hijikata knew well about
Ohno's dance what was the strongest Flower and what was lacked and
wanted. Hijikata put the Kugutsu body, Bottom body or Quiet
body at the beginning, between each part, and the beginning of the ending part.
They supported Ohno's natural jellyfish dance as if the anchor, then the piece
got the width between stillness and movement. The dynamic contrast brought the
audience into the Kazuo's Abyss.
The second piece which Hijikata
choreographed was "My mother".Hijikata put a tiny table as the symbol
of his mother, and fixed some postures with the table, on the table, playing
with the table, entering the womb world, fucking the table, and so on. Also,
they supported the dynamic total Jo-ha-Kyu effectively. We can understand after studying
Hijikata's secret of choreographing through "Quiet House", how he
applied his numerous techniques of creation into the choreograph of Kazuo's
piece. Also, a famous story that characterizes well the
distinction of Hijikata and Ohno, "The form follows the spirit", and
"The spirit follows the form". But this is an artificial story which
a clever critique made. He hides the fact Hijikata
choreographed Ohno's piece. Hijikata learned the vaporized body from Ohno's
jellyfish dance at a young age and developed it to the vaporized and
materialized technique. Both processes were the essence of Hijikata's
technique. It is to dance the distance between the weakened body and the
separated spirit from the physical body. Ohno and Hijikata shared the whole process for long years. They
know well each other including the absolute difference. In the 1970's they
have separated far away. And they could find the best resonance pattern in the 1980s.
Flower, Secret, and Mystery Without
facing to the own Mystery and Secret, the butoh turns to the fake dance. (I wrote this sentence two
years ago. I don't like the dualistic judgment as above. There is no dualistic
boundary between true dance and fake dance. We need to take off all of these
dualistic habits of consciousness. I don't have time to correct the above
sentence into a non-dualistic sentence now. I just ask you to give attention to
overcome those dualistic conscious habits. About dance and butoh, we
should not use the word. We can get something real only through body
experience.)
Most of the photographers seem
not to see his secret and mystery. Yoshito Ohno, his son said
"Kazuo
had another world under the knee. It was another cosmos for him. ‘The world of
under the knee was very important for him. In the case of modern dance, the
tendency to orient the upper direction against the Gravity is strong. But, for
Kazuo, on the opposite. When he felt something underworld, he just falls down.
The speed is terrible. In a moment he was fallen." (" Ohno Kazuo; daily food
for Spirit", 1999, Japan)
I collected Ohno's photos of
the opposite pose against the great pose of his butoh. It was hard,
because too rare to find. Fortunately, in the works of
Naoya Ikegami, I could find a few photos. I deeply appreciate Naoya's
important works. It may be useful to save the worldwide misunderstanding about
Kazuo's butoh. Please taste them in your
life. with stopping your daily sense of beauty. We need to take off all the conditions
of humans. And ask your life, "What
do you want most?".
"What
is the Flower of his butoh?" "What
is the Secret of his butoh?" "What
is the Mystery of his butoh?"
All of Secrets and
Mysteries are invisible, belongs in behind world. Only when you stop your daily
mind, it will be able to resonate with your Life.
In 1981, four years
after "La Argentina", Kazuo Ohno staged "My Mother"
likewise choreography and directed by Tatsumi Hijikata. Along with Argentina,
the mother was an Anime in Kazuo Ohno.
We must liberate ourselves from tough imprinting called Anima for a lifetime.
It is a necessity to process to release from the mystery of sexuality and
to return to Life. Hijikata started the dance from "Fetus Dream".
In the past, a Japanese thought Yutaka Haniya watched the Dark black butoh
and said: "It is a womb meditation."
It is one of the
essences of the Butoh of Life.
From usual everyday life restricted to the narrow "human" concept,
we can enter the non-dual world that there is no sexuality, no border of
self and others, no race and so on in the womb. In order to return to the
original state of Life, we can enter the fetus realm exploring the darkness
of the body. Ohno also said that
"There are
neither men nor women in the fetus.”
Both Hijikata and Ohno danced infinite sexualities. They danced a girl,
a witch. Danced gay, danced Sadism and an asexual fetus. Ohno who woke
up from the original sleep went back to the fetal path. Continue to wander
the fetus world by attaching things like folklore to the body. It was the movement
of a kind of angels that can be done for the first time in a 75-year-old body.
Hijikata suggested him
to use a small table as a symbol of Kazuo's mother. Kazuo danced a variety of
relationships with the table=mother. Held the mother, got on the mother,
carried the mother and fucked the mother.
However, during the
dancing, Kazuo became the mother itself or a dead mother possessed him.
Possession is also a
Life Resonance phenomenon; Resonance has no subject or object. It just happens
from both sides spontaneously. A perfect possession was realized in the dance.
Through dancing both
of the big Anima; Argentina and Mother, he could complete the long dance life which
these
two must inevitably dance;
Kazuo Ohno was freed from something.
It can be said that we
have perfected the Jo-Ha-Kyu of his life by this creation.
Continuing dancing
with the body borrowed from eternal Life, he could finally return his body that
100 years borrowed, to the Life with the interest of this creation. He went
back to Life itself without a single point of regret.
"La Argentina" and "My Mother"is representative works
of Kazuo Ohno. Both are by choreographing and directing Hijikata Tatsumi.
It is a crystal of friendship that it is continued the cooperation of the
soul of the two dancers who exchanged over 30 years. When young Hijikata
came out to Tokyo around the age of 20. He was surprised at the performance
of Kazuo Ohno, shouted, "He is a poison dancer!"
When Kazuo Ohno was on the way to demobilize from the battlefront in the
Philippine island, many of the soldiers died on a ship and were buried
into the sea. Each time the ship rang the farewell whistle with a deep
sad sound. While listening to it, Ohno Kazuo decided if I could come back
to Japan alive, I would dance you, through you were thrown into the sea
eaten up by fishes and became sea algae. His proto image of the Jellyfish
dance of dead soldiers was confirmed on the ship. It was just the Ohno's
desperate necessary dance that the young Hijikata encountered in Tokyo.
Also, Hijikata had lost the most favorite sister during the War. After
that, they both formed an inevitable relationship and started the fight
for 30 years of "Ankoku Butoh (Dark black dance)" activities.
In 1977, Kazuo Ohno asked Hijikata for the
choreography and directing of "The Argentina" which is the nodule of
his Life."La Argentina" has the composition of Part 1 and Part 2, the
first part is divided into four chapters.
1) Divine excerpt,
2) A girl,
3) Daily Bread,
4) Marriage between heaven and earth.
1. Divine excerpt
Hijikata cited the 1960 work “The Divine" which Kazuo Ohno performed
in his choreography at the beginning. Hijikata said,
"Please
become a prostitute of Jean Jeune's male prostitute."
Kazuo Ohno said
"Let's become it"."Bring it to the head and start by standing
up from the audience seating, and you die on the stage."
The choreography of that time was reproduced with the gorgeous prostitute
costume. It was such a perfect beginning as Kazuo's son Yoshito had to
shout, "That dance was the essence of Kazuo in all performances!
I watched his irreplaceable essence!"
2. A girl
The old male prostitute died and reborn as
a small girl with underwear on the stage.
A girl is also a flower in Ohno dance.
Ohno's belief is "There were neither
men nor women before they were born."
From a prostitute to a
girl, Hijikata and Ohno tried to live both sexes in a dance.
He incarnated while
repeating death and regeneration.
3. Daily Bread
"And in the following "Daily
bread" part, please show your old naked body directly a lot."
It was the moment when the body of the
71year old dancer turned into a flower.
To the sharpness of his choreography of the
imaginary magician Hijikata, Kazuo Ohno himself also would tremble with
dancing.
It is a miracle that they realized because
they both knew well each other about dancing together for many years.
4. Marriage between heaven and earth
And at the end of the
first part, a big grand piano was brought to the stage.
"Marriage between
heaven and earth".
Kazuo stands still in
front of the piano and never moved. He keeps stillness for a long time.
Marriage is a unity.
It is a unity between
Life and before Life, between the heavens and the earth, between the soul and
the body. It was a miraculous silent crystal moment was born.
The Well-Tempered
Clavier of J.S.Bach ringed out. A dark turn.
Tango, Flowers and
Bird dances of the second part.
"Mr. Ohno, please
do as much as you want"
Hijikata released on
Ohno’s dancing soul on stage.
Ohno danced after
becoming dancer Argentina who had seen and moved deeply in his youth and kept
thinking to be one with her for 50 years.
Death and regeneration
intermingle countlessly, and the <Jo-Ha-Kyu> has been perfected.
That is the moment
Ohno and Hijikata's 30 years voyage had become one.
It can be said that it was another "marriage of heaven and earth ».
山崎、よみがえれ！ リゾーム・リー （岡龍二）
Yamazaki, Reborn! 2019 | Rhizome Lee
Hijikata's solo
of "Quiet House" is performed by the Weakened body throughout the
whole time. It is not only the well-known 'desperately standing corpse (dead
body)' as people regard as the basic butoh body which moves slowly, but it is
"The Shisha" which transforms quietly yet infinitely. The following words which Hijikata wrote by his blood with the title of
"Important" are neither understood nor taken over by a few students
of him. I have never seen any butoh dancer who became 'Shisha' except for
Hijikata.
Important
“Shisha transform their shapes quietly yet infinitely.
It is not rare that they borrow the shapes of things on the earth with
unexpected nonchalance.”
It
is necessary to become'Shisha'
what we dig the darkness of body infinitely, with experiencing all conditions
of Life between Hell and Heaven. 'Shisha' does not belong in modern concept,
but belong in the animistic world which human has experienced for seven
millions of years history. In the ancient animism world, everything is
transforming infinitely. In the ancient Buddhism world, it is regarded there
are three thousand worlds, and Shisha travels all of those different worlds. In
the ancient Japanese animism world, also eight million kinds of spirits are
living in the non-dual and multi-dimensional worlds.
How
is it able to become Shisha? We need to take off narrow modern humanistic
intelligence and to become Life. Please start to see the pictures above, and
feel subtle shivering of your Life. Not receiving them as the information, but
accept them with subtle Life resonance; with prototypical emotions and subtle
inner motions as shivering, fear, or awe and so on.
The
butoh of Life starts from those of primitive response of Life.
To
get it or not will be your turning point to start digging into the tunnels
toward the Abyss of Life. In that realm of Abyss (bottomless depth), we will be
aware of the oneness of the Shisha and the Red God.
It is 'the Hidden logic world before the division of the Self and Others'
which Hijikata demanded all butoh dancers to enter, as the fetus and the
womb. The Shisha and the Red God are the metaphors of non-dual and multi-dimensional
resonance of Life.
Our
daily body and mind could not resonate with the infinite world of Life and
Death including all kinds of miseries, disasters, wars, mutations of bodies,
handicapped, and so on. But when we take off the illusion of 'the Human', we
can recover the infinite resonativity (= resonance ability) with all of them as
Life.
The
practice of butoh is just to travel infinitely among these behind worlds with
vaporizing and materializing technique until you meet your own Abyss where the
reason why you need to dance is hidden.
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folklore to the body. It was the movement
of a kind of angels that can be done for the first time in a 75-year-old body.
could complete the long dance life which
these 
In 1977, Kazuo Ohno asked Hijikata for the
choreography and directing of "The Argentina" which is the nodule of
his Life."La Argentina" has the composition of Part 1 and Part 2, the
first part is divided into four chapters.
4. Marriage between heaven and earth
